Draw

The game started with 1. d4 d5 2. c4 e6 3. e3 Nf6. I don't know the name of this line. I think 6. b3 would had been better than 6. Nf3 coz this will keep pawns on c4 d4 squares. The another mistake was had to play 11. Re1 instead of 11. e4. and then 12. e4. Perhaps a better line. Could not again appreciable advantage in the middle game. However, I did like queen's pawn opening.

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Chess

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ज्ञान

ज्ञान शब्द को हमने ठीक से नही समझा है। ज्ञान का आनुभौतिक अर्थ है मुक्ति। किताबों मे जो ज्ञान हैं वो ज्ञान नही हैं वो सूचनाएँ हैं। वो ज्ञान के बारे मे सूचनाएँ हैं। मुझे आश्चर्य है की ज्ञान को प्राप्त करने के लिए अरबों खरबों प्रकार की पुस्तकें लिखी गईं। ज्ञान की काफ़ी गहराई मे अज्ञान ही बचता है। हम ज्ञान को पकर लेते हैं। और आजीवन परके रहते हैं। ज्ञान यही कहता है की मुझे पकरो नही। मुक्त रहो। ज्ञान अपने जगह पर है, हम अपने जगह पर हैं। लेकिन कभी कभी हम अपनी अभिव्यक्ति ज्ञान के ऊपर रख देते हैं। इतना ही नही हम यह सोचने लगते हैं की हम ही ज्ञान हैं। ज्ञान सिर्फ़ इतना कहता है की मुझे जानो और छोरो। पकरो नही। समाज मे जब जब अज्ञानी लोगों की संख्या बढती है तो उस समाज मे पुस्तकों की संक्या बढ़ जाती है। पहले तो हम यह समझे की हम सही मे अज्ञानी हैं। हम अज्ञानी हुए कब? हमने कभी कुछ ऐसा तो किया नही की हमारा अज्ञान बढे। हो वही रहा है, हम अज्ञानी नही हैं पर हमने मान लिया है की हम अज्ञानी हैं। अज्ञान मान्यता का है, सत्य नही है। बस मान्यता गिर जाए तो उसी समय अज्ञान ज्ञान हो जाता हैं। किताब पढ़ के जादा कुछ होता नही है, सिर्फ़ हमारी मान्यताएं ही गिरती हैं। और कभी कभी अज्ञान जिसको हमने ज्ञान मन लिया है वो वास्तविक ज्ञान को होने से रोक देता है। ज्ञान ज्ञान को रोक देता है। अज्ञान ज्ञान को रोक देता है। ज्ञान कुछ भी हो उसका मूल अर्थ इतना ही है की ज्ञान अपने जगह पर है। हम अपने जगह पर हैं। हम मे और ज्ञान मे जादा कुछ लेना देना नही है। बस साक्षी भाव का sambandh है। हम ज्ञान के प्रति साक्षी हैं। ज्ञान अपने जगह पे, हम अपने जगह पे और हम ज्ञान के प्रति साक्षी हैं। हम ज्ञान नही हैं। हमें ज्ञान को पकरना नही है। हम जीवन भर उस ज्ञान को पकरते हैं। और जीवन के अन्तिम क्षणों मे हमारा वोही ज्ञान हमारे किसी काम नही आता। सारे ज्ञान विदा हो जाते हैं। विदा की बात तो तब जब हमने उस ज्ञान को पकरा हो। इसलिए हमें दुःख होता है। क्योंकि सारा जीवन तो हमने उस ज्ञान को पकर के बिताया। इसलिए अगर हम ज्ञान को पकरे नही तो ज्ञान के विदा होने का प्रश्न ही नही है। फिर जीवन सुखमय होगा। बस इतना ध्यान रखना की "हम ज्ञान को पकरे नही" यह भी एक प्रकार का ज्ञान है और इसे मत पकर लेना।

Change

Except truth everything change. We changed. So many things changed and still changing...The only thing which never changed is the truth. So change happens only when we are not in truth. That means anything which changes is false. Because, it's changing. It's not stable. Only unstable thing change. That's why I say, "At the change transcend". Simply transcend the change. And the moment you transcend the change you are with truth. Because that change is transcended now. Whenever we change that means previous state was not stable. Something was bugging in the previous state. Something unholy was there in the previous state. So, we move to the next state, then to the next and it continues...till the last breath of the life. So, whole life we move from one state to another state to another...but still in spite of so much of change one thing never changed through out the life. That's you! You never changed. Self doesn't know any change. But unfortunately we never realize our true self. So many things we learnt, but never our self. We have absolutely no idea from where we've come, what are we doing and where we will go. Remain unchanged amidst of all the changes. That's what is the fundamental meaning of change.

Back to Bangalore

Yesterday's journey was memorable. My brother had booked the flight for me from Kolkata to Bangalore which he said is scheduled at 7:30 pm. Due to hectic schedule at Jamshedpur, I couldn't take the printout of the e-ticket. So, decided to take the printout on the day of the journey itself that is yesterday in Kolkata. I caught steel express and reached Howrah at 11:00am. Then I went to a cyber cafe to take the printout of e-ticket. And lo! the flight was at 7:30 am instead. That time I remembered God for a moment. I think God does play dice. My brother wrongly understood that flight is in evening 7:30 pm. That time I had two luggage in my hand and no tickets at Howrah station. I decided to go to the airport quickly. Fortunately, got an Indigo flight scheduled at 4:50 pm via Hyderabad. I reached Bangalore airport at 8:45pm. Then way back to home by bus. I reached my home earlier than if flight were not missed.

Blogging frequency

I am not a blogger. But, I just write few words. I know my blogging frequency has decreased and it will possibly continue to decrease for a while say 10 days as I am out of station. My intention is not to create a blog on the every aspect of life. Only thing I know is the truth. Except truth, I don't know anything. I wrote few posts on truth. But that was nothing as compared to truth. I can't write truth, I can only write about the truth.

The origin of terrorism

The recent terror attack in Mumbai was heart wrenching. So many people died. It can happen with anyone, anywhere :-(

I was thinking on the origin of terrorism. One of the most important reason I see is the advent of hardcore fundamentalists who lack love. There is no love at all in our society. Because, we are not taught to love. Charity might begins at home but terrorism definitely begins from home. Terrorism is the outcome of wrong education. Wrong education is the outcome of the advent of so many religions. Humanity cannot sustain too many religions. Now, the time has come to converge all these religion into the religion of humanity. I call it - "Convergence of the Religions". Which anyway gonna happen some time later - I'm sure about it. And the basis of that religion should be love. Love is the only way to unite humanity. Except love there is no practical way out. Except otherwise everybody has the level of understandings of what Buddha had, what Jesus had, what Lao-Tso had. Which unfortunately is highly improbable.

The most disgusting situation is when we think something is right which is actually wrong. And when we think something is wrong which is actually right. Some of things we have learn t in the exactly opposite manner. That's why conflict arise. Those terrorist believe on something which we don't believe. If we (we + those terrorist) had same common education of love, such things would had not possible.

Romance of 1500-1800 century

The last post I ended describing 1500 to 1850 as goldan era of art. Because of the raise of Shakespere, Wordsworth, Milton, Michale Angelo, Beethoven, Mozart, Leonardo Da Vinci etc. I am just visualizing the kind of romances happening in those times. How did the Shakespere get the idea of Romeo and Juliet? The story of Romeo and Juliet clearly signifies that society was heart based. Even if it's fiction, it does depict the kind of love spreaded in the society. Otherwise there is no possibility that someone can write a story like Romeo and Juliet. It brings my visualization to the Oxford university. The romances happening in the campus of Oxford university in those times. Remember in those times there were no electricity, no internet, no cars, traints, no planes etc. I wanted to study into Oxford university but couldn't anyway...but gonna spend some time there for sure. England is definitely the pioneer in the university education. There university education started long back. Oxford university was founded in 12th century. That startecdthe educational revolution in England. No wonder England had produced so many philosopher's, scientist. India had been slightly unfortunate those times due to reign fo Mughals. Anyways, I am visualizing the professors of oxford university teaching the story of Romeo and Juliet to the students. And there must be many couples among those student. Because, in those times there were no scientific subjects. There were no Newton's laws in their syllabus. The whole of the education was full of love and art. I am sure those time would had prodced the finest couples. Imagine the couples walking in the morning on grass wet with dew inside the campus of oxford university. Talkings in the garden with red flowers in the autumn. I didnt' see such gardens in India. A walk in the moonlitnight ;-) there can by many such romantic things to do in the campus of oxford university.

Mind and Heart

After a long time got some time to scribble...Lol.

Mind is shhit. Full shhit. Heart is holy. Our education system is mind based. No wonder this perverted the society. Mind can't appreciate anything. Mind doesn't know beauty. Mind can't appreciate flower, the singing birds, the vast non-ending horizons, the beauty of sky. I found sky as the most beautiful creation. Since my early childhood sky attracted me. Sky is the purest element. There is no scope of contamination in sky. Sky existed even before big-bang if any at all it ever happened. The problem with mind is that it has no idea of what is beauty. Only thing the mind knows is logic. And at times, mind can be deceptive. Extremely deceptive. That is, it can act like heart. Mind can assert statement which appears to be coming from the heart. This is the most dangerous part of mind. Mind fools mind. There is not scope of stability in mind. Any relationship which is based on mind won't run longer. It won't be durable. For example the relationship between son and mother is not mind based. It's heart based. That's why it runs without any problems.

There were times when I used to be hardcore logical analyzing things. And I found that logic do work but after certain levels of logic it makes no sense. Because, it starts approaching to the root level of existence. So, it simply starts disappearing. I always work on the root level. From where everything is arising. Working on the derived problems will fetch temporal solutions. The reason behind this is - we had been always taught to work on the derived problems only. The derived problems are the class of those problems whose origin is somewhere else and mostly hidden from us. And at slightly unfortunate note, in most of the cases we don't care to know the root of the problem. Because, we were taught like that. Because, the teacher who taught us they themselves didn't know the root problem. Because, they were also taught like that. They knew, but only the derived problem. And we are carrying their knowledge since generations by generations and 5000 years past without any ray of hope of creating a cheerful humanity. By using mind we can never create a cheerful and contented humanity. No way. No matter how great intellectual person he or she is. Heart is the only and only and only and only way out to create cheerful and contented humanity. There is no other way out. I explored this. Didn't we try so many things and it didn't work.

Heart knows beauty, love. The appreciation. Heart can appreciate something. It can feel. Look at the heart of Shakespeare, Wordsworth, John Milton, Michael Angelo, Mozart, Beethoven, Leonardo DA Vinci. All these artist were in between 1500 to 1800. I consider this era as the golden era of art. Year 1850 onwards scientific era started. So many great scientists appeared after 1850. But very like Mozart. Because, society became mind based. Society after 1850 is mind based. Society before 1850 we primarily heart based for the reason so many great artist appeared.

सत्य आनंद और प्रेम

हम सभी आनंद प्राप्त करना चाहते हैं। आनंद प्राप्त करने का मार्ग कुछ भी हो। हमारा उद्देश्य आनंद प्राप्त करना है। प्रेम के सहारे से हम आनंद प्राप्त करते हैं। विवाह का ईजाद भी आनंद प्राप्त करने के लिए किया गया था। अगर विवाह मे आनंद न हो तो कोई विवाह नही करेगा। वस्तुतः आनंद एक मे है। अद्वैत मे ही आनंद हो सकता है। द्वैत ने तो हमेशा से हमें उलझनों मे डाला है। द्वैत मे आनंद की कोई भी सम्भावना नही है। एक होना हमारी गहनतम आकांक्षा है। हम एक होना चाहते है। क्योंकि आनंद एक मे ही है। हम ख़ुद से एक नही हो पाते तो दूसरे से मिलके एक होना चाहते हैं। प्रेम मे वोही होता है। प्रेमी और प्रेमिका एक होने की कोशिश करते हैं। प्रेम अद्वैत की तरफ की यात्रा है। प्रेम की काफ़ी गहराई मे अद्वैत ही बचाता है। यही है प्रेम का वास्तविक सिद्धांत। तो विवाह जो प्रेम का की एक अंग है, उसमे पति पत्नी को अद्वैत की तरफ़ अग्रसर होने की प्रेरणा देती है। हम ख़ुद से एक नही हो पाते, तो प्रेम के माध्यम से एक होना चाहते हैं। जो लोग ख़ुद से एक हो जायें उन्हें फिर विवाह की जरुरत नही है। जैसे की विवेकानंद। उन्होंने विवाह नही किया क्योंकि वो अद्वैत की स्थिति मे थे ही।

Chess

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Karma

Had been busy watching chess. So, now it's time for philosophy. Today's topic is Karma.

Karma is an abstruse topic. That's why I was not writing about it. It's not easy to quantify the karma. If i knowingly kill a mosquito how much bad karma I will get? No body knows. No body can know. If we have taken this body then we have to do Karma. There is no way out. Except in Samadhi. Except samadhi every activity is Karma. Samadhi is the only phenomena when all the Karma dissolves. Because, at the time of samadhi there is no doer. Karma needs doer. Doer does karma. If no doer, no karma. The doer has to vanish.

Secondly, if you are the observer of Karma. Then karma won't bind you. Because, you are just an observer. An acute observer is free from Karma. Whole life we do Karma. And what do we get out of it. Nothing. Look at the child. They have done less karma, they are happy. We did more karma, we became unhappy. Because, the observance of karma was missing. We didn't observe. We just did without observing it. Because, we were not taught to do like that. Because, our teachers, our parents, our friends didn't know anything about observation. Because, they were also not taught. The knowledge was lost. And is still lost. Don't think what you have learnt in the schools and colleges in a haphazard manner is the only reality. In my view that's the holy bullshhhhit they have taught us. Our education system is one of the most important factor in creating a perverted society. We need more people like Buddha, Jesus. Else the whole of the humanity will get destroyed. Humanity never moved in the right direction. Humanity had been always against of truth. Always. Else we would have a happy cheerful humanity by now. Today we do not have cheerful humanity. So, tomorrow also we would not have. Then day after tomorrow also. And it will continue...like we have been working for 5000 years for better humanity and we could not achieve it by now. So, just like that in the next 5000 years we are not going to have a cheerful humanity. Unless otherwise we have lots and lots of people like Buddha. Our need is not to create engineers who know just F=MA and nothing else. We need to create persons who understand why does F=MA work? What makes F=MA work.We should not create just lame engineers who just has remember F=MA like a parrot. The point I am trying to state is we need more contented humanity. After Jesus, nobody became like him in Christianity. After Buddha, nobody became like him in Buddhism. The rate of making of enlightened being is too less. That's why we have problems.

I want to make whole of humanity like Buddha. Not even a single person should escape from truth. I have no intention to create engineers/doctors/MBA who just know superficially. Think, I mentioned this in any of my previous post - if we have even a single unhappy person that will make the whole of humanity unhappy. So, every body has to be happy. Like Buddha. I know it's not easy to happen. That's the only way out to create a cheerful humanity. Every living being has to attain the truth and become like Buddha at the same time. Otherwise, there is no way out.

Anand Won

Anand won. Congrates to him. For defending the title against russian V Kramnik. Anand was in need of just half point to attain the life time mission. Notably, Kramnik had a spectacular win in just 29 moves over Anand in the last game. However, as he started the last game with e4 the result was pretty known what's gonna happen. When Anand played e4 with white was very difficult for the russian to defeat him when he had not won any match in the last 2 years playing with black. He is the 2nd non-russian world champion after Bobby Fischer. Fischer was a mad genius of the chess. He doesn't follow much of opening theory like Kasparov.

I thoughroughly enjoyed Anand-Kramnik games watching live on chesscube.com Things I learnt is even grandmasters also take upto 30 mins to play a single move, sometimes. Lol.

A long game but not draw. Had to take few moves back at the time of beginning of end game. ;) Click here to follow the game.

Started the game in Sicilian defence e4. It was a comparatively complex middle game. Strategically, on 21.Bxh6 I sacrificed my bishop to break Nagaskaki's kingside castle. Which ultimately yielded an advantage of a rook over bishop. However, the endgame was also tricky.

Please be noted that PGN viewer I am using doesn't work with Chrome browser. It works with latest firefox and IE of course.

Weldone Kramnik!

Thanks Kramnik for drawing the game. Lol. Kramnik opted for slav defence. Again d4 business. Both player were playing at their best. So, no one could gain any advantage. However, Anand's position was slightly relatively stronger but unfortunately he couldn't make much use of it. They agreed to draw.

Kramnik WCC 2008

Kramnik what's wrong with you. You lost 3 games. If you can't win then you should draw the games. I know you can draw easily. Most of the player loose becuase they want to win. I think Anand will peacefully retain his world championship title opting for draws in the worst case in the subsequent games. 

Some of the move Kramnik played was too trivial. A grandmaster playing such moves is surprising. Only a miracle can stop Anand to retain his title.

There is something new in these mataches. First is they are starting the game with d4. I don't know why they are not playing e4. I want to see an e4 game. e4 is the best possible move. Secondly, Anand is not castling. This is strange. Castling keeps your king safe but that same time you loose one move in just castling. Anand's strategy is to use that move for other purpose. What Ananad is doing is he is able to save the king without castling. And that's what the logic says. If you can save your king and attack too without castling then why to castle? This strategy is working for him so far. However, Anand's king did got into trouble at times but that was pre-calculated by him.

I found Anand doesn't follow classical chess. He loves to break the rules. In game 5 he had not pawns in a b c file in contrast with Kramnik's 2 pawns back to back. Remember although pawns are weak pieces but they have potential to become queen, the strongest piece on the board. So, basically no one likes to do that. But, Anand did and won the match too. That shows his perfectness. So, far Anand is playing superb game. He moves same as suggested by supercomputer. Even Kramnik too. I don't know why Kramnik is not able to convert it to win. Kramnik had defeated Kasparov also. Kasparov is the most fundamental player in the history. I yet am keeping eyes on the games. 6 more matches to go. Result is known yet hoping for miracles...Lol

Chess

Had been long since I could play a game. Click here to follow a boring long draw. Lol

Analysis:

Started the game in my favorite Sicilian defense manner without any apparent advantage. I aligned my pieces to fight on c5 square but Nagaskaki chose to fight on c4 square where I didn't have any extra attack. That finished the middle game without any appreciable advantage to either side. In the end game I had to scarifice my bishop to eat away two potential strong pawn. I could convert a pawn into queen but lost immediately by eating black's bishop. After that the game ended with a trival draw.

WCC Anand-Kramnik 4th game

The game was draw. What to analyze a draw game. Lol. Both were playing well. The game started in queen's gambit style. Again I don't have much experience in this variation but essentially what it does is, it generates lame d5 black pawn. Then Kramnik had to exert lots of energy in just saving the d5 pawn. However, Kramnik was able to get hold of d4 square pushing the Anand's rook on d3 which enabled Kramnik to play d4. Which ultimately yielded a draw game. The way how Kramnik got hold on the centre squares is by pushing Anand's white bshop on g2 enabling Kramnik's knight on c5 to capture e6 square which in turn push Anand's rook to d3 as described above.

Overall a boring draw game. Waited 4 hours to see a draw. Let's see what's gonna happen on Monday. I am expecting Kramnik to start with sicilian defence. Enough of d4 business. He has enough time to make strategy for Monday.

Anand Kramnik

Yesterday, had been following World Chess Championship 2008 where Anand is trying to defend his world champion title against Russian Kramnik. Yesterday was the third game which Anand won. Last two game was draw. They started the game in slav defence. I never played this opening variation. Don't know much about it. In the middle game Anand was in trouble when he took more than 10 minutes to play 19...h5. I think move 22...Rg7 was the game saviour for Ananad. Before this move Kramnik had developed an excellent line of attack which made me to think that he is gonna win. After 22...Rg7 game was heading towards a probable draw when Kramnik made a mistake in 33.Bd3. Although Kramnik just margnally lost to Anand but win is a win. Lol. Because, Kramnik got a strong pawn (on the cost of loosing the queen) on a7 square which unfortunately he could not convert it to queen. Becuase, Anand had a white bishop which can capture white a8 square anytime. Had it been converted to queen Anand would had lost.

Today, is the fourth game. Anand will play with white. Let see what happens today.

ज्ञान

हमने बहोत सारे ज्ञान खो दिए हैं। समय के गर्त मे खो गया। अब स्थिति ऐसी हो गई है की हमने अज्ञानता को ही ज्ञान मान लिया। और काफ़ी प्रगाढ़ता से माना है। लेकिन पूर्ण प्रगाढ़ता से नही माना है। मेरा मानना है की अगर अज्ञान को भी पूर्ण प्रगाढ़ता से मान लिया जाए तो वह ज्ञान हो जाता है। अज्ञान- को ज्ञान मानकर ज्ञान को भुला दिया| सारा अज्ञान अपूर्णता से उत्त्पन्न होता है। पूर्णता मे अज्ञान कहाँ? पूर्ण, पूर्ण है उसमे अज्ञान की जगह कहाँ? पूर्ण से ही अद्वैत का बोध होता है। अपूर्णता ने तो हमेश द्वैत पैदा किया है। हमें द्वैत दिखाई देता है, अद्वैत दिखाई नही देता। हमने हमेशा से दो देखा है, एक का हमें कुछ भी नही पता। एक को हमने समय की गर्त मे भुला दिया। हमें सीमा दिखाई परती है, असीम हमें दिखाई नही परता। हमें सूरज और चाँद दिखाई परते हैं, उस सूरज और चाँद के बीच जो विराट आकाश है वो हमें दिखाई नही परता। उस आकाश के चलते ही सूरज, चाँद और तारों का अस्तित्व है। अगर आकाश न हो तो ये सारे, सूरज, चाँद खो जायेंगे। अब भी ब्रह्म का काफ़ी हिस्सा व्यक्त नही हुआ है। अभी भी आकाश ही आकाश है। एक परमाणु की अन्दर भी ९९% से जादा हिस्सा मे सिर्फ़ खाली आकाश होता है। हमारे घर के अन्दर भी जादातर स्थान खालि होता है। सूर्य और पृथ्वी के बीच १५ करोर किलोमीटर का खाली आकाश है। मेरे अनुसार अभी भी पूर्ण ब्रह्म के १% हिस्सा भी व्यक्त नही हुआ है। अगर होता, तो सिर्फ़ पदार्थ ही पदार्थ होता। इतना खाली आकाश न होता। पदार्थ ब्रह्म का काफ़ी संघनित रूप है। इसलिए अगर आकाश पे ध्यान किया जाए तो वह काफ़ी प्रभावशाली होगा। हमने ब्रह्म को ॐ की माध्यम से जाना है। ॐ ब्रह्म का सबसे निकटतम प्रतिनिधि है। और शायद आकाश से भी सूक्ष्म है। हम हिन्दुओं ने ॐ की अपरम्पार महिमा गाई है। सारे वेद मंत्र ॐ से ही शुरू होते हैं। और फिर कलयुग मे मंत्र योग का ही प्रावधान है| इसलिए ॐ मंत्र का जाप कलयुग मे कल्याणकारी सिद्ध होगा। कलयुग मे हठयोग , ज्ञानयोग, राजयोग थोरा मुश्किल है।

सत्य की खोज

जीवन दुःख है। बुद्ध ने ठीक कहा था। बुद्ध का पहला वचन था की जीवन दुःख है। ठीक कहा था उन्होंने। कुछ भी करो उसका अन्तिम परिणाम दुःख होता है। ये संसार दुःख सागर है। दुःख सागर कहना भी कम परेगा। दुःख का ऐसा सागर जिसकी गहराई अनंत है। मैंने इसे अनुभव किया है। करते ही दुःख हो जाता है। कुछ भी शाश्वत नही है यहाँ । लेहमन ब्रोदर डूब गया। कोई नही बचा पाया। सारा एम्.बी.ऐ का ज्ञान धरा का धरा रह गया और डूब गया। बनाया गया था इसलिए डूबा, अगर नही बनाया जाता तो नही डूबता। यह जीवन बना है, इसलिए डूबेगा। जो बनता है डूब जाता है। देर सबेर डूब ही जाता है। जिसे प्रेम करो उसी से अप्रेम हो जाता है। पर दुःख मान्यता का ही है। अगर दुःख का कारण है तो उसे समाप्त किया जा सकता है। अगर दुःख का कारन न हो तो उसे समाप्त नही किया जा सकता है। फिर दुःख शाश्वत हो जाएगा। और अगर दुःख शाश्वत हो जाए तो दुःख दुःख न रहेगा, फिर दुःख ही सत्य हो जाएगा। पर जिन जिन लोगों ने जीवन को बहोत ही गहराई से परखा है उनका यही कहना है की दुःख शाध्वत नही है। उन्होनों सुख की शाश्वत किरण को देखा होगा। एक किरण काफ़ी है। अगर तुम्हे सुख की एक भी किरण दिखाई परने लगे तो वो तुम्हे अनंत तक ले जा सकता है। जैसे की तुम अगर सूर्य की एक भी किरण को पकर लो तो वो तुम्हे सूर्य तक पंहुचा सकता है। पर उस किरण को समझने के लिए थोरा सा ज्ञान चाहिए। ज्ञान मे वो शक्ति है जो कर्म के बंधन से मुक्ति दिला सके। इसलिए मैंने ज्ञान को सर्वोपरि माना है। हालाँकि, कलयुग मे मंत्र योग की ही गाथा गाई गयी है। चैतन्य महाप्रभु इसके बहोत बारे समर्थक रहे हैं। क्योंकि कलयुग का आदमी दीन हीन होता है। उस से हठयोग जैसे कठिन साधना सम्भव नही हो सकेगी। इसलिए मंत्र योग का प्रावधान है कलयुग मे। पर इसका मतलब यह नही है की लोग मंत्र योग के अतिरिक्त कोई और योग न करे। अबतक एक मेरे अनुभव के अनुसार मैंने ज्ञान योग को ही सर्वोपरि माना है। मेरा मानना ग़लत भी हो सकता है। या ऐसे कहे की मेरे लिए ज्ञान योग सरलतम मार्ग है। किसी और के लिए भक्ति मार्ग सरल हो सकता है, किसी की लिए हठयोग सरल हो सकता है। मार्ग कुछ भी हो, पर अन्तिम परिणाम मुक्ति है। हम वस्तुतः इस शरीर मे कैद हैं। यह शरीर जेल जैसा है। धयान के माध्यम से इस शरीर के बहार निकला जा सकता है। ध्यान तुम्हे अनंत तक ले जा सकता है। खुले आकाश मे विचरण करा सकता है। आकाश के बारे मे मे दो शब्द कहना चाहता था। सबसे पहले आकाश का निर्माण हुआ था। खुला आकाश। इसलिए आकाश को मात्र देखने मात्र से ब्रह्म की अनुभूति होती है। इसलिए हम इश्वर को जब भी याद करते हैं तो आकाश की तरफ़ देखते हैं। जीसस को तुमने देखा होगा आकाश की तरफ़ देखते हुए। आकाश ब्रह्म का शुद्धतम रूप है। एक समय था जब हम न थे, आकाश था। एक समय होगा जब हम न रहेंगे, आकाश रहेगा। आकाश से मेरा बचपन से ही लगाव रहा है। बचपन मे अपने गाँव मे रात मे छत पर सोने समय खुले आकाशे मे चाँद तारों को देख कर आनंदित हुआ करता था। आकाश ने मुझे अब बचपन से ही आकर्षित किया है। खासकर क्षितिज ने।

Lessons from Buddha's Enlightenment

If any sincere seeker is reading this blog and possesses the eternal quest of knowing the truth then I have some knowledge which I should reveal to the whole world. My intention is simple. Extremely simple. I am writing about spirituality because, I know there are some fine souls trapped in the body and trying to get out of this bondage of karma. I am nothing, I am just a medium. The knowledge is coming from brahman, I write it on the blog, reader reads it, then it goes into his/her heart and from his/her heart it goes back to brahman. So, the knowledge travels from Brahman to Brahman via me and you. Let it travel. Don't interfere. Society has badly prepare you to interfere the natural flow. Drop it.

In this post I will write about how Buddha got enlightenment. There is high probability that if you do the same thing what Buddha did you will attain the truth. But, Buddha did very tough penance. He was not even taking food. You may not be able to do that. If you can do that, fine, go ahead. If you can't do that then read this post carefully. So, I devised a technique by which the extreme penance can be relaxed as follows:

Buddha did very tough spiritual practice for 6 years continuously. He met many gurus but no one could satisfy his thirst of truth. Finally, he became his own guru. However, this doesn't lessen the importance of guru. Buddha's case is special. He was very advanced seeker. Already almost enlightened. So, he may not need a guru. But, most probably you would need a guru. I am not talking about guru in this post. The trick is you don't need to do exactly what Buddha did for 6 years. Just do what Buddha did on the day of his enlightenment. If you can generate the same condition within you as Buddha generated on the day of his enlightenment you would achieve same. So, what did Buddha do on the day of enlightenment? That's all you need to know. And do atleast that. Buddha did only one thing that day. Only one thing. Before that day he was doing lots and lots of thing. And nothing was happening. He was doing and it was not happening. He stopped doing and it happened. Why he stopped doing is not that important. Important is he stopped doing. He stopped everything and it happened. It looks funny, but that's how it is and that's how it should must be. If you also stop, it will happen to you also. Whole life we work like a donkey and nothing happens. If it will happen, it will happen quickly otherwise it may not happened in billions and trillions of life. Like it happened to King Janak. One of the fastest realization ever happened in the history. It happened to him within a second. That's what is the power of Gyan. Gyan is most powerful that's why fastest. Bhakti can be slow. But to eternity slow or fast doesn't matter. Slow and fast is for you. The eternity has nothing to do with slow or fast. So, Buddha's mind has nothing to do that day. He was awake and mind had nothing to do. So, his mind simply disappeared and truth appeared. Mind always needs an object. Mind cannot work without an object. So, once the object is dropped mind simply disappears. And once mind disappears truth appears. Remember, that's why I had said - Either you exist or God exists. It fully applies to Buddha. When Buddha was existing, that is his mind was existing, that is he was doing something, then God, that is truth never existed for him. When his mind dropped, that is he disappeared, truth as God existed. When we are in wake state we have always something to do. Always. Out of your entire life , if you can mange to get few seconds in which you have nothing to do, that is your mind has nothing to do, you are blessed. Before that day, although Buddha had dropped, family, kingdom, fame, etc but he was still with his mind. He was keeping his mind, his ego with him. But, that day he dropped everything. He dropped to the extent that he had nothing left to drop anymore and that's how he got the truth. So, if you can simulate Buddha's day of enlightenment in your life you might attain truth.

I and my father are one - Jesus

In the gospel of John chapter 10 verse no 30 Jesus says "I and my father are one". I consider this as one of the most revolutionary statement of the bible. Once realized, this statement has power to bring the revolution of super consciousness. If not realized, it just remains like another sentences. However, this statement is wrongly understood even by catholics. Yesterday, I was chatting with a catholic saintly person from Texas about this statement. We differ in our understanding of this statement. This is not a simple statement. It looks simple but, actually it's not. The whole of the crux is hidden in this statement. However Jesus said that in slightly diplomatic manner. And mind you, this statement is complete. Means you don't need to read few more verses before and after this verse. It's a complete statement - I and my father are one. One thing is clear - he is definitely not talking about Joseph. He is talking about God. That he and his father who is God himself are one, means Jesus is God. Even catholics say this. But catholics think that this statement is only applicable to Jesus. That is, it's not entirely true for you. It's fully true only for Jesus. I differ with them on this. According to me it's true for whole of the humanity. Not only for Jesus. If it is not true for us that means God doesn't love us. What they say is - we can never become God but we can become god-like. There is a difference between God and God-like. Huge difference. According to Hinduism we can become exactly equal to God. Brihadaaranyak Upanishad says - "Aham Brahmasmi" perhaps the most straight forward declaration ever made so far. It's not a mantra, it's a declaration. Means you don't have to chant "Aham Brahmasmi". It's a one time declaration, that's it. The sage who realized it wrote it. He didn't realize Brahman by chanting Aham Brahmasmi. No way. He somehow realized the Brahman, but how? - that's different topic. And then he wrote "Aham Brahamsmi". It's a post effect of realization. So, it's a declaration. It's not a mantra. Gayatri mantra is a mantra.

So, basically I noticed catholics and Hinduism differ in philosophy greatly.

Oneliner

I love "you" but I don't love "your"

There are some more oneliners here

मान्यता

एक और एक मिल के दो होता है, पर हम नही माने तो? एक और एक मिल के दो ही हो और तीन नही हो यह हमारी मान्यता है। सत्य भी है। पर हमारी मान्यता भी है। सत्य के ऊपर मान्यता की परत है। एक और एक मिल के तीन भी हो सकता है, सम्भावना तो है पर, हमने यही माना की एक और एक दो ही होगा। मान्यता पर निर्भर करता है। अगर यह कहें की मान्यता पर ही निर्भर करता है तो कोई बहोत बरी अतिशयोक्ति न होगी। हर एक परिस्थिति मे एक और एक दो ही हो यह कोई जरुरी नही है। अगर ऐसा हो तो जोरना सत्य हो जाएगा, फिर हमारी मान्यता का क्या होगा? हमने जो भी सत्य सीखे हैं चाहे वो सत्य हो या न हों उनपर मान्यता की मुहर लगाने के बाद ही सीखे हैं। कितना भी बरा गणितज्ञ हो, जो तरह तरह का गणितीय प्रमाण दे की एक और एक जुड़कर दो ही होगा लेकिन हम उस प्रमाण को नही माने, और नही मानने का जो भी मूल्य चुकाना परे वो चुकाएं तो फिर उसका प्रमाण दो कौडी का भी नही रह जाता है। पर मान्यता मष्तिष्क की उपज है। उस से सत्य का कुछ लेना देना नही है। सत्य भी एक विचारधारा है। की ऐसा है। हमने मान्यता दी है। ऋषियों मुनियों ने मान्यता दी है। स्थूल रूप मे मान्यता तो हमने सत्य की ऊपर भी लगाये है। इसका मूल कारन यह है की सत्य गौन रह्ता है। वह तुम्हे मानाने देता है। इस से सत्य को कोई फर्क नही परता है, फर्क तुम्हे भी नही परना चाहिए। अगर तुमने मान ली लिया की हम सत्य को नही मानेंगे तो वोही तुम्हारे लिए सत्य होगा। सत्य की अमान्यता भी सत्य हो सकती है। बशर्ते तुम ठिक से मानो. तुम ठिक से मानते भी नहि हो. मान्यता प्रगाढ होनि चाहिये. आगर मान्यता प्रगाढ नहि है तो वो द्वैत हो जाता है. और सत्य कि स्थिति अद्वैत है. इसलिये मान्यता ऐसि होने चाहिये कि उसमे शक कि कोइ गुनजाइश न हो.

बुद्ध का जीवन

बुद्ध के जीवन ने मुझे बहोत प्रभावित किया है। मुझे डर है की कहीं मैं बौद्ध धर्मं को न अपना लूँ। इतना प्रभावित किया है। सबसे बरी बात जिससे मैं प्रभावित हुआ वो यह है - बुद्ध थे तो राजकुमार। और वो भीख मांग के जीवन यापन करते थे। आश्चर्य है। की एक राजकुमार भीख मांगे। कपिलवस्तु की गलिओं मे भीख मांगता फिरे। सबसे अच्छा जीवन राजकुमारों का होता था। स्वर्णमय जीवन होता था उनका। राजा से भी अच्छा। राजकुमार मनुष्य जाती की पराकाष्टा हुआ करती थी, ऐश्वर्य के मामले मे। उनसे जादा ऐश्वर्य मनुष्य जाती की इतिहास मे किसी को नही मिला और आगे भी नही मिलेगा। तो बुद्ध जब सिद्धार्थ थे तो उनके पास जीवन का सारा ऐश्वर्य था। जितना ऐश्वर्य हो सकता था, था। ऐसा होता है, अगर तुम्हे अनंत ऐश्वर्य मिले जाए तो वो भी कुछ समाया के बाद एक कांटे जासी हो जाती है। तो फिर मन यह सोचने लगता है की ऐश्वर्य के बाद क्या है? तो बुद्ध (सिद्धार्थ) यही सोचे। ऐश्वर्य तो था ही उनके पास। काफ़ी ऐश्वर्य था। इतना जादा था की आज हम भी उतना ऐश्वर्य प्राप्त नही कर सकते। बुद्ध जब सिद्धार्थ थे तो उनको भी धीरे धीरे पता लगने लगा की इस ऐश्वर्य मे कुछ भी नही रखा है। क्षणिक है यह ऐश्वर्य। आज है, कल नही रहेगा। बस बात ख़तम हो गई। इस बात को समझने के लिए प्रगाढ़ चैतन्य चाहिए। नही तो जन्म-जन्मान्तर मे भी कहाँ समझ मे आता है। जब जब मनुष्य जाती ऐश्वर्य की चरम सीमा पर होगी तब तब वो सत्य का दरवाजा खात्खातायेगा। इसलिए राजकुमारों को खूब सत्य मिला। बहोत सारे राजकुमार ब्रह्मज्ञानी हो गए। महावीर भी राजकुमार थे, ब्रह्मज्ञानी हो गए। तुम जीसस की बात न मानो थो थोरा तार्किक है क्योंकि, तुम तर्क दे सकते हो की जीसस तो ख़ुद गरीब था, बकरी चराता था तो दूसरों को भी गरीब करना चाहता था। तो हम उसकी बात नही मानेगे। काफ़ी अच्छा तर्क है ये। पर, तर्क तर्क होता है। तर्क के माध्यम से सत्य कभी नही मिला है और नही मिलेगा। हालाँकि इस तर्क का भी काट है मेरे पास, पर फिर तर्क पर तर्क हो जाएगा। और इस बीच सत्य खो जाएगा। अगर तुम तर्कवादी ही हो तो तुम बुद्ध के जीवन मे कोई भी तर्क नही लगा पाओगे। जीसस के जीवन मे थोरा बहुत तर्क लगाने जी जगह है। तुम जीसस के जीवन मे थोरा बहोत तर्क लगा सकते हो। पर बुद्ध और महावीर के जीवन मे तर्क लगाने की थोरी भी जगह नही है। क्योंकि दोनों ही राजकुमार थे। दोनों ने ही ऐश्वर्य की चरम सीमा को देखा था और पाया की यह कुछ भी नही है। इसलिए वे सत्य की तरफ़ अग्रसर हुए। जीसस की बात थोरी अलग है। और शायद बुद्ध और महावीर के जीवन से भी जादा प्रगाढ़ है। क्योंकि जीसस गरीब था। गरीबों की तृष्णा जादा होती है। उनकी अकन्षाएं असीम होती है। उन्हें अभी ऐश्वर्य को पाना है। सत्य से उनका अभी कोई लेना देना नही है। जीसस के पास ऐश्वर्य नही था पर वो फिर भी समझे गए की ऐश्वय कुछ भी नही है। ऐश्वर्य न रहते हुए भी समझ गए। थोरा कठिन हैं। बुद्ध के पास था, तब वो समझे थे। जीसस के पास नही था, फिर वो समझ गए जो थोरा कठिन है। इस मामले मे जीसस की प्रगाढ़ता जादा है। मैं कोई तुलना नही कर रहा हूँ। बस मैं अपना दृष्टिकोण व्यक्त कर रहा हूँ।

Ramblings

If I write a better blog, that doesn't mean I am a better person. If I write a worse blog that doesn't mean I am a bad person. If I type good words, that doesn't mean that I am a good person also. If I type bad words that doesn't mean I am a bad person also. A bad person can type good words. A good person can type bad words. Even a rapist can talk sometimes on dharma and realizations. Possible. Highly possible. Because, words doesn't depict the clear picture of what's running into person's mind. No body knows what's running to anybody Else's mind. You just have a cognitive perception of the person. But in most of the cases that meets our requirements. Some people like writings. I don't like writing much. Playing with words is not my game. Arranging words to make beautiful sentences following the rules of grammars is not my game. I don't write English, I write shubhenglish. Lol. We have learnt some of bad things as a good things and some of good things as a bad thing. And this understanding is so strong that there is no scope of modify that learning. This may be the propaganda of the society. We have been taught some of the pathetic learning assuming that these are good learning. And vice versa also. And we learnt these so strongly that now nothing can be done. Because, those socialists and those educationist made those structure of teaching that met their requirements for survival. So, it's like imparting their ideology to the coming generations that meets their "known" ways of requirements of the survival. Word "known" is important here. Those educationists know the subject matter. But very little. They don't know the root. They know superficially. Little knowledge is dangerous. And even more dangerous is learning bad(some of them) as good and good(some of them) as bad. Which we did that as I said above. Because of their principles and ideology they imparted on us. This is how society makes sheeps. Which goes whole life following others. Haven't we done everything which others have done. Till today, I have not done anything which has not been done by anybody so far. The whole life has become like a copy-pasted from others. That is one reason I stopped reading books. Reading book is a form of copying. When you read a book, you copy the information therein the book into your brain. We call it as a learning. We have been taught that learning is always good. No. Not always. Some times it can be disastrous. This is what is the bad thing we have learnt as a good thing. Whole life is a copy paste. Even all those inventions and discoveries are copy-paste. Copy-paste at slightly subtler level which essentially doesn't look like a copy-paste. But, actually it is a copy paste. Because, those scientists get ideas from other scientist. Einstein takes idea from Newton, Newton takes idea from Galileo, Galileo takes idea from Kepler, Kepler takes idea from someone I don't know. That someone takes idea from other someone...So, those scientist keep on taking ideas from other scientist. If you grow up a scientist in a forest and don't give him books, don't tell him about Newton or Einstein then he cant make discoveries. Because, he can't copy now. But then, he will make an entirely new discovery. Which humanity would have never thought. He will comeup with entirely new dimension. Because, he has not copied anything. All of your learning including your greatest innovation can be mapped to already existing similar innovations/ideas. Even my this post you can map somewhere. I would have got these ideas from somewhere. It can be mapped to somewhere. It's not coming on my own. I did read few books, watched few movies, videos, the kind of friends I have, etc. So, it can be mapped somewhere. So, everything is like a copy-pasted from others lol.

If you have done anything which humanity has not done so far I would love to hear. In my case , I have not done anything so far which has not been done by anyone. And to my knowledge no one has done anything entirely new which was never done.

Hope this post meets the requirements of the title of this post - Ramblings.

Chess

Won this game. Click here to follow the game.

Game started in another variation of Sicilian defence e4-c5. On the 10Th move Nxc5 got a pawn advantage which made it an easy win. Black bishop at e3 helped a lot in defencing.

More on meditation

I described two meditation techniques in the one of previous post on meditation. In this post I will write about philosophy behind meditation and possibly few more techniques too. Let see how it goes...

As I said, if you understand then you don't need to meditate. For example Buddha understands. So, he doesn't need to meditate. Like you don't have to travel if you are at the destination. Meditation is like a journey whose final destination is the liberation from the cycle of birth and death. So, you don't have to meditate provided you understand. This is what is called Gyan Yoga. Gyan means you understood that - that's how it is. Now there is no scope of further analysis here. All analysis are done due to incomplete understanding. If you understand by 100% then analysis vanishes. It has to vanish. Gyan yoga is very high form of yoga. It needs very mature very ripe consciousness to understand it. Some people have that level of consciousness. They are born with that level of consciousness. Meditation helps you to rise you consciousness. It opens another doorway of the consciousness. The five senses you have is not the only senses in the entire universe. Meditation can open different dimension to you. It can levitate your consciouses to higher level. But, if you already have higher consciousness you don't have meditate. And also, the more you understand the more meditative you will be. Mind you, I am not talking of understandings you get by reading junk books. Those are different. Here, by understanding I mean understanding by the consciousness.

As I said - meditation is the journey. It's not the destination. It's a way. It's one way. There are many other ways. One way is bhakti. Athato bhakti jigyasa. In Bhakti you surrender to your lord completely. That's also a kind of meditation but usually they don't call it as meditation. Hinduism says God has two form - personal and impersonal. Personal means those whose images have been made. Impersonal means God whiteout image. I personally am the worshipper of impersonal form of God. This is topic of debate between personalist and impersonalist that who is supreme - Brahman (Impersonal God) or Krishna/Shiva/Ram (Personal God). Such debate doesn't interest me. But I personally feel Brahman is the highest God. Krishna/Shiva/Ram is not even parts of partial of Brahman. Even Ramakrishna paramhams ultimately realized that Brahman is the highest God. God with form is duality. That means two thing should exist. One is God and other is devotee. As at the time of truth two should exist. God and his devotee. And whenever two separate thing exists so what is the cause of their existence. Two things means a change. Means a difference. Difference between God and his devotee. So, what is the cause of the difference? How did devotee became devotee and not God? So, there are many unanswered questions at the time of duality. So, the idea is to marge them - only one will exist. Either devotee or God. Because if only devotee exists then God is merged into devotee and if only God exist then then devotee is merged into God. And that's what I call it as - existence. You can call brahman or anything doesn't matter. So, according to me existence is the only God.

So, if you meditate at the existence that will be the most effective. Because, everything is coming from the existence level. Initially you won't understand everything. Because, there is an ego. Even meditation is also kind of ego. Ego of meditating. But slowly and slowly the more you meditate ego will dissolve into the existence. Source of ego is a separate topic. One practical thing I want to state out here is - if you meditate you will feel god, and if you don't meditate for long time the effect of last meditation will decrease slowly and slowly. And finally it will become to same moron state. So, again you have to meditate and rise you consciousness. So, basically you have to constantly meditate. If you leave it in between it won't be helpful much. Because, your consciousness will again go down. But once it reach to certain level then it won't go down. For example water boils at 100c only. No matter how many times you boil upto 99 degree Celsius. To boil the water you have to boil 100 degree Celsius. Similarly in meditation you have to keep meditating unless the consciousness rise to a certain level. If you reach to that level then it won't fall down or more accurately the probability of it's falling is very less.

More on it later...

Mithila Society

Before, I write about Mithila in particular, lets first understand MY understandings about the society. Society is a strange word. Perhaps, in my previous post I mentioned that society can be treated like a living being. Whole society is one being. So far, we have only thought that human is one being. That is true. But society can also be treated like a being. A big human at the abstract level of which we are part of that bigger being. So, just like us, society takes birth, it grows like a child, then it becomes adult and mature more, then it becomes old and finally it dies. Because, every human being dies, so one day society will also die. Because, society is made of those humans. On an average a human dies in 100 years. But society won't die in 100 years. It can die in 100 generations, each generation of 100 years so almost 10000 years. It can die in thousands of years, in million and billions of years. Society has unknown ways of survival. At some point of time society may not want to survive. This happens particularly if the society has seen it's apex. It's very difficult to remain at the apex for a very long time. More on the society later...

Mithila is a very old society. Very old. From Ramayan days. Ramayan happend millions of years back. King Janak was from Mithila. His daughter name was Sita the wife of Lord Ram. So, mithila is a very old culture. So, it appears to me that this culture is old being now (the society as a being concept I described above). Mithila already has seen it's apex. King Janak was the apex of Mithila. And some more like Mandan Mishra, Vidyapati etc. I don't consider Gonu Jha as the apex of Mithila. He was just a slightly more clever person. Infact Mathils has instinct of cleverness. I consider Maithils as the most clever homosapience after Jews. I am not saying intelligent. Cleverness and intelligence is totally different. Somehow I feel the Maithil culture is drowing now...If you look at the state of the brahmins of Mithila. Pathetic I would say. All are meat eaters. It's very very difficult to find a vegetarian maithil. Infact eating fish is considered as holy in the Mithila. If you are going on a journey then a fish-meal can make your journey better is what is followed in mithila. When the society doesn't want to survive such type of rules are made. At least, Brahmins of mithila should not eat non-veg. Brahmins are supposed to cater the dharma. I have grown up in the villages so I got opportunity to look at the maithil culture with close proximity. My whole village is non-vegetarian. Except few pious people.

If you want to preserve your society even though society doesn't want to survive then protect your kids and woman. Because, both are delicate. If woman of a society starts marrying into another society then former society won't survive longer. This has also started happening in Mithila. Mithila already lost so many values. The paintings we lost, the art of making toys from sand we lost, making Gharonda we lost, hundreds of things we lost. Now you can't expect the girls of mithila to make Gharonda, particularly the city girls. Now they care more for Valentine-day than Gharonda. And there were many more things which I could not see, becuase those were lost. My dad would have seen those. Generations by generations mithila is loosing it's core value. And will loose more. I suspect 2-3 generation is enough to loose all the maithil values except the language - maithili/Angika. Language will survive more. Slightly more. Few months back I met a maithil girl and I thought we would talk in Maithili but she was speaking in American accent english (not even in Hindi). This is how the culture is lost. In nutshell - we have lost more maithil values, we will continue to loose more, if thing doesn't improve.

शब्द और सत्य

मैंने अबतक सत्य के बारे मे जो कुछ भी लिखा, वो सत्य नही था। वो सत्य के बारे मे जानकारी थी। सत्य को नही लिखा जा सकता है, कभी नही लिखा गया, कभी किसी ने नही लिखा। पर हाँ सत्य के बारे मे लिखा जा सकता है। सत्य को नही लिखा गया है, सत्य के बारे मे थोरा बहोत लिखा गया है। पर हम समझ लेते हैं की सत्य ही लिखा गया है। शब्द सत्य को नही व्यक्त कर सकता है। अगर सत्य शब्द मे व्यक्त हो जाए तो शब्द सत्य हो जाएगा। फिर सत्य, सत्य na रहेगा। शब्द की सीमा होती है, सत्य की कोई सीमा नही। शब्द की उत्पत्ति होती है। सत्य की कभी उत्पत्ति होती नही। शब्द का कारण है। सत्य का कोई करना नही है। बस है। मनुष्य जाती के इतिहास मे सत्य के बारे मे जो कुछ भी लिखा गया है और जो लिखा जाएगा वो पूर्ण सत्य के सापेक्ष कुछ भी नही है। रत्ती भर भी सत्य नही लिख गया है। सत्य शब्द मे उतरता नही। क्योंकि, सत्य की अनुभूति अपूर्व है। बहोत कम लोगों ने वैसी अनुभूति की है और उनलोगों ने उस अनुभूति को व्यक्त करने के लिए नए शब्द का निर्माण नही किया। क्योंकि निर्माण करने के लिए इच्छा टी होनी चाहिए। पूर्ण सत्य के समय साड़ी इच्छाएं विसर्जित हो जाती हैं। इसलिए सत्य को ठीक ठीक व्यक्त करने वाले शब्द के निर्माण न हो सका। क्योनी जिनको सत्य मिला we सत्य मे ही लीं रहे। तो जिनको सत्य मिला वे सत्य के लिए शब्द नही बना सके। और जिन्होंने शब्द को बनाया उनको सत्य तो मिला नही, तो वे भी सत्य के लिए शब्द न बना सके। दोनों ही न बना सके। न सत्यदर्शी न शब्ददर्शी। सत्य मे शब्द के लिए जगह नही है। इतनी जगह नही है की शब्द wahan ठहरे। इसलिए बुद्ध भी सत्य के बारे मे जादा कुछ बोले नही। बुद्ध बोलें तो कैसे। सत्य शब्द मे उतरता नही है। अगर तुम बद्ध से पूछो की सत्य क्या है। तो वो कुछ नही बोलेंगे। मौन रहेंगे वो। क्योंकि शब्द का प्रोयाग करते ही सत्य सत्य न रहेगा। किसी भी शब्द मे, किसी भी वाक्य मे इतना सामर्थ्य नही है की वो सत्य का निरूपण कर सके। हमारे पास जीवन की हर एक अनुभूति के लिए शब्द नही हैं। कुछ अनुभूति ऐसी हैं जो बहोत कम लोगों को हुआ है। किसी बुद्ध किसी महावीर किसी जीसस को हुआ। तो उन्होंने शब्द तो बनाया नही। वो कोई कवि या लेखक तो थे नही की शब्द मे उनकी रूचि हो। थोरा बहोत बताये। पूर्ण तो वो भी नही बता सके। बताने की भी एक सीमा होती है। जितना उनसे बन सका वो बताये। हम माने या न माने, पर वो बताये। घूम घूम के बताये। अस्तांगिक मार्ग बताये। शब्द उतना महत्वपूर्ण नही है. शब्द धूल की तरह है। जब घोर्रे दौरते हैं तो धूल उरने लगती हैं। वैसे ही जब सत्य किसी के ह्रदय मे प्रकट होता है तो शब्द बनने लगते है, फिर वेदा, उपनिषद बनने लगते हैं। फिर धर्म बनने लगते हैं।

Lost in chess

After long time I played chess with Nagaskaki and lost the gmae:(((( I resigned in 38th move. Started the game in sicilian style. Had nice pawn structure. But black was very strategic. Click here to follow the game.

Gvim vs Emacs

The holy war of text editor - Gvim vs Emacs. Which one is better? Difficult to say. Depends on your requirement. Vim is small and great. Emacs is large an great. Both are great. One is small in the size, other is large in the size. Gvim is GUI version of vim. If you want to quickly edit a file and mostly want to remain in the command mode - vim is the better choice. It's real fast. Default vim is much easier to use then default Emacs for programmers. If you do elisp programming in Emacs then you can do an anything you want. Because, elisp is kind of programming language. You can write functions in elips and bind to any suitable key you want. That is where Emacs becomes extremely powerful. However, if your job requires mostly to edit existing code vim would be better choice. Emacs is huge. Very huge. It's not only designed just as a text editor. Vim is purely text editor. Emacs can act like operating system. Lol. Emacs has everything. The main idea behind Emacs was to put everything into one editor so that user will never have to exit from it. You can send receive email through Emacs. You can read news inside Emacs. etc. So, Emacs is not just a text editor. It's much more than that. One thing I didn't like about Emacs is ctrl key. To type any command you have to press ctrl key. This is too much. However, you can always map them to functional keys but there exist only 12 functional keys. Hitting control keys always, it bugs(to me). Things I don't like with vim is every time switching between command and insert mode. Indent capability if vim is poor. Emacs is smart in indenting. Only problem I see with Emacs is the control key. In vim if you are in command mode you don't have to hold control key. Then any key can act like a command. That's not the case with Emacs. In Emacs to invoke a command you have to hold control key always. There is no way out except mapping (up to 12 functional keys). That is why Vim is great when you work in command mode. Working in Emacs is too slow as compared with command mode in vim. From undo point of view both are same. Both provide unlimited undoes and redoes. From block editing point of view Vim is slightly better than Emacs. When you select a block in vim it clearly highlights, whereas in Emacs you have to imagine the block. Goshhh! From shell point of view emacs is better. Working with Emacs can be enjoyable provided you write lots of elisp function in your .emacs file (which I don't have). Emacs has a viper mode which can act like vim. It can emulate vim. I used it once. Was fun using vim inside Emacs. Other way round possible? Emacs inside Vim? I think it would be good idea to make an editor which combines the properties of Emacs and vim.

About the creation of the universe, Hadron

Since, very beginning the humanity is trying to find how the universe was created and how big it is? And if created then why? What is the purpose behind it? Lots of scientist are spending their whole life to understand big bang, black holes etc. Making hardon collider to simulate it. But, unfortunately these scientists don't know the very nature of the existence. I myself am a student of science. I agree that one day science can find everything, every possible cause but except one thing - that's the existence itself. Except existence science can know everything. Science will never know the cause of the existence. No possibility. It's just there. No matter how intelligent scientists are working to find it. If billions of scientists trillion times more intelligent than Einstien are working to find the cause of existence for trillions of years still they will never know even the small trace of the existence. Only thing they can know is that it's causeless. Existence is causeless. Except existence everything has a cause. That science will find out. If earth exists it has cause - the Sun. If the Sun exists it has a cause - the galaxy. If galaxies exist it has a cause - the clusters. If clusters exist it has a cause - the cluster of clusters and so on... The phrase "so on..." is very important. It's approaching to infinite. So, the universe is actually infinite. Scientists say the size of the universe is the length travelled by the light since big bang till today. This is full bullshhhhh-it. A holy bullshhhhh-it. The length of the universe has to be infinite. If it is finite then what is there just after where universe ends? No space there? There is. Our consciousness may not go there but it exists. Yes there is a practical limit of the universe. And that's the distance travelled by the light since big bang happened.

One thing I can certainly state - Something like big bang had definitely hap pend - an explosion. A massive explosion in a random manner. If you look at the formation of the earth it's random. Random, rocks, random stones, random sands random lands. I don't see an symmetry in the mountains. It looks like it was broken, it was exploded. Otherwise you would see the symmetry everywhere. So, definitely the earth is created out of an explosion. Only an explosion can create such a random terrain. But if you look at the atoms and molecules it's very symmetrical. Anything symmetrical was created in a planned manner. Electrons move in a symmetric path. Therefore it's planned. Someone planned it. But the rocks are random. So, it came out of explosion. But the atoms within the rocks are symmetrical. So, someone planned. Planned thing will be symmetrical. Unplanned thing will be explosive. But again solar system looks symmetrical. So, there is a possibility that a random explosion can create symmetrical systems - such as solar system. So, it's certain that some explosion had definitely happened. But, can an explosion create anything useful? Lol. Ususally, explosions are always disastrous. So, big bang explosion was useful? Think on it...

Destiny

You know what is destiny? It was a beautiful word, almost as beautiful as the word God. But, unfortunately this word has been deprecated by the society. Infact, society deprecated anything which can inadvertently open the doorway to super-consciousness. Since, very beginning, from day 1, the society is against of anything which enables the access to super-consciousness. Jesus was crucified, such a lovely person was crucified. Socrates was poisoned. Society has sent pain to every extraordinary human. The core of the meaning of destiny is - Everything is happening by itself and you just have to observer it. We have not created the sun, the moon, the bird, the tree but, all these exist. So, who created all these? These are all created by the destiny. We should not have much take towards the creation of destiny - except observing it. Practical meaning of destiny is to observe what's happening around. We don't have to do anything and sun rises in the east automatically. These are all fixed by the destiny. We don't have to put an effort to make the sun rising in the east. It rises in the east automatically. It never forgets to rise. Lol. It's a miracle. Since it happens daily we think it's an ordinary activity, we don't acknolwdge it but, actually it's not. It's miracle. Look around you and everything is a miracle. Suppose, a blind man of age 70 years suddenly gets the power to see into his eyes. What will he see? He will see so many colors which he had never seen. The green grass, the blue sky, these birds flying. He won't believe it at first glace. He may become mad to see all these colorful diversification. We don't acknowledge these as a miracle because we see them daily. But, these are actually miracle. Which no magician or scientist can perform. Destiny doesn't mean palmistry or astrology. But, yes there is a correlation to some extent. Palmistry and astrology was invented so that people understand the real meaning of destiny which I described above. But, unfortunately they couldn't understand the real meaning of destiny instead they became heavily dependent on destiny. Destiny frees you, from the bondage of karma. Because, it's happening by itself. Childhood came and went. We never wanted to leave childhood and we left it. Everything has happened which we never wanted to happen. Nobody wants to die and everybody dies. This is fixed by destiny.

Philosophy and Practical

You do anything and it will become frustrating one day. I tried it. Enlightenment is the only thing which will never become frustrating or boring. Because, at the time of enlightenment "I" doesn't exist. Remember one thing- Either you exist or Truth exists. Both cannot exist together. No possibility. At a time only one will exist. Either you or truth. And mostly you exist. Because, truth is so subtle that even the slightest perturbation can wrap the truth. Can hide the truth. That's why society could alter the truth. You never know whose fault it is - it's a truth's fault or it's society's fault. Sometimes, in spite of so much knowledge and understanding about life you still don't know what's happening. I have become bored of knowing the things. Society taught us that the more you know the better you are. According to me the less you know the better you will be which society won't like. Some of the professors didn't like me for the reason I refused to know more. But when I was knowing more, topped in the school they liked me. But their liking was conditional. Anything conditional is ephemeral. Because, that condition can vanish one day.

Coming to practical...

The one very fundamental thing I wanted to state out here is - see, if you understand then you don't have to do anything. You are done. You don't have to do Pranayaam and meditation provided you understand. This called Gyan Yoga. No need to meditate on the Agya Chakra if you understood. And it's so easy to understand that you can't understand. Because, society has always prepared you to understand difficult subject. So, our ability to understand easy thing is lost. Look at the Ramanna Maharshi. He was not a Yogi but still his knowledge was of very high order. However, it's always recommended to meditate and pranayaam. There is no harm in that.

In Hinduism they talk about 7 chakra energy centers. Muladhar, Swadhisthan, Manipur, Anahaat, Vishuddha, Agya and Sahasrar. Eeach center has it's attributes. Meditation on these centers are very helpful. It's said if your Sahasrar is open then you are almost God. These centers are described in the ancient Yoga scriptures. However, as I said - you may not have to know all these once you understand the core of the existence. Because, these are just expansion of the existence. Existence is root. Rest are just details. So, I don't give much stress on Chakra meditation rather I have stresss on the existence. Know the root of the roots. Rest will all follow...

Education

What is the purpose of education? Study and just earn? Our current education is not complete. It mostly gives stress on the intellect. The more intellectual you are, the better student you are - is what society has taught us. To me intellect is like an ash. I give 0 value to intellect. According to me, the more intelligence you have the more problem you will face. What does intelligence mean? It simply means you can think deep and fast. It means your brain perform more chemical reaction. You are able to analyze more. But does it matter to totality? Does it bring happiness? It doesn't. Totality is infinite and standstill. Your intelligence can solve some problem can perform some calculation, can think of some innovations. Take example of Einstein. He was very intelligent. He discovered few laws. But the laws were always there. Whether you discover it or not. You found that law and you moved in that direction. But, there was other directions also. We missed that. There is always an another direction. Take any direction. And trust me you would never know which direction is good. Actually, there is nothing called good or bad. Society creates good or bad. All these socialists create good and bad. Existence doesn't create good or bad. Existence creates only pure existence. But, society comes and starts attributing by good and bad. If I were God, I would like to remove adjectives from parts of speech. Lol. You can't imagine how much harm has happened due to adjectives. Because, these socialists themselves don't know the full story. They know, but a little. They have some idea. Some foggy idea. So they keep on contaminating your mind by teaching is that - this is good, that is bad etc. It has not started today. It has been running since ages. According to me society has never thought even for fraction of second with cool and calm head. Society has been always in hurry. As if a train is missing. There never realized that there is always a next train. Pick a random person and just look into his eyes. You can see whole of the society in him. He is a fruit of society. He is a creation of society. That's how society has prepared him. He is searching something, as if something is lost. Only thing society has taught you is to walk, is to move. They always showed you the path. They never showed you the destination. Because, those teacher and those educationist and those socialist themselves don't know the destination. Only thing they know is the journey, a milestone. Perhaps they think journey is the destination. So they keep on educating you, imparting their ideals on you. But, there is a trick here. A propaganda I would say. Society taught you in a tricky manner. At present, you think that all your ideology is your thinking. But, actually it's something like this - society taught you that you think that it's your ideology. Whatever ideology you have - society taught you to think that it's your ideology. That's why you think that it's your ideology. But, actually it's not yours. It's society's ideology. Society played a propaganda here. Which you will never understand. Because, you were not allowed to understand. Many things has not been revealed to you.

Education which doesn't free you is lame. Our formal education is pathetic. I have not met a single teacher who knows what's happening around. In my childhood a junk teacher was used to come my home to teach me. He used to slap suddenly. And that too very hard. A sudden hard slap on the chick. It was very painful. Such teacher should not be allowed to teach. But, society is always worried of bread so some junk teacher are allowed to teach. If you teach in the wrong manner the people like Hitler will be produced. If you teach that Jew's are bad then Hitler will be produced. Hitler's education was very important factor in him becoming the most destructive person of the last century. By education I don't only mean what you study in the schools and colleges. By education, I mean anything which changes your consciousness. Kids should be taught in the proper manner by proper teacher.

Self Introspection

Few days back I was doing self-introspection. That,who am i ? Why am i like this? It appears these questions are wrong. Any question which starts with "why" is more difficult to answer. "Why" makes the question more difficult. Why does 1 plus 1 makes 2. This is impossible to answer in totality. In fact, you can't answer even a single question with totality. I was trying to analyze Newton's laws. I did analyze to some extent. But, after that you never know what's happening. It goes to quantum level and after that other types of problems starts arising. Unknown factors became so huge that I stopped analyzing. Analyze, anything in totality and it will reach to Brahman level. I concluded that somehow Brahman is not allowing these electrons to disintegrate. What is the cause which makes these electrons stable? Why doesn't it simply disappears? There is definitely some unknown force operating inside electrons, inside quarks which is holding it's existence. That force is causing the whole of the universe to remain existent. From where does that force come. It comes from Brahman. Brahman is attribute less. How does Brahman know that it has to keep the electron stable? Why such a complex system is working flawlessly. How does electron know that it doesn't has to disintegrate? There must be some consciousness operating among these electrons. I am amazed, the way the universe is functioning. How does universe know that it has to survive? Everything seems so stable. There must be some super-consciousness operating in the core of the universe which is not allowing these atoms or electrons to disintegrate. But what is the purpose of that super-consciousness behind it? But Brahman is unexpressed. And the universe is expressed. So how does this transition from unexpressed to expressed happens. Unexpressed cannot express anything because it's unexpressed. Then how can expressed come into picture? Brahman cannot create anything expressed. There is no desire left in Brahman to create anything. Brahman is unperturbed state. To create something we need perturbation. Unperturbed thing cannot create anything. Unperturbed cannot be perturbed. If in the beginning everything was unperturbed then perturbed will never exist. And perturbed cannot come out of unperturbed. So, definitely perturbed existed since very beginning. From day 1 perturbed exists. Otherwise, there is no possibility of any kind of perturbations to come into existence. Then, what is the cause of the very first perturbations? I don't know. The more you think it gets more complicated. The brain has it's own limitation to handle complexity. However, there are ways to tackle it. Do not solve the problem. Accept the problem. The moment you accept the problem, problem dissolves. Then you don't need to worry about the very first perturbation of the universe. Or handle it in taciturn way. Taciturn is the best answer to all the problems. Society, never worried about totality. Never. Society has always worried about partiality. This is where whole of the problem comes. Partiality imparts problems. Partiality means problem. Totality means solution.

Coming back to the main topic. Lol. I was doing self-introspection. That why am I like this? Like writing post on the subjects which more than 99.999% of humanity will not understand. Writing blogs on the love. The one reason I could find that love was the missing factor in my childhood. If you are not being loved, you will write about love. You will express it in some manner. If you are being loved, you will never write about it. In my childhood I was so engrossed into study that I never gave a damn about love. I was a guy with tens and hundreds of books packed in a closed room. Study became so important I forgot love. My mind, my intelligence everything grew but my heart couldn't grow. Apart from that I don't have sisters. So all those teasing part I missed. So, somewhere deep down in my self the teasing part is still indwelling inside. That is one reason I like teasing girls, which they don't want probably. Due to this, I developed bad relationship with couple of girls. I apologies to everyone whosoever felt bad by my teasing.

Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na

So, happend to watch Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na this sunday paying Rs 200 for the ticket. Lol. In Muzaffarpur it would be Rs 10. Twenty times more costlier. Of course, on the cost of AC and a cozy seat. Humanity would have never thought that shadows moving on a white curtian in a dark room upto the time by which humans do not feel to piss will become one of the most integral part of people's lifestyle. Lol.

I liked the movie.

The movie is for youngesters. A love story. As usual Aditi and Jai are from same college. More than 99% of affairs start from college. Because, college is the place where you can interact with girls. Otherwise it's impossible to make a gf in CCD, in a shopping complex. They studied together for 5 years and didn't even know that they are in love, inspite of their parents and everybody else suspecting so. As if they are too innocent like kids. Both find partners against each other. Finally, they started realizing that they love each other and again became couple. To trivial to guess what's gonna happen next. But, overall movie is good. Songs are also good - Kabhi Kabhi Aditi...Jokes too - when Jai's mom says 5 years went on phone. Lol. Aditi's bro was even more funny when he pours water on Jai. Lol. Genelia D'souza is looking too good in the movie ;) Imran Khan was also nice as a debut.