My Expression

The Book of Mirdad - Chapter 1

2011-04-24T22:16:00.004+05:30

Decided to write a commentary on "The Book of Mirdad". Osho Rajneesh has rated this book as no. 1 book. And when Osho says there must be something in it. The book is really a book of big words and big meanings. The book which speaks off the relationship of blood and flesh with the space and time. My aim is not to create a literature out of this commentary. My aim is not to make you more knowledgeable. My simple aim is to look at the book the way I see it. Here it goes...

Thus, Mirdad unveils himself to unveil you. There are class of people who would not unveil themselves unless someone unveils them. Mirdad says your eyes and your ears which itself are veil, how can they show the path of enlightenment. Mirdad himself is very surprised that eye can only veil, but cannot pierce the veil. But his surprise is natural. This is the game of nature that for an individual will not be very easy to understand. And perhaps he will never understand. According to me, eyes should always unveil. I also just don't understand why do eyes always veil and the purpose behind. However, Mirdad shows a way to unveil. That's fine. The way is fine. Sooner or later you will find. But the very question is still open - Why do eyes veil? And this is the point almost every so-called enlightened being has missed out. I do not favor individual enlightenment. I support mass enlightenment. Mass enlightenment is something which has never happened in the history of human civilization. Only one Jesus and rest all followers. Only 1 Buddha, 1 Bodhidharma. It's not enough. One Buddha cannot do much. Unless each and every person on the earth will become Buddha the question will remain open. And perhaps they knew it. If you allow me the freedom of speech and syllables - according to me - Each and every person should start meditating and keep meditating forever leaving everything onto the nature. And everybody should get released from clasp of known time and space continuum.

Mirdad is pointing to a different kind of eye that is needed to pierce the veil. He is saying first correct your eyes, because your eyes itself is a veil. Basically, he is saying to correct yourself. Eyes speak more than the mouth. Look at the eyes of Osho. I have never seen eyes like him. What a calm, radiating eyes. Those eyes are not of this world. If you want to understand the person look into his eyes. His eyes will tell you what he is. He is right there in his eyes. He cannot deceive from eyes. Eyes are the most lively part of the body. These are practical matter, but in theory he is saying to change yourself. A change is needed. It's a must. Because, the man is almost sleep. Don't think just because you are not sleeping that means you are waking. Even when not sleeping you will be sleeping which you will never know unless awakened. Mirdad is demanding a change. And the change has to be at very fundamental layer. I am in complete accordance with him at this point. The first will be the man has to be awaken. He doesn't even know that he is waking. All his activity are in sleep, in deep deep sleep. By the time you will finish reading this line, that moment will drip into the eternity of the past. And so much of sleep-time is being dripped into the eternity of past every moment. How does the nature accommodate this? Only nature knows...

The change has to be applied to each and every person on the earth. Individual enlightenment is absolutely absurd to me. The humanity has to achieve it together. Not even a signal person should be escaped. That is the only and only possibility the humanity will be cheerful and contented. However, this possibility is a remote possibility. Because, it has never happened so far. Many have tried to achieve this possibility, but all have failed, utterly failed. And if they have failed, it's not their fault. Because, this is the very nature of the existence itself. You have a plan and the existence itself has it's own plan. And at many times these two plans contradict. Because you don't know the plan of the nature nor the nature knows your plan. At this point of existential contradiction the highest degree of intelligence suggests to just be an observer. Whatever happens you are just an observer. This will allow the whole of the existence to complete it's plan. The existence created you to fulfill it's purpose. Through you, the existence wants to achieve some goal. Whatever be the goal, that's immaterial. But you never allow the existence to complete it's plan. That's what your teachers have taught you. But, they can't be blamed about it, because they were taught by their teachers. And it's a big chain, a big viscous circle . That's why Osho says the world is mesh. He is absolutely right. The whole nonsense have been taught for centuries and centuries. And since it has been taught over the centuries it look like a truth now. If you keep lion in a cage for long time he will forget that he is a lion. In the beginning we were all lions, but now we are lame. The degradation is only possible, if elevated.

Not that you don't want to help others. Not that they didn't teach you to help others. They have tried their level best to teach you "so-called" good values. But those "so-called" values were incomplete. They have made you lame and asked you to help others. This may be the propaganda of society. Being lame no help can be done, so it creates guilt. Even if you want to help other, you would do disaster to him/her. That's why Mirdad says your world is a baffling riddle, it is because you are that baffling riddle.

To be continued...

The world is a mesh

2011-04-04T23:24:00.004+05:30

When Osho says the whole world is a mesh, he really mean something. Something wrong happened and it continued to happen for centuries. Now it is not easy to correct. A big momentum is needed. We have done and doing something wrong but no one can be blamed about. So it appears that the nature itself somehow wants to create a mesh. This is very strange and difficult to understand. Why would nature produce non-enlightened being over the centuries? This is absolutely absurd or probably I am not able to understand. Or probably it may happen in the near future. The Intelligence of the whole is much more than that of an individual. The nature has very strange way of it's survival. I want to understand the mind of the nature. In Japan earthquake, tsunami came and so many ppl died. What is this game of the nature? And why only to Japanese? What is the nature's plan behind? Fukusima was thrashed totally. So, does it mean that we should not develop our city because any moment earthquake can come? Our development is subjected to natural disaster. So we should stop developing? This point everyone should understand. If you think carefully, very very carefully, you will find that so called development which society has been doing since Adam's day is not needed. The only development ever needed is about human consciousness. Development is happening but it is not happening in the right direction. This is creating the whole mesh what Osho says. It is like pushing a wall. If you push a wall, the wall will not move, but you will feel tired. The whole of humanity is pushing a wall, trying to move a mountain which is not needed in it's absoluteness.

Everyone would have to take initiative and change him/herself. Because 1 person cannot change 6-7 billion people. I admire Baba Ramdev to some extent what he is doing. He is doing good but that will not be sufficient to establish peace and harmony on the earth. He should shift thinking from nation level to world level. At present he is concentrating on India level probably he will move to world level. Osho once had said - "There is no need for nations". The whole earth should be 1 nation. I have read about too many philosophers but no one has the Audacity of Osho. The common problem which is felt by all the prophets and saints is that their momentum is not sufficient to change the whole of the humanity. Because to change everybody has to change. Not that they didn't know this problem. They knew very well. But they did their best. Nothing more can be done. The inertia of humanity is much more than the momentum of all the prophets and saints :( But nature knows it all :)

Joke

2011-03-26T11:02:00.000+05:30

Benny arrived home to find the kitchen a mess of broken crockery. "What happened?" asked his wife.
"There's something wrong with this cookbook," she explained. "It says an old cup without a handle will do for the measuring - and it's taken eleven tries to get a handle off without breaking the cup."
-----------------------
Sent from handset

The fatherhood

2011-02-16T23:23:00.000+05:30

I was fathered to b a father. And it so happened on 20th jan 2011. The very first day of hindi calender month Maagh. My anticipation was on the full moon but it crossed it. God choosed to give us a baby boy - the joy of our life :-) Agastya will be his name as kept by my wifeeee. I wanted to keep his name Raajan. But dropped the idea because so many underworld name is associated with this name. Raajan is a beautiful name to me - something royal. I have noticed one thing to some extent that people become almost opposite of the meaning of their name. Their whole personality is no way positively associated to their name. Raajan are supposed to be holy king, but they became underworld don. But the king of underworld? Hope he will gather some qualities of sage Agastya.

Read upto eleventh chap of "The book of Mirdad". going slowly. i will write commentary on this book when i will have time. The book is highly philosophical. The book which talk the relationship between blood and flesh with time and space. Mirdad must be the man of insight. Otherwise there is no possibility that these words can be written in order to just write a best seller. No best seller writer can write such sentences unless he has the insight. He says, "eyes can see the viel but cannot pierce the viel". Now such statements u cant expect from, chetan bhagat. When did he get time to think on that? It needs ample time to pierce the viel which we dont have.
------------------------------------
Sent from a wireless palmset

osho video

2011-01-21T23:38:00.001+05:30

this video is nice..

The book of Mirdad

2010-12-27T23:33:00.001+05:30

This is a classical spiritual literature. This is the book. I am extremely selective in reading books. So, selective that I almost don't read any book. I would have read the least number of books as compared to others, in general. Because I believe in bad books. All books are not good as it appears. And ever I cared is only about the truth which books do not contain. Books contain information about the truth, not the truth. When you r hungry, food is the only way. I love books lying on the shelf rather than reading them. And it so happened when other day I picked "the book of mirdad". After a long time I started reading a classical spiritual text. The book really has something in it. Although millions have tried to measure the depth of ocean but very few have succeeded in true sense. Mirdad is one of them. A rare piece. It was like Ashtavakra Geeta. Do give it a shot. It will be more insightful than tonnes of bestsellers. It may not make you more knowledgeable about certain subject matter, but it will open a new dimension of life in you (provided you are open, a closed pot cannot be filled). And that's what your holy teachers have done to you unknowingly. When Jesus says, "god forgive them coz they don't know what they r doing" - is of tremendous value. Your teacher, your politician, your parents didn't know what they were doing to you. And you will repeat the same nonsense to your kids in a little different manner subjected to the society. If u look at the humanity, it is doing same nonsense starting from day 1. Man has not changed at all. Means have changed, environment is changed, time has changed. But man is utterly same. Doing, but no idea of doings. Just following a race. Since everybody else is racing so I am racing. And that everybody thinks. Everybody is fooling everybody else.

This world would have been full of natural gardens, full of contented and cheerful people living in their totality. Buddhas would have been your neighbours. Unless each and every person on the earth will become lile Buddha the problems of this world will not be solved no matter what you do. This is my word I say onto you that Buddha knew it. We need 1000 Buddhas operating at a time and the fate of human race can be changed forever.

---------------------------------
Sent from wireless handset

Contradictions

2010-11-29T22:41:00.003+05:30

Our holy teachers taught us that contradictions are not good. We should avoid contradictions. Contrarily, I find contradictions very beautiful when analyzed carefully. Often contradictions turns out to be complementary. First of all, what is required is a clear mind free from illusions which just see the reality as it is. But how do you know what is an illusion and what is not an illusion? Now this is a million $ question. There are two separate distinct school of thoughts at this point. The thought of eastern civilization originated mostly from India - "This is unreal, that is real." And the thought of west - "This is real, that is unreal." This is where east and west contradictions in proposing the reality.

I feel that these school of thought should be merged to - "This is real, that is real" - Even unreal is real. We cannot simply deny the unreal. Since unreal is the part of this very existence, it should be merged to real. So, everything is real as far as understanding is concerned. Then east and west are in consensus at this point - the convergence of reality.

Now coming to practical aspect of my life. I have not cared for good and bad. I simply live experimentally. Experience can be good and bad with which I am not concerned. But, I am concerned with the experience. I simply don't believe in just living a consistent "so called" good life. I hate the word - "consistent". Really really hate this word - consistent. But if it happens on it's own, naturally, it's okay. Then it's perfectly okay. Anything which happens naturally, be it consistent, inconsistent, good, bad, is good. However, the life in general remains mysterious and inconsistent. As a student I have received, both good and bad feedback. One teacher told me you are a very intelligent student. Never seen an intelligent hard working like you. The other teacher told me you are a fool. The deviation of complements received in my life varies too much. Even in professional life I received both very good performer and then average performer. Have you ever think on "average". This is such a beautiful word. I will write about average sometime later. Meanwhile keep thinking on - "law of average" :)

The garden and the forest

2010-11-20T23:21:00.004+05:30

That day while driving I saw a garden. The gardener was chopping off the leaves giving them a shape. Now this is very cruel activity. There were rows of small plants each of same height and size. What will happen if they are allowed to grow on their own? Just like it happens in the forest. Why to chop-off their leaves?? There is a life in those leaves. Those leaves are supposed to live then dry and fell down later. The beauty of garden looks very artificial. Whereas the forest, where plants, trees are naturally allowed to grow looks very natural. No effort is put in the making of a forest. It is created spontaneously. No gardener ever created a forest, but it exists. The forest is created by itself. The garden is created by gardener. A person. With a chopper in hand. I don't enjoy sitting in a garden much. I love anything which has happened spontaneously naturally - the forest. But, there is a danger in the forest from animals. That is where you will feel life. In a garden there is no danger - no lion, no snakes, no insects, so you won't feel the life. Because, everything is known in a garden - that you are safe from lion, snakes. But that's not the case in a forest. In a forest you have to be careful from Snakes, insects and so many other things. There are just too many unknown factor in a forest. So, it becomes a mystery. And life is a mystery. As long as mystery is maintained - life exists. The moment mystery is resolved life becomes boredom. And once it becomes boredom, you have to drag it. And I really think that whole humanity is simply dragging the life hoping for a better tomorrow. And "that tomorrow" never comes. Because, it never came ever. So, keep the mystery alive and live spontaneously. Don't worry, no one will ever know the mystery of life. It's not a problem if we don't know the mystery of life. That's what life's very nature is.

Nature

2010-11-18T23:28:00.001+05:30

It doesn't matter whether i am good or not, what matter is whether u r
good or not. Buddha was a good person, perhaps the best ever, but it
didn't matter much to the humanity. Humanity is doong same shit
irrespective of buddha. Because humanity is a big thing. 6 billion.
And buddha knew it. I am not in favour of imdividual enlightenment.
However i believe that if something has never happened in the history
it will never happen in the future. Commumal enlightenment has never
happen in the history of human civilization. So it will never happen
in the future.
There r just too many ppl on the earth. And every body has his/her
prejudices. This situation may be the demand of existence itself.
Because natute always exist in its completeness. The sun is created.
Now nothing can be done about it. Every morning the sun rises in the
east and this event is complete. There is no scope of improvement in
it. That is the reasom i do not favour development. I favour
existence. Not the development. I support to be an observer not a
developer. U need to be a very careful observer of the nature. Just
watch the nature around you. You can see the existence is manifested
in a very beautiful manner. Watch the dawn - the first ray of the sun.
The song of birds. The sound of the river at night. The forest. Random
trees. The fragrance of the flower. See how plant sucks the soil from
it's roots and spread the fragrance in the atmosphere. Isn't it a
miracle. It is. It is a great miracle. The soil has no fragrance.
Flower has fragrance. But flower will not exist without soil. Look at
the survival extinct of the flower. The whole of existence must have
supported the flower to spread the fragrance. It is a miracle.
Impossible has become possible. Normally we dont realize it because we
take things for granted. The is the message of existence. Undetstand
the nature. Behave naturally. I have never lived life like a
pretender. I dont know how to pretend. When i feel happy i am happy.
When i dont feel happy, i am not happy. That is as simple as this. Due
to my this attitude i am treated little differently among my friends.
I have never followed crowed, being in crowd. My whole life is
experimental. I want to taste both good and bad. I am good. I am bad.
I am.

--
Sent from my mobile device

Buddha's sleep

2010-11-06T11:47:00.001+05:30

Anand lived with buddha for many years, for years he slept near
buddha. One morning he asked buddha, "for years i have been watching
you sleep. Not once do you ever change sides; you sleep the whole
night in the same position. Your limbs stay where they were when you
laid down at night; there is not even slightest movement. Many times i
have got up at night to check whether you have moved. I have stayed up
nights watching you - your hands, your feet, rest in the same
position; you never ever change sides. Do you keep some kind of a
record of your sleep the whole night?"
"I dont need to keep records," Buddha replied. I sleep in a conscious
state, so i find no need to change sides. I can if i want to. "

Lesson - we should be aware of even our sleep. Means be always aware.

--
Sent from my mobile device

A man in the paradise

2010-10-28T07:43:00.003+05:30

Once a man was traveling, accidentally he entered paradise. In the Indian concept of paradise there are wish-fulling trees there Kalptarus. You just sit underneath them, desire anything and immediately it is fulfilled - there is no gap between the desire and it's fulfillment. There is no gap between a thought and a thing. You think and immediately it becomes thing; the thought materializes automatically.

The man was tired, so he fell asleep under a Kalptaru, a wish-fulling tree. When he woke-up he was feeling very hungry, so he simply said, "I'm feeling so hungry. wish I could get some food from somewhere." And immediately food appeared out of no where - just floating in the air, delicious food.

He was so hungry that he didn't pay attention to where it had come from - when you are hungry you are not philosophic. He immediately started eating, and the food was so delicious that he was caught up in the food. Once his hunger was gone. He looked around. Now that he was feeling very satisfied another thought arose in him. "If I could get some drink..." -- and there is still no prohibition in the paradise. Immediately precious wine appeared.

Drinking the wine relaxedly in the cool breeze of paradise under the shade of the tree, he started wondering, "What is the matter? What is happening? Have I fallen into a dream, or are some ghosts around and playing tricks with me?" And Lo - ghost appeared, ferocious ghosts, horrible, nauseating. Then he started trembling, and a thought arose in him: "Now I am sure to be killed. the people are going to kill me."

He was killed.

The socks

2010-10-22T07:21:00.000+05:30

A merchant went to a farmer to get a pound of butter. The farmer insisted on swapping the butter for a pair of wollen socks. When the merchant reported this to his wife, she said - i'll unravel some wool from our bedspread and knit him pair of socks. When it was finished a pair socks was exchanged for a pound of butter.
When the merchant needed more butter, his wife again unravelled more of the bedspread and knit more socks, which were exchanged for butter. Finally she had enough wool for one sock. The merchant took the sock to farmer and asked for half pound of butter for it.
"Nothing doing", replied the farmer. "I'll give you a full pound of butter. You see, I really dont wear socks. My wife unravels the wool and uses it for knitting a bedspread, and there's just enough in this one sock to finish it. "

Sent from Nokia handset

Nokia e5

2010-10-21T14:17:00.000+05:30

Blogging from nokia e5
Sent from Nokia handset

Our teachers

2010-10-14T16:35:00.002+05:30

Remember our middle school teachers. Our high school teachers. When they were busy molding us for a better future. To become a better human being. When they were teaching us don't do this, don't do that, do this, do that, don't lie, live happily together, share your happiness blah blah blah. As if he has followed all of them. After following all of them he became a middle school teacher. I am not against any middle school teacher. As they are victims of their teachers. Their middle school teachers taught them the same nonsense. And they are simple passing down to generations and generations. They programmed us to live in the future which is the very basis of mind. We have been singing same song "Ham honge kaamyaab ek din". But when? When will this song be over. And I tell you - we want to wait for ultimate success but we really don't want to achieve it. Because, once you achieve the ultimate you have nothing to do. So in the waiting it seems there is a journey. But we have been waiting waiting waiting that one day some miracle will happen. Waiting for a better tomorrow. This is what humanity have been doing from day one.

I wanted to meet an ordinary person. Have you met an ordinary person lately. A simple person. I would really love to meet him/her. Now a days everybody has become extraordinary. There is a push to become extraordinary. No one is happy with what he is. Everybody wants to become what he is not. Say I want X amount of cash in my Bank. I work hard and achieve it. Now I want 2X amount of money. I work even more harder and make 2X. Now I again want do double it. Again work or work hard and make it 4X and so on. And then death takes away everything from you. Whatever you are doing is true only when man is immortal.

The world would have been full of gardens, full of cheerful contented people. Existence doesn't need much. It's fully contented. That's the reason I wanted to meet an ordinary person. But you can always see a child. Jesus said - "Thou shalt not go to kingdom of god unless you become like a child." A child has all the qualities of an enlightened being. Observe a child very carefully. A child has no prejudices, you are full of that. Only thing you have is the prejudices borrowed from others and nothing else. That's the very basis of ego. A newly born child is fully enlightened. Can you imagine his/her mind? - utterly empty.

A thought

2010-09-08T10:49:00.002+05:30

"We have existed for finite duration of time but, we'll exist for infinite duration of time"

The goal of nature

2010-07-25T23:16:00.005+05:30

First of all I want to understand why thoughts exist? Forget about dropping them. That's another story. All the enlightened being on the earth have worked on just dropping their thoughts and reach to mindless mind state. Thoughts doest exist. There is no doubt about it. Now why to drop it? What's so much bothering there? And if at all it creates certain type of problems to the existence itself, then existence would have not created it. But existence created it - thoughts exist. According to me nothing should exist. If there were no thoughts then there is no question of dropping it. What Buddha says it - thoughts exist but you drop it. I am saying even thoughts should not exist so, there is no question of dropping it. I am repeatedly saying nothing should exist. But it exist somehow. This is what I am not understanding. I don't see any purpose of existence. That existence is serving some purpose, so we exist. Every morning we get up to achieve something, to achieve a goal. But that we have been doing from day 1. If nature had a plan then it would have achieved it by now because the nature has been in existence and working for infinite years. Every goal, every purpose should be achieved in the infinite years. Nature has already worked infinite years towards it's goal and is still working...We still getup every morning - part of work of nature. This is the biggest mystery which perhaps no body knows - Does nature has a plan? If it has a plan then why it is not yet achieved? We must understand the "whole".

They say we don't care whether nature has a plan or not. What we care is about this moment. This moment is fine. There is absolutely no problem in this moment as far as it's existence is concerned. Crossing all the barriers this moment has come so it is existing at this moment. According to me nature should not exist at all. So that it doesn't give you an opportunity to ask "why nature exist?". The intelligence of the whole is much more than that of an individual. If existence was created for a purpose and that purpose doesn't yet seem to be achieved that means we existed only for finite duration of time - infinity doesn't exist. So, infinity just seem to be a meta concept which doesn't exist - hence finite. Because goals of the nature are not yet achieved. It is still working. The consciousness is still evolving... Day-by-day, second-by-second it evolves. So, it appears that nature only exist for finite duration of time completing finite set of goals. And once the goal is achieved - nothing exist. But it opens another question - once the goal was achieved in the past why the hell it created another goal of which we are part of? A cycle of goals?

Osho Rajneesh

2010-07-04T23:13:00.002+05:30

I love reading Osho books. He writes perfectly. Speaks what it should be spoken. One of the very primitive thinker. He was a very real person. He can speak what others would never dare to. His books, his talks changed my perception to the life. And I also paid reading his books :-) If you understand his books wrongly, that may cause disaster in life. He was able to understand human behaviors more accurately. According to him life should be like a mirror. Should reflect what is there in-front. And when nothing is present, mirror should be empty. That simply means without pretending. Never pretend. I usually take his point and extend it further if there is any scope to extend. By mirror he is simply saying that be natural. As natural as possible. No judgement. Just an observer. When he says life is flux, what he wants to say is every moment is new. So, there should not be any boredom. If you go to a river today, it doesn't carry the same water it was carrying yesterday although the river is still same. He is very particular about "this moment". He says this present moment is complete and there is nothing beyond this moment. There is not much need of evolution in it. Why would God create something and leave it evolve on its own till eternity. According to christians God created this world in 6 days and on the 7th day
he rested. What the heck he did on the 8th day? What has been he doing from 8th day onwards till today? Allowing the nature to evolve by itslef? This whole universe looks like an error case which is evolving to nullify the root cause of the error. Nothing much is needed in this universe. Everything seem to be complete in itself. Just a careful watch, a careful observation is needed. Just see a little more carefully and you would know that you are complete. You cannot be improved dramatically. You exist that's enough. In that moment you exist. So the whole universe must have supported you to exist. That must be the plan of the whole. The whole doesn't have a very big plan like we have. We have big plans, big dreams which all lies in the horizon of the future. In this momemnt which is existing we have nothing. Everything is in the future. One day I would become billionaite. And that one day never come. "One day we will be successful". Shit on that "one day". What about now? Are we successful now? Just make sure that you "now" is perfect. It will ensure that your future will be perfect. Future doesn't drive the present, present drives the future.

The future of human race

2010-06-13T17:51:00.001+05:30

All the talks, theories, principles work in a context. Without a context it will not have any meaning. I was thinking on the importance of knowledge. Do we need to acquire knowledge? Contextually, yes. Say, I want to go from my home to my office. Then, I must know the ways. The routes. The buses, etc. So, the knowledge is definitely required in order to go from my home to my office. There is no second thought about it. But, going to office is a need, so I need knowledge of the routes. That means "need creates knowledge". Whosoever had said "necessity is the mother of invention" must be a genius. If Albert Einstein is genius, then that must be the demand of the society at that time. Why there was no Einstein in the Jesus time. If the society doesn't need intelligence for it's execution, intelligent people will not be produced. This is very simple. Not a matter of surprise that Shakespeare was in the 16th century.

This post was incomplete. Completing it now.

What is the relationship between intelligence and knowledge? Intelligence is born out of this moment. Knowledge is a kind of history. Something, you've done in the past, so you know about it. Knowledge is essentially a memorable experience in that past. Intelligence go on with the present moment. Out of present moment intelligence arise. Like a child. Child doesn't carry any past, no imagination of future. Just this moment. Word "intelligence" is corrupted now-a-days. Normally, the more educational qualification you have, the more intelligent you are termed. That's not true. I bet none of your action is yours. It's all programmed by the society. None of your thoughts is actually yours. It comes from society. Society has made you to think like the way you think, thinking that it's your thinking. But actually, it's thinking of the society. A massive programming has been done in you. This is the trick of the society to create slaves.

Think about computers. What is happening? We are putting so much of intelligence in the computer. Why? Because we don't want to carry our own intelligence. So, we are making computer intelligent. Instead of we remembering our tasks, computers do it. So, definitely we want to get rid of carrying our own intelligence. Why so much of automation? A day will come when human intelligence will not be needed. Everything will be fully automated. And machine intelligence will overpower human intelligence. However, human has consciousness which machine doesn't. Computer has no fears, no worry, no future, no sorrow, no kids but human has all of them. You know exactly what - we have become like a machine less efficient than machines. Kasparov, the best brain in the chess lost to Deep Blue, a computer program made by IBM. What is the future of human intelligence? Medical science is going to develop too much. It will become the most advanced engineering on the earth. Bio scientist are working on genetic level. Which somehow allow them to alter human behavior. I don't know how, but they do. By doing some programming in DNA. Fate of humans lies into the development of computer engineering and medical engineering. On one side the computers are taking away all the intelligence humans possess, and on the other side medical science is going to alter human behavior in any way they want. This extremely dramatic situation puts a strong question mark on the existence of human. What will you do when computer engineering and medical engineering will converge? What will be your identity? How will you be described? Trust me you would be hardly left with anything. Because everything will be programmed. The world will be full of machines. Even human beings will be also reduced to machines with minimum programmed functionality. Constraints will start tightening from many directions and human race would behave extremely erratic leading to war. So, it's extremely essential that our consciousness which is unaltered by any engineering must rise in proportion with all the scientific development.

The future of human race

2010-05-09T12:23:00.003+05:30

This post was incomplete. Completing it now.

What is the relationship between intelligence and knowledge? Intelligence is born out of this moment. Knowledge is a kind of history. Something, you've done in the past, so you know it. Knowledge is essentially an memorable experience in that past. Intelligence go on with the present moment. Out of present moment intelligence arise. Like a child. Child doesn't carry any past, not imagine any future. Just this moment. Word intelligence is corrupted now. Normally, the more educational qualification you have, the more intelligent you are termed. That's not true. I bet none of you action is yours. It's all programmed by the society. None of your thoughts is actually yours. It comes from society. Society has made you to think like the way you think, thinking that it's your thinking. But actually, it's thinking of the society. A massive programming has been done in you. This is the trick of the society to create slaves.

Think about computers. What is happening? We are putting so much of intelligence in the computer. Why? Because we don't want to carry our own intelligence. So we are making computer intelligent. Instead of we remembering our tasks, computers do it. So, definitely we want to get rid of carrying our own intelligence. Why so much of automation? A day will come when human intelligence will not be needed. Everything will be fully automated. And machine intelligence will overpower human intelligence. However, human has consciousness which machine doesn't. Computer has no fears, no worry, no future, no sorrow, no kids but human has all of them. You know exactly what - we have become like a machine less efficient than machines. Kasparov, the best brain in the chess lost to Deep Blue, a computer program made by IBM. What is the future of human intelligence? Medical science is going to develop too much. It will become the most advanced engineering on the earth. Bio scientist are working on genetic level. Which somehow allow them to alter human behavior. I don't know how, but they do. By doing some programming in DNA. Fate of humans lies into the development of computer engineering and medical engineering. On one side the computers are taking away all the intelligence human possess, and on the other side medical science is going to alter human behavior in any way they want. This extremely dramatic situation puts a strong question mark on the existence of human. What will you do when computer engineering and medical engineering will converge? What will be your identity? How will you be described? Trust me you would be hardly left with anything. The world will be full of machines. Constraints will start tightening from many directions and human race would behave extremely erratically leading to war. So, it's extremely essential that our consciousness which is unaltered by any engineering must rise in proportion with all the scientific development.

My Commandments

2010-04-05T15:58:00.005+05:30

Following are the few commandments I would like to put in black and white.

1. Freedom of thoughts. Absolutely free.

2. Like a mirror - whatever is there, is reflected. When not there, not reflected. Non-pretending.

3. Stop and see. When see, see.

4. Effortlessness. Hard but gently.

5. Awareness

6. Completeness in the present moment. Fun, Laughter and Enjoy.

7. At the end, transcend - even commandments.

Hmmm

2010-01-18T22:34:00.002+05:30

Seven months and no words. I was thinking to write but there was nothing to write at many instances. Perhaps whatever I wanted to write, wrote. If I write more, i'll be just repeating in another innovative fashion. That is the reason I consider most innovative innovations as just elegant repetitions. However, as time passes experiences gathers. Which can scribbled.

These days I am realizing that no matter how much knowledge of philosophy you have, no matter how much understanding of the truth you have you would always need a support. A strong beam of support on which you can rest upon. I am talking of Bhakti. I am not trying to put a point here. Truth is not a matter of point, not a matter of sense. It has been long since I had stopped making a point, a sense. I am really bored of it. I don't know why my consciousness always goes to the root. I can't think anything except the root. The origin. And at the root mind stops. Mind cannot function at the root.

Had made a video uploaded at youtube. I am making more videos and will be uploading at youtube. Keep your eyes on this blog. More more but later...Shubh

The continuty of the truth

2009-07-25T06:25:00.002+05:30

One of the most fundamental nature of truth is "continuity". It's continuous nature. Truth is continuous. Because, it has always existed. There was no time when there was no truth. There will not be any time, without any truth. That is one reason which makes it difficult to achieve. Because, it's continuous. A continuous flow of time exists. A continuous flow of space exists. Go to outside and just look at the sky. What a beauty!!. What a continuous space! Whatever god created, it's amazing. Spectacular beauty. Whatever man created, is pathetic. The diminishing beauty. Look at any creation of God. Moon, Sun and stars...What a beauty. What a pattern. There is a harmony in god's creation. The sun rises in the east every morning. The sun never forgets to do that. We don't realize it. Because, it happens daily. We take it granted, that it will anyway happen. But according to me, it's a miracle. How does the sun knows that it has to rise again tomorrow morning? Where is that underlying consciousness inside sun? It's good to treat the whole universe as a being which has it's own brain/mind/consciousness. Look around you. Everything is a miracle. It's happening by itself. We cant see that because we have become addicted to it. Addicted people cannot recognize miracle. Even an ant is a miracle. A small creature can walk. Can decide up to some extent. Put an obstacle into the ant's path and ant will stop moving, or will change the direction. It's a miracle. How does the ant know that it has to do that? In different different form Truth has appeared. It was impossible but it has become possible. Go watch trees, the birds, mountains, forests - you can see the whole of divine present right there. Because, it is present everywhere every time. That's the beauty of it - Truth is beautiful and easy.

Note the word continuous. It's a beautiful word. Because, there is no break in it. A continuous flow. A continuous flow of a river. The water was flowing and is still flowing...It got a continuity. The continuous flow of the water. Now apply it to the truth. You might feel like attaining the truth. But it may be momentarily. At some point of time, you might know the truth. But the very next moment you may not know that. Because, there is possibility of loosing it. Because, truth unless achieved completely is discontinuous in the nature. That discontinuity is the biggest problem to the humanity. On a certain day you might feel very elated, very enlightened. But some another day you may not feel that. This happens. This happens very frequently. If you plot the graph of the degree of attained truth it will be sinusoidal. You might digitize it to make it discontinuous. Buddha's graph of his enlightenment will be a horizontal line. Because, it has reach to it's maximum. Now it won't go down. Just remains horizontal. So after certain threshold, there is not chance of falling. No chance of discontinuity. Truth will be continuous for you only when you achieve it by 100%. Otherwise it's discontinuous. Highly discontinuous. I would say randomly discontinuous. So, achieve it fully. Then only you know it.

The path of enlightenment

2009-07-09T23:23:00.003+05:30

There are many paths. But the destination is same. This is in layman's term - when you need a path. A milestone. A journey...A voyage. However, someone can simply transcend it. At the end, to transcend is the only way. Transcend to the extent that nothing is left to transcend. Look at the history. How it originated. Moment by moment the future is converted into the past. I've lived moment by moment. Second by second. First second goes...I see it...then second second goes I witness and then third second goes I witness it and it continues indefinitely....This is the point of knowledge. An observation. An acute observation. To you it might appear as an stupidity. It has to appear like a stupidity. That's how the society has evolved. The society is least worry about the evolution of human consciousness. To society, future is the most important. We all work for better future. Don't' we? We do. All our endeavor leads towards the making of a better future. A better place. That's the reason we have so many stories, so many dreams starts with "One Day". Society has only shown us a dream. Our happiness lies into the future which doesn't exist. Remember this present was future in the past and if we are not happy now that means the dream in the past was wrong. That makes this very present moment wrong because present moment was the future in the past. That further means that every moment is something wrong. So the assumption that happiness lies the future itself is a bullshit concept. But when you say happiness lies in the present moment. It makes absolute sense. This is what is the final reality. And present moment happens by itself. It's a pure flow. There is no scope of contamination in the present moment. Because, it's continuously changing. The moment you try to contaminate it, it becomes history. And history is dead. Absolutely dead. There is absolutely no way out to change the history. No scientist can do that. However time exists in multi-dimensional form. It can be changed in some other dimension. Possible. But makes no difference to reality. And if you go even more deep...all problem simply disappears. So very fundamentally, problems do not exist. However, it does exist at the non-fundamental level. Buddha's first statement was - "there are problems". Actually he is referring to the problems at the non-fundamental level of existence. Secondly he says - "there are reason behind problems". Again he is referring to non-fundamental reasons. The moment you know the root. All problems vanish. This is what he is trying to say. He took 6 years to understand this. But, then he understood that, that was momentarily. Suppose you are going from Bangalore to kolkata. It makes 2.5 hours to reach Kolkata. But the moment you landing kolkata will be momentarily. That will be instantaneous. In a second it will happen. However, it took 2.5 hours of time to reach kolkata. But you landed at Kolkata at very particular instant. That instant is important. This is what happened with Buddha on his day of enlightenment. If you do what Buddha did just before his enlightenment. You will be enlightened too. Because, that's when he is landing into the infinite. That's the reason I say - At the transition, simply transcend. If you copy Buddha for 6 years. You may not achieve his level. But of you just copy what he did on his day of enlightenment - there is high chance of achieving good spiritual status. And above all it has to be simple. Truth has to be simple and beautiful. And easy also. Of course on the cost of evolved consciousness. Nature has a plan. It goes by it's plan. Don't interfere nature's plan. In Gee ta Krishna says - "Work but don't worry about fruit". Now this is great statement. Perhaps one of the best every observed by humanity. what it means essentially is that nature is Infinite. That's why you don't worry. Only finite things would cause worry. So, moment you start realizing your surrounding as part of that infinite you would be free from Karma and that's when you don't worry about it. You have to be free from Karma. Then only you cannot worry about it. And you can be free if it is not your Karma. So if you assume that it's Karma of nature - you needn't to worry. And actually that's how it is. Nature has evolved in such a manner that it will do Karma for it's survival. Karma has never stopped. But that is the demand of nature. That's the very fundamental nature of the nature. You have nothing to do in that. Karma just happen because of fundamental property of the nature. You as a free soul have no stake in that. So what do you do in this case. As Krishna says - Don't worry about fruit. How can you don't worry about fruit - Just observe. Just witness. That is the fundamental philosophy of Karma.

Married

2009-06-18T13:31:00.005+05:30

It has been long, really long since I wrote last blog. The news to share is that I am married :) I got married to Arundhati on 6th May 2009 at Jamshedpur. We knew each other for more than 3 years. We got engaged on 10 December 2008. There are so many things to write down. I don't know where to start and where to end...Baarat departed from Muzaffarpur to Jamshedpur. We had all the fun all along the way. Met with so many relatives. Staying 7 days on her home was real-real-real fun. Especially in a ritual called Dhakan chori. In that they hide Dhakan somewhere and I had to search them. Thanks to so many Saalis and Saasu ma to help me out some couple of times :-) At muzaffarpur she had to listen some abusive language as a part of ritual which she didn't like at all. Stayed 4 days at Muzaffarpur. Then our journey started towards moutains, forests, hills....darjeeling and Gangtok. Gangtok was better than Darjeeling, played with snow. And most important spent time together :) Then went to KGP also to refresh my memories. Then finally way back to bangalore... Will write more sometime later

Ego

2009-04-10T23:32:00.003+05:30

I want to scribble on Ego for sometime. I forgot the definition of Ego taught in psychology class. What I undetstand Ego is as follows...

Whenever, you identify yourself with something. That identity will be ego, will cause ego. For example, I am an engineer. But essentially, I am not an engineer. Essentially, I am I. Just an existence, a being. But we keep on identifying. Whole life we identify our self with what we are not. This is where ego pops up. And sometimes ego is very subtle. If someone is polite, you can say he doesn't have ego. But that's not always right. Even a polite people can have ego. They have ego of politeness. A good person can have ego of goodness. I have seen such people. And sometimes, their ego of politness is even greater than ego of someone's rusty nature. At even more abstract level, you can say ego is negative truth. Negativity of truth is ego. Wherever there is no truth, ego persists. Because only false identity remains in that case.

बुद्धत्व

2009-04-07T22:50:00.002+05:30

अगर हमें बुद्धत्व न मिले तो ये समझाना की सारा जीवन व्यर्थ हुआ। हमने बहोत काम किया और अगर आत्मज्ञान न मिले तो फिर सारा जीवन व्यर्थ है। मिलने की बात तो तब जब हमने ये मान लिया की हमने सत्य को खो दिया है। ऐसा हो सकता है की हमने सत्य को कभी खोया ही न हो और बेकार मे ढूंढ रहे हों। ये ज्ञान की बात है। प्रायोगिक रूम पे तुम सत्य को खोजो। जंगल मे खोजो, मन्दिर मे खोजो...जहाँ मन वहां खोजो। बद्ध भी खोजे थे जंगल मे। जंगल मे ऐसा क्या है? की सारे ब्रह्मज्ञानी जंगल भाग गए। सत्य का जंगल से कुछ भी लेना देना नही है। अगर जंगल जाने से ही सत्य मिले तो फिर जंगल ही सत्य है। सत्य राजमहलों मे भी मिल सकता था। अगर पात्रता है तो राजमहलों मे भी मिलेगा। तो फिर बुद्ध जंगल क्यों भाग गए ? वो वही जाने।

पर अति पारमार्थिक ज्ञान यही कहता है की खूजने की जरुरत नही है। पर इसे तुम सैद्धान्तिकअ मत ले लेना। सिद्धांत कोई बहोत अच्छी चीज नही है। थोरा बहोत सिद्धांतवादी होना ठीक है। जादा सिद्धांतवादी मत बनना। नही तो फिर सिद्धांत मे ही फेस रह जाओगे। हमें सत्य मिला ही हुआ है यह कोई सिद्धांत नही है। यह तुम्हारी प्रतीति होनी चाहिए। आश्चर्य है की हवाओं का एक झोका बहे और हमें ज्ञान न मिले । आश्चर्य है की कोयल की गूँज हमारे काने मे गूंजे और और हमें सत्य न मिले। आश्चर्य है की हम हरे भरे लहलहाते खेल खलिहानों को देखे और हमें ज्ञान न मिले। आश्चर्य है की पक्षियों की चहचहाहट हम सुने दे और हमें ज्ञान ने मिले। एक पत्ता काफ़ी हो सकता है सत्य को पाने के लिए। तुम एक पत्ते को सिर्फ़ एक पत्ता मत समझ लेना। उसमे सारा रहस्य छिपा है। वो पत्ता कहाँ से आया? अगर तुम उस पत्ते को भी पकर लो तो वो तुम्हे सत्य तक पहुँचा सकता है। पर इसके ज्ञान चाहिए। परिपक्वा चैतन्य चाहिए। जो बुद्ध के पास था। जो जीसस के पास था। हमारे पास नही है यह हमारी मान्यता है, सत्य नही है।

Newton's first law applied to karma

2009-03-22T21:28:00.004+05:30

Newton's first law is highly philosophical. Newton's second law is mathematical. Third law is a fact. Newton's first law says if an object is moving, it will continue to move with same velocity in the same direction unless you exert an external force on it. One of the very fine observation Newton did. But, it can be also applied to our daily work with little bit of modification. Suppose you are doing some work. You are doing... That means it will complete surely. Since there is no external factor which can stop it. So whatever is happening that means it happened. It's negation is also true. Not happening means, it didn't happen. Happening means, it happened. Now lets take an example. Suppose I am filling a glass with water. Now when glass is being filled, how can I say that it is filled? It's being filled, but not yet filled. And if I stop the tap glass will be not filled. It appears to be contradicting but actually it's not the case. When the glass is being filled if you don't stop the tap it will fill always. In your mind you are thinking that I may stop the tap. That's the external force. If you exert external force it may not fill. But then reverse will be true. That is you never wanted the glass to fill and it didn't fill. In you mind u were saying will not fill, will not fill, will not fill...and it couldn't fill.So, it's same thing. Whether you want it to fill or not to fill. So, that's why I say - whatever is happening will happen. And since it will happen you can say it happened. So, if something is happening that means it happened. If a dried leaf is falling from the tree that means it fell. It is bound to fall. But an acute observer will treat it has already fallen. That is what happens with humanity. The death of one person represents the death of whole of the humanity. No body could survived everlasting. That is what happened with Buddha. He saw a dead body, he understood. He left. We don't understand anything. Our consciousness is not that ripe as Buddha, as Jesus. But it can be made so just by understanding Newton's law. We were taught Newton's laws several times. But no one taught us the deep meaning of Newton's first law. That's the reason I don't consider our education system as complete education system. We have been taught in a hurry. The teacher was always in hurry to finish the syllabus. Teach them less, but teach them better. Give them time to assimilate the things. Don't just ask them to memorize equations and vomit in exams. Then they will expore. Newton's law is not the final theory of the universe. They will develop more theory. I am in search of a unified general theory of physics which will describe the nature in every possible manner. Frm micro to marco. From low speed to high speed.

The flower and the stone

2009-03-11T21:27:00.003+05:30

Which one is more beautiful - the flower or the stone? Flower has a life. Stone doesn't. Flower is beautiful stone is not so. However, stone is stronger than the flower. A wind can take away the flower but not the stone. So definitely, the stone is more stronger than flower. A stone can harm someone. It has no feeling. Flower will never cause any harm. On the contrary it will be the source of happiness, the source of liveliness. I will always suggest to become like flower. Because, the stone has no life whereas flower is full of life, full of beauty, full of fragrance. A stone has no fragrance. There is a hope in the flower. Stone has no hope. A flower has a chance to go to temple on the lord's feet. One someone's hair. There are infinite possibility for the flower. Stone however is dusty, jerky rutty etc.

The Philosophy of Love

2009-02-28T12:49:00.003+05:30

Where are we drifting...? It is a journey without any destination. There appears to be no destination. Only journey exists. A travel... a march... a voyage. No voyage ever ended. If journey was started then it has to end. But it appears to be an eternal journey which will never end. If it had to ended then it would have ended. And since it didn't end that means it will never end. So much time has elapsed. Travel in time in the backward direction. Go back in the history. Infinite years of history exist behind us. And infinite years of future is ahead of us. And between this two extremal only present exists. Perhaps, the only thing which ever existed was this very present moment. Present is nothing but the transcended form of past and future. When both past and future are transcended, the present persists. We do so many things. So many things we did. For what? To attain the stability. The moment you do something, you essentially try to nullify the cause of that work. This is tricky. Extremely tricky. The very nature of any kind of work is to nullify it's existence. Because the very core of the existence is void. Therefore, all our activity drifts towards the nullification of the existence. Any task or work tries to nullify it's cause. So, the whole humanity, infact the whole universe drifts towards the void. We may not observe it casually. But when you think calmly you would see it. Let me put few examples to support this fact. When I eat, that means I am nullifying the cause which had forced me to eat. So, after I eat that cause doesn't exist anymore. That was the purpose of eating. By eating I simply nullified the cause which had forced me to eat. It universally applies everywhere. We read so that we don't have to read that again. And this process is done best by love. Because love is an expression of heart. Heart doesn't know any mathematics. Mind knows mathematics. Then it will start calculating. And moment you calculate you cannot nullify the cause. The easiest way to nullify the cause is to transcend it. And nothing can transcend better than love. Therefore love has to be transcendental. Only a pure transcendental love can nullify the cause of existence and merge with truth. Mind cannot transcend. Because, it will be trapped in calculations. So, your love should be of very high order. Like Romeo and Juliet.

The reason why most of love marriage breaks is the absence of pure love. Love marriage will blossom only when they have pure love. Love marriage is a beautiful thing. But make sure you love him/her like anything. You can cross all the boundaries for him/her. In order to get him/her you are ready to even die. That much degree of love is required. You should cross the mountains, rivers, desserts for her. The other parameter of love is the sacrifice with no expected returns. Love her unconditionally. However, it doesn't seem feasible in today's world where everybody knows the language of RoL. Lol.

राम

2009-02-01T22:41:00.005+05:30

हिंदू संस्कृति मे जितना नाम सम्मान राम को दिया गया है उतना सम्मान और किसी को नही दिया गया है। सारा हिंदुत्व राम पर टिका हुआ है। अगर तुम भारत की संस्कृति से राम को हटा दो तो फिर उसमे कुछ खास नही बचता। हमें बचपन से सिखाये जाते हैं की राम जैसा बन। हुन्दुस्तान ने सिर्फ़ इतिहास की तरफ़ देखा है। हमारा इतिहास अच्छा था। की कभी राम हुआ होगा। पर वर्तमान बहोत ख़राब है. अब राम लाखो साल पहले हुए। और हम लाखों साल से राम के गीत गा रहे हैं। राम नाम जप रहे हैं। राम से भी अच्छे आदमी हुए होंगे। जिनका हमें कुछ भी नही पता। क्योंकि उनके बारे मे कोई अयन नही लिखा गया था। ऐसा नही की नही लिखा जा सकता tha, नही लिखा गया। राम ने काफ़ी अच्छे काम किए। इस से हमें क्या फर्क परता है। बहुतों ने बहोत अच्छे अच्छे काम किए हैं और किए होंगे। तो? अच्छा का वोही सिद्धांत था की अच्छाई अपने जगह पर होती है। इसका मतलब ये नही की हम उसे पकर लें। हमने राम को लाखों वर्षों से पकर के रखा है। कुछ भी कोई तो राम ने ऐसा किया था। हिन्दुओं की साड़ी चेतनाएं राम के इर्द गिर्द घूमती हैं। राम ने ऐसा किया तो हम भी ऐसा करेंगे। हमने सिर्फ़ इतिहास मे झाँका है। हमारा कोई भविष्य नही है। बस हमारा इतिहास स्वर्णमय था। और उसी के बारे मे गीत हो रहते हैं। की अब कोई राम पैदा नही हो सकता है। अब राम या राम से अच्छे व्यक्ति के पैदा होने अब कोई भी सम्भावना नही है. अब कोई भी आदमी पैदा हो वो राम जैसा नही हो सकता है । क्योंकि राम मनुष्य जाती की सर्वोत्तम पराकाष्टा का नाम है। हमारा कोई भी भविष्य नही है। बस हमारा अतीत अच्छा था। इतने सारे वेद, उपनिषद, पुराण इस बात के गवाह हैं। हिन्दुस्तान की पास जितने धार्मिक ग्रन्थ हैं उतने पुरी दुनिए मे नही होंगे। लेकिन इसका मतलब ये नही की हम भी बहोत धार्मिक हैं। हिन्दुस्तान मे हजार चोर पैदा होते हैं तो फिर एक राम पैदा होता है। पाश्चात्य देशों मे राम कम पैदा होते हैं पर वहां चोर भी कम पैदा होते हैं। हिन्दुस्तान मे साधुओं और संयासिओं की संख्या इतनी जादा इसलिए है क्योंकि यहाँ चोरों की संख्या भी बहोत जादा है। साधू और चोर का बहोत ही पारस्परिक सम्बन्ध है। साधू वहीँ पैदा होते हैं जहाँ चोर पैदा होते हैं। चोरों के बिना साधू का क्या प्रयोजन? साधू का काम ही यही है की चोर को उसके पापों से मुक्त करना। तो हमने राम जैसे मानव इसलिए पैदा किए की हमारे पास चोरों की संख्या बहोत जादा हो गई थी। चोर इतने जादा हो गए थे की राम को आना पारा। राम हमारी परम्परा के धरोहर तो हैं हिं, मर्यादा पुरुषोत्तम हैं, पर उनसे हमारे समाज की निकृष्टतम स्वरुप की रूपरेखा भी झलकती है - जैसे की रावण।

प्रेम

2009-01-17T14:24:00.005+05:30

जैसा की मैंने कहा था की प्रेम का निस्वार्थ होना जरुरी है। निस्वार्थ प्रेम की कसौटी है। अगर प्रेम मे थोरा भी स्वार्थ है तो वो प्रेम नही है। फिर वो वासना है। इंग्लैंड मे जब औद्योगिक क्रांति हुई तो प्रेम का समाज मर गया। समय कम हो गया। प्रेम करने के लिए समय चाहिए । अब समय कहाँ हैं? सुबह से लेके शाम तक तो हम अपने काम काज मे व्यस्त रहते हैं। काम इतना महत्वपूर्ण हो गया की प्रेम की अभिव्यक्ति भी काम करने से होने लगी। शाम के बाद भी हमें चैन कहाँ। रात्रि मे तो हम भोजन करते हैं, टीवी देखते हैं, ऑरकुट करते हैं, फिर सो जाते हैं। फिर हमने प्रेम किया कब? २४ घंटे के समय मे हमारे पास १० मिनट भी नही बचता है प्रेम करने के लिए। हम हमेसा कुछ करते रहते हैं। हमेसा। और जन्म, जन्मान्तर, कल्प, कल्पान्तर तक करते रहते हैं। और भी हमें कुछ नही मिलता है। मैंने आजतक ऐसे एक भी व्यक्ति से नही मिला जो कुछ नही कर रहा है। जेसुस ने कुछ नही किया होगा। बुद्ध ने कुछ नही किया होगा। कुछ नही किया और सब कुछ हुआ। हम किए और कुछ भी नही हुआ। हम करते ही रह गए। प्रेम का हमें कुछ भी नही पता चल paaya। आज के समाज का जो प्रेम है वो रात का प्रेम है। क्योंकि दिन भर तो हम अपने काम काज मे व्यस्त रहते हैं। दिन मे हम प्रेम की कल्पना भी नही कर पाते। क्योंकि हमारे काम हमने कल्पना भी नही करने देते। हमने भौतिक उत्पाद को तो बढ़ा दिया पर उसका हमें मूल्य चुकाना पारा। मूल्य तो चुकाना ही परता है। बिना मूल्य चुकाए सिर्फ़ सत्य ही मिल सकता है। सत्य को छोर कर हर चीज का मूल्य चुकाना परता है। भौतिक उत्पाद मे बढोतरी का मूल्य ये है की हमने प्रेम को भुला दिया। बस प्रेम राख के रूप मे रह गई है। की कभी कोई रोमियो जूलियट हुआ होगा। की कभी कोई लैला मजनू हुआ होगा। अब लैला मजनू नही पैदा होते। हो भी नही सकते। कोई सम्भावना नही है की पारमार्थिक प्रेमी पैदा हो जाए। कहाँ से होगा ? समाज अब उपभोक्तावादी हो गया है। प्रेम करने की जगह नही है अब। कब प्रेम करोगे? समय नही है प्रेम करने का। आज हर कोई व्यस्त है अपने काम काज me। "Sweetheart, I am in the middle of a meeting call u later!!" अब प्रेम नही होते हैं, अब मीटिंग होती है।

प्रेम का वास्तविक सिद्धांत था अद्वैत को प्राप्त करना। प्रेम अद्वैत की तरफ की यात्रा है। दो मिल के एक होना। एक होना हमारी गहनतम आकांक्षा है। प्रेम तो बस माध्यम है। होना तो हमें एक ही है। चाहे वो प्रेम से हो या फिर ध्यान से हो या फिर किसी और माध्यम से हो। हम दो नही समझ सकते। दो होता भी नही हैं। क्योंकि अस्तित्व एक है। इसलिए एक होना हमारी गहनतम आकांक्षा है। अगर तुम ठीक से अवलोकन करो तो हमारे सारे कार्य अद्वैत की तरफ़ की यात्रा है। बस हमें प्रतीति होती है की बहोत कुछ हो रहा है। हो कुछ भी नही रहा है। मृगतृष्णा की भांति हम जीवन काटते हैं। की भविष्य मे कुछ मिल जाए। अब तक तो कुछ मिला नही। अगर कुछ मिलना ही होता तो अब तक मिल गया होता। जन्म जन्मान्तर बीत जाते हैं फिर भी हमारी निगाहें भविष्य पे टिकी होती हैं। की कहीं कुछ मिल जाए। और नही मिलता है। कभी किसी को नही मिला। कुछ है ही नही तो मिलेगा क्या। और अगर मिले भी, तो मिल ही गया। अब मिले, तब मिले उस से क्या फर्क परता है। अगर मिलेगा, तो ये समझो की मिल ही गया। क्योंकि मिलेगा ही, मतलब मिल ही गया। फिर किस बात का रोना धोना। क्योंकि सब तो मिला ही हुआ है तुम्हे। मिलेगा, मतलब मिल ही गया, मतलब मिला ही हुआ है।

Ramlings

2009-01-14T21:47:00.002+05:30

This post may not make any sense. Because, I want it that way. I don't want to make sense always. Have become bored of making sense always. I want to ramble. I see a beauty in random. The random beauty. And sometimes better than a pre-planned artificial beauty. The world outside is beautiful, extremely beautiful. The trees, birds, these rivers, forests, mountains, terrain, sky, clouds, horizon are indeed beautiful. To me horizon is the most beautiful visible manifestation. But, if you go inside, that is even more beautiful. Perhaps infinite times more beautiful than the outer world. It looks like there is nothing inside. Everything is outside. The world outside is infinite and the world inside is also infinite. Both are infinite. That's how it stabilizes. It makes absolutely no sense if there is nothing into inside. Every outside has an inside. Every inside has an outside. Einstein goes outside. Buddha goes inside. Both mind thinks upto infinity. But one goes outside, another goes inside. Here inside is a relative term. Actually it's neither outside not inside, it's transcended. Randomly splash a handful of sand on the floor. Do you able to see any beauty in it's pattern? Initially you won't so any beauty in it. But if you observe little closely you would start finding beauty in it. An unprecedented beauty. What we observe the world is just a trivial observation. It's default observation. That is observation without any effort. But that doesn't go deep. So, the inferences you out of those trivial observation is very straightforward. I don't know whether it's good or bad. Neither I want to know. But the observation can change if you observe carefully. Lots of things will be revealed to you. Suppose a bird is flying the sky. What do you understand by it? A bird is just flying? That's true but not only that. The whole nature is supporting that bird to fly. What is that consciousness that made that bird to think and fly. The very first perturbation in the brain of the bird to fly. How much time passed in the bird's time frame. The bird might feel thousands of years equivalent time passed (in the bird's time frame) in a short fly of 10 minutes. There is something divine consciousness operating in that bird which makes it all to happen. There may be so many things to observer in a bird's fly. But you need time to observer. But where is the time? Everybody is in hurry. More than 95% of humanity is in hurry for no good reason. Time has been compressed. All these industrial revolution created a time compressor unknowingly. Because, everything has a cost associated with it. Nothing works at zero operating cost. We did so many things, so many devices we made that's true. But on cost of what? On the cost of compressing the time. Look at the world history before industrial revolutions. Time was expanded. People had time to observer, to love. Now when do you love? You and your wife both are in different office. Humanity only know the love in nights and weekends. After industrial revolution humanity has no idea of what is called day time weekdays love. Most of the love making happens in night. I think time has come to reduce the production. But first reduce the population. Create less and good people else it's gonna ruined the humanity. There were so many animals. But the all got extinct. Ask why? Because, they started multiplying. And their population became so large that everyone started fighting and eating everyone. I am afraid if it can happen with humans also. It may happens if we don't control the population. Just control the population and lots of problem will be solved automatically.

Little bit more on pranayam

2009-01-14T09:06:00.007+05:30

I wanted to stress out that that Pranayam is not a simple practice. It looks simple though - Just playing with breath. But if done in wrong manner it can be hazardous to the health. Averse effect may happen to health. So, it's always better to do it under the proper guidance of Yoga teacher preferably under a guru.

Breath is the most vital thing. Infact, whole of Yoga system is laid on the breath. Even is Aasan concentration is upon breath. Asan is not just a physical posture as it appears. Which whole of the west understands. Different physical posture channelize the Pran in different directions. That's what is the purpose of Aasan. For example "Paschimmotansan" channelizes the pran into naval centre. There are some 8 millions number of asans Lord shiva has taugt. Shiva is the greatest yogi. All the knowledge about yoga comes from him. So, before practicing yoga we must pay our reverance to Lord Shiva. But I guess you cant do 8 millions asaans. There are asans on the name of almost every animal. Few asanas can be done is - Siddhasan, Padmasan, Paschimottanasan, Dhanuransan, Bhujangasan, Chakrasan, Sheershasan, Sarvangasan etc. Asan should help in Pranayaam.

But remember these are practical things. These aid in attaining the truth but truth has nothing to do with it. This is tricky. If by doing pranayam only we get the truth then Pranayam is greater than truth. Then pranayaam is encircling the truth. Truth simply knows no boundaries. So, it's not that without doing pranayam you cant attain truth. You can attain(provided you've lost, you cant attain something which you havn't lost, which you just think is lost for some stupid reason), but again it needs extremely ripe consciouses, what Ashatavakra had. What Ramanna Maharshi had. What Lao Tse had. What Jesus had. Look at the Jesus. A simple shepheard with love is ruling the half of the humanity for any reason possible whatsoever. Knowledge can simply bypass all these practices. There are lots and lots of practical things to know in yoga. But all these are one side and knowledge is one side. Knowledge is the final resultant of doing all the pranayam and asan. That's why Ashtavakra starts with samadhi. He doesn't bother much about pranayam and all. Infact he doesn't bother at all. Definitely he must be a high class saint. He starts from where it ends and ends there only.

Pranayam

2009-01-11T13:31:00.004+05:30

Pranayam is generally required to do fine meditations. However, this is not always necessary. One can directly do meditation without doing pranayam. There are so many practical things to know. But you may not need to know all of them provided you understand. That's why I consider Gyan yoga as highest form of yoga. Whatever is the total configurational change by doing thousands of pranayam can be achived in a second by knowledge. Knowledge is the most powerful, it simply bypasses all the minor yogic pratices. However on the contrary, pranyam is not considered as minor yogic practice. At least that is what happneed to Janak. But you need that much ripe consciousness to understand what's going on...But unfortunately the average consciousness of the humanity is much lower than that of Buddha, Jesus etc. Jesus will not do pranayam. Because hee understands. You should do paranaym coz you don't know. There is a possiblity that pranayam can open another dimension for you.

Essentially what pranayaam does is to expand the pran. There is concept of Pran in Yoga. Pran means everything. Sarvam Pranmayam Jagtam. Whatever you see is the manifestation of pran is what they say. They are right. But for our purpose we relate pran with breath. Pran and breath are related. So, pranayam regulates the breath which in turn controls the pran. The final aim of pranayam is attain kumbhak. Kumbhak is the state no breathing. Rather I should say no appreciable breathing. Breathing frequency is too lesss. In samadhi, effective breathing frequency could be once in a day. Patanjanjali has given an excellent forumula to monitor samadhi. Usually 12 prayanyam is 1 pratyahar. 12 Pratyahas is 1 Dharna. 12 Dharana is one Dhyan, 12 Dhyan is one Samadhi. 12 Samadhi is one sanyam. Sanyam is final. Don't go to sanyam state. That's too far. I would recommend to go upto Dhyan state and come back. That takes approximately 3 hours of paranayam. So basically if you do pranayam for approx 3 hours continuously that should log you into Dhyan. Remember body should be standstill for 3 hours. No movements at all. That's not easy to do. So there are many meditative psotures to do that. Padmasan is the best. Buddha used to use Padmasan for his meditations. So try to sit longer time in padmasan. Then do pranayam. Again there are many ways to do pranayam. Choose on your own what suits your best. What Buddha suggest is to observe the breath. Just observe. You can choose anything u like. That's how pranayam aids in meditations.

You never know

2009-01-09T00:13:00.006+05:30

Society is not able to produce even a single happy human being. Society is producing babies. The whole world has become a baby factory. We need less people but contented people. Society can produce a great scientist but not a happy person. A simple village farmer, who wakes up in the early morning, goes to the field and work there, come back in the evening and listen BBC on radio, who doesn't have much goals in his life, I consider him far and far better than the CEO of a big company. Much better is that farmer. It makes absolutely no sense to grow alone. We have to grow together. It's absolutely bullshit If I grow and you don't and vice versa. That's why we had said - "Sarve Sukhino Bhawantu". Means everybody has to be happy. We prosper together. It's holy bullshit to prosper alone.

You can think that something might be good or bad but in reality you would never know. Never. Only time will tell. That's why I say just observe. Because, you anyway never gonna know exactly what's happening or gonna happened next or happened. That's why I had said observance with respect to time kills the time. That means if you observe something that will simply vanish. It has to vanish. If you think that you can do something and become happy then you would never be happy. You have to be happy at this very moment. There is no another moment except this present moment. So, if we are not happy at this moment that crudely mean we will be never happy.

Why does this present moment exist is an interesting question should must be addressed. Somehow I consider the space as more fundamental than the time. Meaning the space can create time. Because, the space is more fundamental. It's very difficult to destroy the space. I have been trying to destroy the space since my childhood. No success so far. Time can be stopped. Just by rearranging few atoms in our brain time can be stopped. But space can never be destroyed. And an easier way to stop the time is to stop the clock. Just by stopping the clock we are apparently able to stop the time. That means time is dependent. However, stopping the time in one dimension doesn't mean it is stopped into another dimension. Time exists in the multiple dimension. There was a time when there was no time. Possibly a big bang. There is a place where there is no space. Possibly the point at which big bang happened. If big bang happened at a single point that means the universe is finite. And the probability that the universe is finite is very less. So, there were many big bang happened at many points. May be each big bang constituted a universe.

If you think even more deep much deep you won't find time to be moving. Fundamentally a differential change in the time is equivalent to total spatial configurational differential change in any given reference frame. That's why time moves ahead fastly or slowly. And there can exist infinite reference frames. That means there exist infinite domain of time. The reason I said the time can stop is that in some particular reference frame there may not be any configurational change. So, in that frame time won't move ahead. It will be standstill.

I am firm believer of the existence of many parallel universes in the multiple dimensions.

Jokes

2009-01-03T16:05:00.005+05:30

What is a joke? Jokes are part of truth but supposed to generate humor. There must be some amount of truth in the jokes. Otherwise, jokes will make no sense. And sometimes, truth hidden in the jokes are even more heavier than the normal so called truths. Means the knowledge hidden in the jokes are of very high class order. I usually consider jokes as complete truth. Which I think is a mistake. Whenever someone jokes with me, I think he is speaking truth. Lol. Be it no matter how stupid joke. Sometimes, jokes contains the information hidden into you sub-conscious mind. Whatever is there in your mind or sub-consciousness mind it comes out in the form of jokes or dreams. You can use jokes as protective countermeasure. Example, hurt someone saying something and then say that was a joke. Doesn't mean that jokes can't hurt anyone. The problem comes when one person thinks it's a joke and the other doesn't. It happens at the every step of the life. We all are humans that's true, but that doesn't mean we are same. Everyone is living in his/her own world. Don't think there is only one world. There are are approx 6 billion worlds running parallel. Each person has his/her own world. That's why we conflict. At the time of conflicts no one is right or wrong but they are just different. The only solution to avoid the conflict is - at least either of the two has to be submissive. When you are submissive then conflict will vanish. Because you are assimilating now. If you go to the root of the conflict you would always find that conflict doesn't exist. Not only conflict, at the root everything vanishes. Only truth remains.

By nature, I am also very funny and humorous. But, I joke only with people who are close to me. But at times I get confused whether someone is joking or telling truth. Lol (-:) (:-)

Happy New Year 2009

2009-01-01T08:23:00.002+05:30

Bye bye 2008 - perhaps the most important year so far which added a chapter in my life :-) Wish 2009 would be even more better. Wish all our dreams come true. Had spent yesternight with Sumit and Shinjan at my home. I wish humanity would head towards better life, love.

I wish all of you a very Happy New Year.

Draw

2008-12-25T17:55:00.003+05:30

The game started with 1. d4 d5 2. c4 e6 3. e3 Nf6. I don't know the name of this line. I think 6. b3 would had been better than 6. Nf3 coz this will keep pawns on c4 d4 squares. The another mistake was had to play 11. Re1 instead of 11. e4. and then 12. e4. Perhaps a better line. Could not again appreciable advantage in the middle game. However, I did like queen's pawn opening.

Click here to follow the game

Chess

2008-12-22T21:20:00.001+05:30

It was a draw. Click here to follow the game

ज्ञान

2008-12-20T14:07:00.005+05:30

ज्ञान शब्द को हमने ठीक से नही समझा है। ज्ञान का आनुभौतिक अर्थ है मुक्ति। किताबों मे जो ज्ञान हैं वो ज्ञान नही हैं वो सूचनाएँ हैं। वो ज्ञान के बारे मे सूचनाएँ हैं। मुझे आश्चर्य है की ज्ञान को प्राप्त करने के लिए अरबों खरबों प्रकार की पुस्तकें लिखी गईं। ज्ञान की काफ़ी गहराई मे अज्ञान ही बचता है। हम ज्ञान को पकर लेते हैं। और आजीवन परके रहते हैं। ज्ञान यही कहता है की मुझे पकरो नही। मुक्त रहो। ज्ञान अपने जगह पर है, हम अपने जगह पर हैं। लेकिन कभी कभी हम अपनी अभिव्यक्ति ज्ञान के ऊपर रख देते हैं। इतना ही नही हम यह सोचने लगते हैं की हम ही ज्ञान हैं। ज्ञान सिर्फ़ इतना कहता है की मुझे जानो और छोरो। पकरो नही। समाज मे जब जब अज्ञानी लोगों की संख्या बढती है तो उस समाज मे पुस्तकों की संक्या बढ़ जाती है। पहले तो हम यह समझे की हम सही मे अज्ञानी हैं। हम अज्ञानी हुए कब? हमने कभी कुछ ऐसा तो किया नही की हमारा अज्ञान बढे। हो वही रहा है, हम अज्ञानी नही हैं पर हमने मान लिया है की हम अज्ञानी हैं। अज्ञान मान्यता का है, सत्य नही है। बस मान्यता गिर जाए तो उसी समय अज्ञान ज्ञान हो जाता हैं। किताब पढ़ के जादा कुछ होता नही है, सिर्फ़ हमारी मान्यताएं ही गिरती हैं। और कभी कभी अज्ञान जिसको हमने ज्ञान मन लिया है वो वास्तविक ज्ञान को होने से रोक देता है। ज्ञान ज्ञान को रोक देता है। अज्ञान ज्ञान को रोक देता है। ज्ञान कुछ भी हो उसका मूल अर्थ इतना ही है की ज्ञान अपने जगह पर है। हम अपने जगह पर हैं। हम मे और ज्ञान मे जादा कुछ लेना देना नही है। बस साक्षी भाव का sambandh है। हम ज्ञान के प्रति साक्षी हैं। ज्ञान अपने जगह पे, हम अपने जगह पे और हम ज्ञान के प्रति साक्षी हैं। हम ज्ञान नही हैं। हमें ज्ञान को पकरना नही है। हम जीवन भर उस ज्ञान को पकरते हैं। और जीवन के अन्तिम क्षणों मे हमारा वोही ज्ञान हमारे किसी काम नही आता। सारे ज्ञान विदा हो जाते हैं। विदा की बात तो तब जब हमने उस ज्ञान को पकरा हो। इसलिए हमें दुःख होता है। क्योंकि सारा जीवन तो हमने उस ज्ञान को पकर के बिताया। इसलिए अगर हम ज्ञान को पकरे नही तो ज्ञान के विदा होने का प्रश्न ही नही है। फिर जीवन सुखमय होगा। बस इतना ध्यान रखना की "हम ज्ञान को पकरे नही" यह भी एक प्रकार का ज्ञान है और इसे मत पकर लेना।

Change

2008-12-16T19:20:00.003+05:30

Except truth everything change. We changed. So many things changed and still changing...The only thing which never changed is the truth. So change happens only when we are not in truth. That means anything which changes is false. Because, it's changing. It's not stable. Only unstable thing change. That's why I say, "At the change transcend". Simply transcend the change. And the moment you transcend the change you are with truth. Because that change is transcended now. Whenever we change that means previous state was not stable. Something was bugging in the previous state. Something unholy was there in the previous state. So, we move to the next state, then to the next and it continues...till the last breath of the life. So, whole life we move from one state to another state to another...but still in spite of so much of change one thing never changed through out the life. That's you! You never changed. Self doesn't know any change. But unfortunately we never realize our true self. So many things we learnt, but never our self. We have absolutely no idea from where we've come, what are we doing and where we will go. Remain unchanged amidst of all the changes. That's what is the fundamental meaning of change.

Back to Bangalore

2008-12-13T15:26:00.003+05:30

Yesterday's journey was memorable. My brother had booked the flight for me from Kolkata to Bangalore which he said is scheduled at 7:30 pm. Due to hectic schedule at Jamshedpur, I couldn't take the printout of the e-ticket. So, decided to take the printout on the day of the journey itself that is yesterday in Kolkata. I caught steel express and reached Howrah at 11:00am. Then I went to a cyber cafe to take the printout of e-ticket. And lo! the flight was at 7:30 am instead. That time I remembered God for a moment. I think God does play dice. My brother wrongly understood that flight is in evening 7:30 pm. That time I had two luggage in my hand and no tickets at Howrah station. I decided to go to the airport quickly. Fortunately, got an Indigo flight scheduled at 4:50 pm via Hyderabad. I reached Bangalore airport at 8:45pm. Then way back to home by bus. I reached my home earlier than if flight were not missed.

Blogging frequency

2008-12-07T22:20:00.006+05:30

I am not a blogger. But, I just write few words. I know my blogging frequency has decreased and it will possibly continue to decrease for a while say 10 days as I am out of station. My intention is not to create a blog on the every aspect of life. Only thing I know is the truth. Except truth, I don't know anything. I wrote few posts on truth. But that was nothing as compared to truth. I can't write truth, I can only write about the truth.

The origin of terrorism

2008-12-06T13:33:00.009+05:30

The recent terror attack in Mumbai was heart wrenching. So many people died. It can happen with anyone, anywhere :-(

I was thinking on the origin of terrorism. One of the most important reason I see is the advent of hardcore fundamentalists who lack love. There is no love at all in our society. Because, we are not taught to love. Charity might begins at home but terrorism definitely begins from home. Terrorism is the outcome of wrong education. Wrong education is the outcome of the advent of so many religions. Humanity cannot sustain too many religions. Now, the time has come to converge all these religion into the religion of humanity. I call it - "Convergence of the Religions". Which anyway gonna happen some time later - I'm sure about it. And the basis of that religion should be love. Love is the only way to unite humanity. Except love there is no practical way out. Except otherwise everybody has the level of understandings of what Buddha had, what Jesus had, what Lao-Tso had. Which unfortunately is highly improbable.

The most disgusting situation is when we think something is right which is actually wrong. And when we think something is wrong which is actually right. Some of things we have learn t in the exactly opposite manner. That's why conflict arise. Those terrorist believe on something which we don't believe. If we (we + those terrorist) had same common education of love, such things would had not possible.

Romance of 1500-1800 century

2008-11-27T21:46:00.002+05:30

The last post I ended describing 1500 to 1850 as goldan era of art. Because of the raise of Shakespere, Wordsworth, Milton, Michale Angelo, Beethoven, Mozart, Leonardo Da Vinci etc. I am just visualizing the kind of romances happening in those times. How did the Shakespere get the idea of Romeo and Juliet? The story of Romeo and Juliet clearly signifies that society was heart based. Even if it's fiction, it does depict the kind of love spreaded in the society. Otherwise there is no possibility that someone can write a story like Romeo and Juliet. It brings my visualization to the Oxford university. The romances happening in the campus of Oxford university in those times. Remember in those times there were no electricity, no internet, no cars, traints, no planes etc. I wanted to study into Oxford university but couldn't anyway...but gonna spend some time there for sure. England is definitely the pioneer in the university education. There university education started long back. Oxford university was founded in 12th century. That startecdthe educational revolution in England. No wonder England had produced so many philosopher's, scientist. India had been slightly unfortunate those times due to reign fo Mughals. Anyways, I am visualizing the professors of oxford university teaching the story of Romeo and Juliet to the students. And there must be many couples among those student. Because, in those times there were no scientific subjects. There were no Newton's laws in their syllabus. The whole of the education was full of love and art. I am sure those time would had prodced the finest couples. Imagine the couples walking in the morning on grass wet with dew inside the campus of oxford university. Talkings in the garden with red flowers in the autumn. I didnt' see such gardens in India. A walk in the moonlitnight ;-) there can by many such romantic things to do in the campus of oxford university.

Mind and Heart

2008-11-23T20:21:00.006+05:30

After a long time got some time to scribble...Lol.

Mind is shhit. Full shhit. Heart is holy. Our education system is mind based. No wonder this perverted the society. Mind can't appreciate anything. Mind doesn't know beauty. Mind can't appreciate flower, the singing birds, the vast non-ending horizons, the beauty of sky. I found sky as the most beautiful creation. Since my early childhood sky attracted me. Sky is the purest element. There is no scope of contamination in sky. Sky existed even before big-bang if any at all it ever happened. The problem with mind is that it has no idea of what is beauty. Only thing the mind knows is logic. And at times, mind can be deceptive. Extremely deceptive. That is, it can act like heart. Mind can assert statement which appears to be coming from the heart. This is the most dangerous part of mind. Mind fools mind. There is not scope of stability in mind. Any relationship which is based on mind won't run longer. It won't be durable. For example the relationship between son and mother is not mind based. It's heart based. That's why it runs without any problems.

There were times when I used to be hardcore logical analyzing things. And I found that logic do work but after certain levels of logic it makes no sense. Because, it starts approaching to the root level of existence. So, it simply starts disappearing. I always work on the root level. From where everything is arising. Working on the derived problems will fetch temporal solutions. The reason behind this is - we had been always taught to work on the derived problems only. The derived problems are the class of those problems whose origin is somewhere else and mostly hidden from us. And at slightly unfortunate note, in most of the cases we don't care to know the root of the problem. Because, we were taught like that. Because, the teacher who taught us they themselves didn't know the root problem. Because, they were also taught like that. They knew, but only the derived problem. And we are carrying their knowledge since generations by generations and 5000 years past without any ray of hope of creating a cheerful humanity. By using mind we can never create a cheerful and contented humanity. No way. No matter how great intellectual person he or she is. Heart is the only and only and only and only way out to create cheerful and contented humanity. There is no other way out. I explored this. Didn't we try so many things and it didn't work.

Heart knows beauty, love. The appreciation. Heart can appreciate something. It can feel. Look at the heart of Shakespeare, Wordsworth, John Milton, Michael Angelo, Mozart, Beethoven, Leonardo DA Vinci. All these artist were in between 1500 to 1800. I consider this era as the golden era of art. Year 1850 onwards scientific era started. So many great scientists appeared after 1850. But very like Mozart. Because, society became mind based. Society after 1850 is mind based. Society before 1850 we primarily heart based for the reason so many great artist appeared.

सत्य आनंद और प्रेम

2008-11-04T22:20:00.003+05:30

हम सभी आनंद प्राप्त करना चाहते हैं। आनंद प्राप्त करने का मार्ग कुछ भी हो। हमारा उद्देश्य आनंद प्राप्त करना है। प्रेम के सहारे से हम आनंद प्राप्त करते हैं। विवाह का ईजाद भी आनंद प्राप्त करने के लिए किया गया था। अगर विवाह मे आनंद न हो तो कोई विवाह नही करेगा। वस्तुतः आनंद एक मे है। अद्वैत मे ही आनंद हो सकता है। द्वैत ने तो हमेशा से हमें उलझनों मे डाला है। द्वैत मे आनंद की कोई भी सम्भावना नही है। एक होना हमारी गहनतम आकांक्षा है। हम एक होना चाहते है। क्योंकि आनंद एक मे ही है। हम ख़ुद से एक नही हो पाते तो दूसरे से मिलके एक होना चाहते हैं। प्रेम मे वोही होता है। प्रेमी और प्रेमिका एक होने की कोशिश करते हैं। प्रेम अद्वैत की तरफ की यात्रा है। प्रेम की काफ़ी गहराई मे अद्वैत ही बचाता है। यही है प्रेम का वास्तविक सिद्धांत। तो विवाह जो प्रेम का की एक अंग है, उसमे पति पत्नी को अद्वैत की तरफ़ अग्रसर होने की प्रेरणा देती है। हम ख़ुद से एक नही हो पाते, तो प्रेम के माध्यम से एक होना चाहते हैं। जो लोग ख़ुद से एक हो जायें उन्हें फिर विवाह की जरुरत नही है। जैसे की विवेकानंद। उन्होंने विवाह नही किया क्योंकि वो अद्वैत की स्थिति मे थे ही।

Chess

2008-11-01T17:45:00.001+05:30

Click here to watch this game

Karma

2008-10-31T21:04:00.005+05:30

Had been busy watching chess. So, now it's time for philosophy. Today's topic is Karma.

Karma is an abstruse topic. That's why I was not writing about it. It's not easy to quantify the karma. If i knowingly kill a mosquito how much bad karma I will get? No body knows. No body can know. If we have taken this body then we have to do Karma. There is no way out. Except in Samadhi. Except samadhi every activity is Karma. Samadhi is the only phenomena when all the Karma dissolves. Because, at the time of samadhi there is no doer. Karma needs doer. Doer does karma. If no doer, no karma. The doer has to vanish.

Secondly, if you are the observer of Karma. Then karma won't bind you. Because, you are just an observer. An acute observer is free from Karma. Whole life we do Karma. And what do we get out of it. Nothing. Look at the child. They have done less karma, they are happy. We did more karma, we became unhappy. Because, the observance of karma was missing. We didn't observe. We just did without observing it. Because, we were not taught to do like that. Because, our teachers, our parents, our friends didn't know anything about observation. Because, they were also not taught. The knowledge was lost. And is still lost. Don't think what you have learnt in the schools and colleges in a haphazard manner is the only reality. In my view that's the holy bullshhhhit they have taught us. Our education system is one of the most important factor in creating a perverted society. We need more people like Buddha, Jesus. Else the whole of the humanity will get destroyed. Humanity never moved in the right direction. Humanity had been always against of truth. Always. Else we would have a happy cheerful humanity by now. Today we do not have cheerful humanity. So, tomorrow also we would not have. Then day after tomorrow also. And it will continue...like we have been working for 5000 years for better humanity and we could not achieve it by now. So, just like that in the next 5000 years we are not going to have a cheerful humanity. Unless otherwise we have lots and lots of people like Buddha. Our need is not to create engineers who know just F=MA and nothing else. We need to create persons who understand why does F=MA work? What makes F=MA work.We should not create just lame engineers who just has remember F=MA like a parrot. The point I am trying to state is we need more contented humanity. After Jesus, nobody became like him in Christianity. After Buddha, nobody became like him in Buddhism. The rate of making of enlightened being is too less. That's why we have problems.

I want to make whole of humanity like Buddha. Not even a single person should escape from truth. I have no intention to create engineers/doctors/MBA who just know superficially. Think, I mentioned this in any of my previous post - if we have even a single unhappy person that will make the whole of humanity unhappy. So, every body has to be happy. Like Buddha. I know it's not easy to happen. That's the only way out to create a cheerful humanity. Every living being has to attain the truth and become like Buddha at the same time. Otherwise, there is no way out.

Anand Won

2008-10-31T11:55:00.005+05:30

Anand won. Congrates to him. For defending the title against russian V Kramnik. Anand was in need of just half point to attain the life time mission. Notably, Kramnik had a spectacular win in just 29 moves over Anand in the last game. However, as he started the last game with e4 the result was pretty known what's gonna happen. When Anand played e4 with white was very difficult for the russian to defeat him when he had not won any match in the last 2 years playing with black. He is the 2nd non-russian world champion after Bobby Fischer. Fischer was a mad genius of the chess. He doesn't follow much of opening theory like Kasparov.

I thoughroughly enjoyed Anand-Kramnik games watching live on chesscube.com Things I learnt is even grandmasters also take upto 30 mins to play a single move, sometimes. Lol.

2008-10-25T18:00:00.006+05:30

A long game but not draw. Had to take few moves back at the time of beginning of end game. ;) Click here to follow the game.

Started the game in Sicilian defence e4. It was a comparatively complex middle game. Strategically, on 21.Bxh6 I sacrificed my bishop to break Nagaskaki's kingside castle. Which ultimately yielded an advantage of a rook over bishop. However, the endgame was also tricky.

Please be noted that PGN viewer I am using doesn't work with Chrome browser. It works with latest firefox and IE of course.

Weldone Kramnik!

2008-10-23T23:23:00.002+05:30

Thanks Kramnik for drawing the game. Lol. Kramnik opted for slav defence. Again d4 business. Both player were playing at their best. So, no one could gain any advantage. However, Anand's position was slightly relatively stronger but unfortunately he couldn't make much use of it. They agreed to draw.

Kramnik WCC 2008

2008-10-22T11:06:00.005+05:30

Kramnik what's wrong with you. You lost 3 games. If you can't win then you should draw the games. I know you can draw easily. Most of the player loose becuase they want to win. I think Anand will peacefully retain his world championship title opting for draws in the worst case in the subsequent games.

Some of the move Kramnik played was too trivial. A grandmaster playing such moves is surprising. Only a miracle can stop Anand to retain his title.

There is something new in these mataches. First is they are starting the game with d4. I don't know why they are not playing e4. I want to see an e4 game. e4 is the best possible move. Secondly, Anand is not castling. This is strange. Castling keeps your king safe but that same time you loose one move in just castling. Anand's strategy is to use that move for other purpose. What Ananad is doing is he is able to save the king without castling. And that's what the logic says. If you can save your king and attack too without castling then why to castle? This strategy is working for him so far. However, Anand's king did got into trouble at times but that was pre-calculated by him.

I found Anand doesn't follow classical chess. He loves to break the rules. In game 5 he had not pawns in a b c file in contrast with Kramnik's 2 pawns back to back. Remember although pawns are weak pieces but they have potential to become queen, the strongest piece on the board. So, basically no one likes to do that. But, Anand did and won the match too. That shows his perfectness. So, far Anand is playing superb game. He moves same as suggested by supercomputer. Even Kramnik too. I don't know why Kramnik is not able to convert it to win. Kramnik had defeated Kasparov also. Kasparov is the most fundamental player in the history. I yet am keeping eyes on the games. 6 more matches to go. Result is known yet hoping for miracles...Lol

Chess

2008-10-19T20:23:00.005+05:30

Had been long since I could play a game. Click here to follow a boring long draw. Lol

Analysis:

Started the game in my favorite Sicilian defense manner without any apparent advantage. I aligned my pieces to fight on c5 square but Nagaskaki chose to fight on c4 square where I didn't have any extra attack. That finished the middle game without any appreciable advantage to either side. In the end game I had to scarifice my bishop to eat away two potential strong pawn. I could convert a pawn into queen but lost immediately by eating black's bishop. After that the game ended with a trival draw.

WCC Anand-Kramnik 4th game

2008-10-18T23:16:00.006+05:30

The game was draw. What to analyze a draw game. Lol. Both were playing well. The game started in queen's gambit style. Again I don't have much experience in this variation but essentially what it does is, it generates lame d5 black pawn. Then Kramnik had to exert lots of energy in just saving the d5 pawn. However, Kramnik was able to get hold of d4 square pushing the Anand's rook on d3 which enabled Kramnik to play d4. Which ultimately yielded a draw game. The way how Kramnik got hold on the centre squares is by pushing Anand's white bshop on g2 enabling Kramnik's knight on c5 to capture e6 square which in turn push Anand's rook to d3 as described above.

Overall a boring draw game. Waited 4 hours to see a draw. Let's see what's gonna happen on Monday. I am expecting Kramnik to start with sicilian defence. Enough of d4 business. He has enough time to make strategy for Monday.

Anand Kramnik

2008-10-18T10:00:00.003+05:30

Yesterday, had been following World Chess Championship 2008 where Anand is trying to defend his world champion title against Russian Kramnik. Yesterday was the third game which Anand won. Last two game was draw. They started the game in slav defence. I never played this opening variation. Don't know much about it. In the middle game Anand was in trouble when he took more than 10 minutes to play 19...h5. I think move 22...Rg7 was the game saviour for Ananad. Before this move Kramnik had developed an excellent line of attack which made me to think that he is gonna win. After 22...Rg7 game was heading towards a probable draw when Kramnik made a mistake in 33.Bd3. Although Kramnik just margnally lost to Anand but win is a win. Lol. Because, Kramnik got a strong pawn (on the cost of loosing the queen) on a7 square which unfortunately he could not convert it to queen. Becuase, Anand had a white bishop which can capture white a8 square anytime. Had it been converted to queen Anand would had lost.

Today, is the fourth game. Anand will play with white. Let see what happens today.

ज्ञान

2008-10-15T22:07:00.010+05:30

हमने बहोत सारे ज्ञान खो दिए हैं। समय के गर्त मे खो गया। अब स्थिति ऐसी हो गई है की हमने अज्ञानता को ही ज्ञान मान लिया। और काफ़ी प्रगाढ़ता से माना है। लेकिन पूर्ण प्रगाढ़ता से नही माना है। मेरा मानना है की अगर अज्ञान को भी पूर्ण प्रगाढ़ता से मान लिया जाए तो वह ज्ञान हो जाता है। अज्ञान- को ज्ञान मानकर ज्ञान को भुला दिया| सारा अज्ञान अपूर्णता से उत्त्पन्न होता है। पूर्णता मे अज्ञान कहाँ? पूर्ण, पूर्ण है उसमे अज्ञान की जगह कहाँ? पूर्ण से ही अद्वैत का बोध होता है। अपूर्णता ने तो हमेश द्वैत पैदा किया है। हमें द्वैत दिखाई देता है, अद्वैत दिखाई नही देता। हमने हमेशा से दो देखा है, एक का हमें कुछ भी नही पता। एक को हमने समय की गर्त मे भुला दिया। हमें सीमा दिखाई परती है, असीम हमें दिखाई नही परता। हमें सूरज और चाँद दिखाई परते हैं, उस सूरज और चाँद के बीच जो विराट आकाश है वो हमें दिखाई नही परता। उस आकाश के चलते ही सूरज, चाँद और तारों का अस्तित्व है। अगर आकाश न हो तो ये सारे, सूरज, चाँद खो जायेंगे। अब भी ब्रह्म का काफ़ी हिस्सा व्यक्त नही हुआ है। अभी भी आकाश ही आकाश है। एक परमाणु की अन्दर भी ९९% से जादा हिस्सा मे सिर्फ़ खाली आकाश होता है। हमारे घर के अन्दर भी जादातर स्थान खालि होता है। सूर्य और पृथ्वी के बीच १५ करोर किलोमीटर का खाली आकाश है। मेरे अनुसार अभी भी पूर्ण ब्रह्म के १% हिस्सा भी व्यक्त नही हुआ है। अगर होता, तो सिर्फ़ पदार्थ ही पदार्थ होता। इतना खाली आकाश न होता। पदार्थ ब्रह्म का काफ़ी संघनित रूप है। इसलिए अगर आकाश पे ध्यान किया जाए तो वह काफ़ी प्रभावशाली होगा। हमने ब्रह्म को ॐ की माध्यम से जाना है। ॐ ब्रह्म का सबसे निकटतम प्रतिनिधि है। और शायद आकाश से भी सूक्ष्म है। हम हिन्दुओं ने ॐ की अपरम्पार महिमा गाई है। सारे वेद मंत्र ॐ से ही शुरू होते हैं। और फिर कलयुग मे मंत्र योग का ही प्रावधान है| इसलिए ॐ मंत्र का जाप कलयुग मे कल्याणकारी सिद्ध होगा। कलयुग मे हठयोग , ज्ञानयोग, राजयोग थोरा मुश्किल है।

सत्य की खोज

2008-10-12T22:47:00.003+05:30

जीवन दुःख है। बुद्ध ने ठीक कहा था। बुद्ध का पहला वचन था की जीवन दुःख है। ठीक कहा था उन्होंने। कुछ भी करो उसका अन्तिम परिणाम दुःख होता है। ये संसार दुःख सागर है। दुःख सागर कहना भी कम परेगा। दुःख का ऐसा सागर जिसकी गहराई अनंत है। मैंने इसे अनुभव किया है। करते ही दुःख हो जाता है। कुछ भी शाश्वत नही है यहाँ । लेहमन ब्रोदर डूब गया। कोई नही बचा पाया। सारा एम्.बी.ऐ का ज्ञान धरा का धरा रह गया और डूब गया। बनाया गया था इसलिए डूबा, अगर नही बनाया जाता तो नही डूबता। यह जीवन बना है, इसलिए डूबेगा। जो बनता है डूब जाता है। देर सबेर डूब ही जाता है। जिसे प्रेम करो उसी से अप्रेम हो जाता है। पर दुःख मान्यता का ही है। अगर दुःख का कारण है तो उसे समाप्त किया जा सकता है। अगर दुःख का कारन न हो तो उसे समाप्त नही किया जा सकता है। फिर दुःख शाश्वत हो जाएगा। और अगर दुःख शाश्वत हो जाए तो दुःख दुःख न रहेगा, फिर दुःख ही सत्य हो जाएगा। पर जिन जिन लोगों ने जीवन को बहोत ही गहराई से परखा है उनका यही कहना है की दुःख शाध्वत नही है। उन्होनों सुख की शाश्वत किरण को देखा होगा। एक किरण काफ़ी है। अगर तुम्हे सुख की एक भी किरण दिखाई परने लगे तो वो तुम्हे अनंत तक ले जा सकता है। जैसे की तुम अगर सूर्य की एक भी किरण को पकर लो तो वो तुम्हे सूर्य तक पंहुचा सकता है। पर उस किरण को समझने के लिए थोरा सा ज्ञान चाहिए। ज्ञान मे वो शक्ति है जो कर्म के बंधन से मुक्ति दिला सके। इसलिए मैंने ज्ञान को सर्वोपरि माना है। हालाँकि, कलयुग मे मंत्र योग की ही गाथा गाई गयी है। चैतन्य महाप्रभु इसके बहोत बारे समर्थक रहे हैं। क्योंकि कलयुग का आदमी दीन हीन होता है। उस से हठयोग जैसे कठिन साधना सम्भव नही हो सकेगी। इसलिए मंत्र योग का प्रावधान है कलयुग मे। पर इसका मतलब यह नही है की लोग मंत्र योग के अतिरिक्त कोई और योग न करे। अबतक एक मेरे अनुभव के अनुसार मैंने ज्ञान योग को ही सर्वोपरि माना है। मेरा मानना ग़लत भी हो सकता है। या ऐसे कहे की मेरे लिए ज्ञान योग सरलतम मार्ग है। किसी और के लिए भक्ति मार्ग सरल हो सकता है, किसी की लिए हठयोग सरल हो सकता है। मार्ग कुछ भी हो, पर अन्तिम परिणाम मुक्ति है। हम वस्तुतः इस शरीर मे कैद हैं। यह शरीर जेल जैसा है। धयान के माध्यम से इस शरीर के बहार निकला जा सकता है। ध्यान तुम्हे अनंत तक ले जा सकता है। खुले आकाश मे विचरण करा सकता है। आकाश के बारे मे मे दो शब्द कहना चाहता था। सबसे पहले आकाश का निर्माण हुआ था। खुला आकाश। इसलिए आकाश को मात्र देखने मात्र से ब्रह्म की अनुभूति होती है। इसलिए हम इश्वर को जब भी याद करते हैं तो आकाश की तरफ़ देखते हैं। जीसस को तुमने देखा होगा आकाश की तरफ़ देखते हुए। आकाश ब्रह्म का शुद्धतम रूप है। एक समय था जब हम न थे, आकाश था। एक समय होगा जब हम न रहेंगे, आकाश रहेगा। आकाश से मेरा बचपन से ही लगाव रहा है। बचपन मे अपने गाँव मे रात मे छत पर सोने समय खुले आकाशे मे चाँद तारों को देख कर आनंदित हुआ करता था। आकाश ने मुझे अब बचपन से ही आकर्षित किया है। खासकर क्षितिज ने।

Lessons from Buddha's Enlightenment

2008-10-08T22:55:00.007+05:30

If any sincere seeker is reading this blog and possesses the eternal quest of knowing the truth then I have some knowledge which I should reveal to the whole world. My intention is simple. Extremely simple. I am writing about spirituality because, I know there are some fine souls trapped in the body and trying to get out of this bondage of karma. I am nothing, I am just a medium. The knowledge is coming from brahman, I write it on the blog, reader reads it, then it goes into his/her heart and from his/her heart it goes back to brahman. So, the knowledge travels from Brahman to Brahman via me and you. Let it travel. Don't interfere. Society has badly prepare you to interfere the natural flow. Drop it.

In this post I will write about how Buddha got enlightenment. There is high probability that if you do the same thing what Buddha did you will attain the truth. But, Buddha did very tough penance. He was not even taking food. You may not be able to do that. If you can do that, fine, go ahead. If you can't do that then read this post carefully. So, I devised a technique by which the extreme penance can be relaxed as follows:

Buddha did very tough spiritual practice for 6 years continuously. He met many gurus but no one could satisfy his thirst of truth. Finally, he became his own guru. However, this doesn't lessen the importance of guru. Buddha's case is special. He was very advanced seeker. Already almost enlightened. So, he may not need a guru. But, most probably you would need a guru. I am not talking about guru in this post. The trick is you don't need to do exactly what Buddha did for 6 years. Just do what Buddha did on the day of his enlightenment. If you can generate the same condition within you as Buddha generated on the day of his enlightenment you would achieve same. So, what did Buddha do on the day of enlightenment? That's all you need to know. And do atleast that. Buddha did only one thing that day. Only one thing. Before that day he was doing lots and lots of thing. And nothing was happening. He was doing and it was not happening. He stopped doing and it happened. Why he stopped doing is not that important. Important is he stopped doing. He stopped everything and it happened. It looks funny, but that's how it is and that's how it should must be. If you also stop, it will happen to you also. Whole life we work like a donkey and nothing happens. If it will happen, it will happen quickly otherwise it may not happened in billions and trillions of life. Like it happened to King Janak. One of the fastest realization ever happened in the history. It happened to him within a second. That's what is the power of Gyan. Gyan is most powerful that's why fastest. Bhakti can be slow. But to eternity slow or fast doesn't matter. Slow and fast is for you. The eternity has nothing to do with slow or fast. So, Buddha's mind has nothing to do that day. He was awake and mind had nothing to do. So, his mind simply disappeared and truth appeared. Mind always needs an object. Mind cannot work without an object. So, once the object is dropped mind simply disappears. And once mind disappears truth appears. Remember, that's why I had said - Either you exist or God exists. It fully applies to Buddha. When Buddha was existing, that is his mind was existing, that is he was doing something, then God, that is truth never existed for him. When his mind dropped, that is he disappeared, truth as God existed. When we are in wake state we have always something to do. Always. Out of your entire life , if you can mange to get few seconds in which you have nothing to do, that is your mind has nothing to do, you are blessed. Before that day, although Buddha had dropped, family, kingdom, fame, etc but he was still with his mind. He was keeping his mind, his ego with him. But, that day he dropped everything. He dropped to the extent that he had nothing left to drop anymore and that's how he got the truth. So, if you can simulate Buddha's day of enlightenment in your life you might attain truth.

I and my father are one - Jesus

2008-10-05T15:04:00.005+05:30

In the gospel of John chapter 10 verse no 30 Jesus says "I and my father are one". I consider this as one of the most revolutionary statement of the bible. Once realized, this statement has power to bring the revolution of super consciousness. If not realized, it just remains like another sentences. However, this statement is wrongly understood even by catholics. Yesterday, I was chatting with a catholic saintly person from Texas about this statement. We differ in our understanding of this statement. This is not a simple statement. It looks simple but, actually it's not. The whole of the crux is hidden in this statement. However Jesus said that in slightly diplomatic manner. And mind you, this statement is complete. Means you don't need to read few more verses before and after this verse. It's a complete statement - I and my father are one. One thing is clear - he is definitely not talking about Joseph. He is talking about God. That he and his father who is God himself are one, means Jesus is God. Even catholics say this. But catholics think that this statement is only applicable to Jesus. That is, it's not entirely true for you. It's fully true only for Jesus. I differ with them on this. According to me it's true for whole of the humanity. Not only for Jesus. If it is not true for us that means God doesn't love us. What they say is - we can never become God but we can become god-like. There is a difference between God and God-like. Huge difference. According to Hinduism we can become exactly equal to God. Brihadaaranyak Upanishad says - "Aham Brahmasmi" perhaps the most straight forward declaration ever made so far. It's not a mantra, it's a declaration. Means you don't have to chant "Aham Brahmasmi". It's a one time declaration, that's it. The sage who realized it wrote it. He didn't realize Brahman by chanting Aham Brahmasmi. No way. He somehow realized the Brahman, but how? - that's different topic. And then he wrote "Aham Brahamsmi". It's a post effect of realization. So, it's a declaration. It's not a mantra. Gayatri mantra is a mantra.

So, basically I noticed catholics and Hinduism differ in philosophy greatly.

Oneliner

2008-10-03T13:32:00.008+05:30

I love "you" but I don't love "your"

There are some more oneliners here

मान्यता

2008-09-29T20:05:00.004+05:30

एक और एक मिल के दो होता है, पर हम नही माने तो? एक और एक मिल के दो ही हो और तीन नही हो यह हमारी मान्यता है। सत्य भी है। पर हमारी मान्यता भी है। सत्य के ऊपर मान्यता की परत है। एक और एक मिल के तीन भी हो सकता है, सम्भावना तो है पर, हमने यही माना की एक और एक दो ही होगा। मान्यता पर निर्भर करता है। अगर यह कहें की मान्यता पर ही निर्भर करता है तो कोई बहोत बरी अतिशयोक्ति न होगी। हर एक परिस्थिति मे एक और एक दो ही हो यह कोई जरुरी नही है। अगर ऐसा हो तो जोरना सत्य हो जाएगा, फिर हमारी मान्यता का क्या होगा? हमने जो भी सत्य सीखे हैं चाहे वो सत्य हो या न हों उनपर मान्यता की मुहर लगाने के बाद ही सीखे हैं। कितना भी बरा गणितज्ञ हो, जो तरह तरह का गणितीय प्रमाण दे की एक और एक जुड़कर दो ही होगा लेकिन हम उस प्रमाण को नही माने, और नही मानने का जो भी मूल्य चुकाना परे वो चुकाएं तो फिर उसका प्रमाण दो कौडी का भी नही रह जाता है। पर मान्यता मष्तिष्क की उपज है। उस से सत्य का कुछ लेना देना नही है। सत्य भी एक विचारधारा है। की ऐसा है। हमने मान्यता दी है। ऋषियों मुनियों ने मान्यता दी है। स्थूल रूप मे मान्यता तो हमने सत्य की ऊपर भी लगाये है। इसका मूल कारन यह है की सत्य गौन रह्ता है। वह तुम्हे मानाने देता है। इस से सत्य को कोई फर्क नही परता है, फर्क तुम्हे भी नही परना चाहिए। अगर तुमने मान ली लिया की हम सत्य को नही मानेंगे तो वोही तुम्हारे लिए सत्य होगा। सत्य की अमान्यता भी सत्य हो सकती है। बशर्ते तुम ठिक से मानो. तुम ठिक से मानते भी नहि हो. मान्यता प्रगाढ होनि चाहिये. आगर मान्यता प्रगाढ नहि है तो वो द्वैत हो जाता है. और सत्य कि स्थिति अद्वैत है. इसलिये मान्यता ऐसि होने चाहिये कि उसमे शक कि कोइ गुनजाइश न हो.

बुद्ध का जीवन

2008-09-27T10:22:00.004+05:30

बुद्ध के जीवन ने मुझे बहोत प्रभावित किया है। मुझे डर है की कहीं मैं बौद्ध धर्मं को न अपना लूँ। इतना प्रभावित किया है। सबसे बरी बात जिससे मैं प्रभावित हुआ वो यह है - बुद्ध थे तो राजकुमार। और वो भीख मांग के जीवन यापन करते थे। आश्चर्य है। की एक राजकुमार भीख मांगे। कपिलवस्तु की गलिओं मे भीख मांगता फिरे। सबसे अच्छा जीवन राजकुमारों का होता था। स्वर्णमय जीवन होता था उनका। राजा से भी अच्छा। राजकुमार मनुष्य जाती की पराकाष्टा हुआ करती थी, ऐश्वर्य के मामले मे। उनसे जादा ऐश्वर्य मनुष्य जाती की इतिहास मे किसी को नही मिला और आगे भी नही मिलेगा। तो बुद्ध जब सिद्धार्थ थे तो उनके पास जीवन का सारा ऐश्वर्य था। जितना ऐश्वर्य हो सकता था, था। ऐसा होता है, अगर तुम्हे अनंत ऐश्वर्य मिले जाए तो वो भी कुछ समाया के बाद एक कांटे जासी हो जाती है। तो फिर मन यह सोचने लगता है की ऐश्वर्य के बाद क्या है? तो बुद्ध (सिद्धार्थ) यही सोचे। ऐश्वर्य तो था ही उनके पास। काफ़ी ऐश्वर्य था। इतना जादा था की आज हम भी उतना ऐश्वर्य प्राप्त नही कर सकते। बुद्ध जब सिद्धार्थ थे तो उनको भी धीरे धीरे पता लगने लगा की इस ऐश्वर्य मे कुछ भी नही रखा है। क्षणिक है यह ऐश्वर्य। आज है, कल नही रहेगा। बस बात ख़तम हो गई। इस बात को समझने के लिए प्रगाढ़ चैतन्य चाहिए। नही तो जन्म-जन्मान्तर मे भी कहाँ समझ मे आता है। जब जब मनुष्य जाती ऐश्वर्य की चरम सीमा पर होगी तब तब वो सत्य का दरवाजा खात्खातायेगा। इसलिए राजकुमारों को खूब सत्य मिला। बहोत सारे राजकुमार ब्रह्मज्ञानी हो गए। महावीर भी राजकुमार थे, ब्रह्मज्ञानी हो गए। तुम जीसस की बात न मानो थो थोरा तार्किक है क्योंकि, तुम तर्क दे सकते हो की जीसस तो ख़ुद गरीब था, बकरी चराता था तो दूसरों को भी गरीब करना चाहता था। तो हम उसकी बात नही मानेगे। काफ़ी अच्छा तर्क है ये। पर, तर्क तर्क होता है। तर्क के माध्यम से सत्य कभी नही मिला है और नही मिलेगा। हालाँकि इस तर्क का भी काट है मेरे पास, पर फिर तर्क पर तर्क हो जाएगा। और इस बीच सत्य खो जाएगा। अगर तुम तर्कवादी ही हो तो तुम बुद्ध के जीवन मे कोई भी तर्क नही लगा पाओगे। जीसस के जीवन मे थोरा बहुत तर्क लगाने जी जगह है। तुम जीसस के जीवन मे थोरा बहोत तर्क लगा सकते हो। पर बुद्ध और महावीर के जीवन मे तर्क लगाने की थोरी भी जगह नही है। क्योंकि दोनों ही राजकुमार थे। दोनों ने ही ऐश्वर्य की चरम सीमा को देखा था और पाया की यह कुछ भी नही है। इसलिए वे सत्य की तरफ़ अग्रसर हुए। जीसस की बात थोरी अलग है। और शायद बुद्ध और महावीर के जीवन से भी जादा प्रगाढ़ है। क्योंकि जीसस गरीब था। गरीबों की तृष्णा जादा होती है। उनकी अकन्षाएं असीम होती है। उन्हें अभी ऐश्वर्य को पाना है। सत्य से उनका अभी कोई लेना देना नही है। जीसस के पास ऐश्वर्य नही था पर वो फिर भी समझे गए की ऐश्वय कुछ भी नही है। ऐश्वर्य न रहते हुए भी समझ गए। थोरा कठिन हैं। बुद्ध के पास था, तब वो समझे थे। जीसस के पास नही था, फिर वो समझ गए जो थोरा कठिन है। इस मामले मे जीसस की प्रगाढ़ता जादा है। मैं कोई तुलना नही कर रहा हूँ। बस मैं अपना दृष्टिकोण व्यक्त कर रहा हूँ।

Ramblings

2008-09-26T21:42:00.005+05:30

If I write a better blog, that doesn't mean I am a better person. If I write a worse blog that doesn't mean I am a bad person. If I type good words, that doesn't mean that I am a good person also. If I type bad words that doesn't mean I am a bad person also. A bad person can type good words. A good person can type bad words. Even a rapist can talk sometimes on dharma and realizations. Possible. Highly possible. Because, words doesn't depict the clear picture of what's running into person's mind. No body knows what's running to anybody Else's mind. You just have a cognitive perception of the person. But in most of the cases that meets our requirements. Some people like writings. I don't like writing much. Playing with words is not my game. Arranging words to make beautiful sentences following the rules of grammars is not my game. I don't write English, I write shubhenglish. Lol. We have learnt some of bad things as a good things and some of good things as a bad thing. And this understanding is so strong that there is no scope of modify that learning. This may be the propaganda of the society. We have been taught some of the pathetic learning assuming that these are good learning. And vice versa also. And we learnt these so strongly that now nothing can be done. Because, those socialists and those educationist made those structure of teaching that met their requirements for survival. So, it's like imparting their ideology to the coming generations that meets their "known" ways of requirements of the survival. Word "known" is important here. Those educationists know the subject matter. But very little. They don't know the root. They know superficially. Little knowledge is dangerous. And even more dangerous is learning bad(some of them) as good and good(some of them) as bad. Which we did that as I said above. Because of their principles and ideology they imparted on us. This is how society makes sheeps. Which goes whole life following others. Haven't we done everything which others have done. Till today, I have not done anything which has not been done by anybody so far. The whole life has become like a copy-pasted from others. That is one reason I stopped reading books. Reading book is a form of copying. When you read a book, you copy the information therein the book into your brain. We call it as a learning. We have been taught that learning is always good. No. Not always. Some times it can be disastrous. This is what is the bad thing we have learnt as a good thing. Whole life is a copy paste. Even all those inventions and discoveries are copy-paste. Copy-paste at slightly subtler level which essentially doesn't look like a copy-paste. But, actually it is a copy paste. Because, those scientists get ideas from other scientist. Einstein takes idea from Newton, Newton takes idea from Galileo, Galileo takes idea from Kepler, Kepler takes idea from someone I don't know. That someone takes idea from other someone...So, those scientist keep on taking ideas from other scientist. If you grow up a scientist in a forest and don't give him books, don't tell him about Newton or Einstein then he cant make discoveries. Because, he can't copy now. But then, he will make an entirely new discovery. Which humanity would have never thought. He will comeup with entirely new dimension. Because, he has not copied anything. All of your learning including your greatest innovation can be mapped to already existing similar innovations/ideas. Even my this post you can map somewhere. I would have got these ideas from somewhere. It can be mapped to somewhere. It's not coming on my own. I did read few books, watched few movies, videos, the kind of friends I have, etc. So, it can be mapped somewhere. So, everything is like a copy-pasted from others lol.

If you have done anything which humanity has not done so far I would love to hear. In my case , I have not done anything so far which has not been done by anyone. And to my knowledge no one has done anything entirely new which was never done.

Hope this post meets the requirements of the title of this post - Ramblings.

Chess

2008-09-25T21:26:00.003+05:30

Won this game. Click here to follow the game.

Game started in another variation of Sicilian defence e4-c5. On the 10Th move Nxc5 got a pawn advantage which made it an easy win. Black bishop at e3 helped a lot in defencing.

More on meditation

2008-09-22T21:25:00.000+05:30

I described two meditation techniques in the one of previous post on meditation. In this post I will write about philosophy behind meditation and possibly few more techniques too. Let see how it goes...

As I said, if you understand then you don't need to meditate. For example Buddha understands. So, he doesn't need to meditate. Like you don't have to travel if you are at the destination. Meditation is like a journey whose final destination is the liberation from the cycle of birth and death. So, you don't have to meditate provided you understand. This is what is called Gyan Yoga. Gyan means you understood that - that's how it is. Now there is no scope of further analysis here. All analysis are done due to incomplete understanding. If you understand by 100% then analysis vanishes. It has to vanish. Gyan yoga is very high form of yoga. It needs very mature very ripe consciousness to understand it. Some people have that level of consciousness. They are born with that level of consciousness. Meditation helps you to rise you consciousness. It opens another doorway of the consciousness. The five senses you have is not the only senses in the entire universe. Meditation can open different dimension to you. It can levitate your consciouses to higher level. But, if you already have higher consciousness you don't have meditate. And also, the more you understand the more meditative you will be. Mind you, I am not talking of understandings you get by reading junk books. Those are different. Here, by understanding I mean understanding by the consciousness.

As I said - meditation is the journey. It's not the destination. It's a way. It's one way. There are many other ways. One way is bhakti. Athato bhakti jigyasa. In Bhakti you surrender to your lord completely. That's also a kind of meditation but usually they don't call it as meditation. Hinduism says God has two form - personal and impersonal. Personal means those whose images have been made. Impersonal means God whiteout image. I personally am the worshipper of impersonal form of God. This is topic of debate between personalist and impersonalist that who is supreme - Brahman (Impersonal God) or Krishna/Shiva/Ram (Personal God). Such debate doesn't interest me. But I personally feel Brahman is the highest God. Krishna/Shiva/Ram is not even parts of partial of Brahman. Even Ramakrishna paramhams ultimately realized that Brahman is the highest God. God with form is duality. That means two thing should exist. One is God and other is devotee. As at the time of truth two should exist. God and his devotee. And whenever two separate thing exists so what is the cause of their existence. Two things means a change. Means a difference. Difference between God and his devotee. So, what is the cause of the difference? How did devotee became devotee and not God? So, there are many unanswered questions at the time of duality. So, the idea is to marge them - only one will exist. Either devotee or God. Because if only devotee exists then God is merged into devotee and if only God exist then then devotee is merged into God. And that's what I call it as - existence. You can call brahman or anything doesn't matter. So, according to me existence is the only God.

So, if you meditate at the existence that will be the most effective. Because, everything is coming from the existence level. Initially you won't understand everything. Because, there is an ego. Even meditation is also kind of ego. Ego of meditating. But slowly and slowly the more you meditate ego will dissolve into the existence. Source of ego is a separate topic. One practical thing I want to state out here is - if you meditate you will feel god, and if you don't meditate for long time the effect of last meditation will decrease slowly and slowly. And finally it will become to same moron state. So, again you have to meditate and rise you consciousness. So, basically you have to constantly meditate. If you leave it in between it won't be helpful much. Because, your consciousness will again go down. But once it reach to certain level then it won't go down. For example water boils at 100c only. No matter how many times you boil upto 99 degree Celsius. To boil the water you have to boil 100 degree Celsius. Similarly in meditation you have to keep meditating unless the consciousness rise to a certain level. If you reach to that level then it won't fall down or more accurately the probability of it's falling is very less.

Mithila Society

2008-09-20T17:11:00.002+05:30

Before, I write about Mithila in particular, lets first understand MY understandings about the society. Society is a strange word. Perhaps, in my previous post I mentioned that society can be treated like a living being. Whole society is one being. So far, we have only thought that human is one being. That is true. But society can also be treated like a being. A big human at the abstract level of which we are part of that bigger being. So, just like us, society takes birth, it grows like a child, then it becomes adult and mature more, then it becomes old and finally it dies. Because, every human being dies, so one day society will also die. Because, society is made of those humans. On an average a human dies in 100 years. But society won't die in 100 years. It can die in 100 generations, each generation of 100 years so almost 10000 years. It can die in thousands of years, in million and billions of years. Society has unknown ways of survival. At some point of time society may not want to survive. This happens particularly if the society has seen it's apex. It's very difficult to remain at the apex for a very long time. More on the society later...

Mithila is a very old society. Very old. From Ramayan days. Ramayan happend millions of years back. King Janak was from Mithila. His daughter name was Sita the wife of Lord Ram. So, mithila is a very old culture. So, it appears to me that this culture is old being now (the society as a being concept I described above). Mithila already has seen it's apex. King Janak was the apex of Mithila. And some more like Mandan Mishra, Vidyapati etc. I don't consider Gonu Jha as the apex of Mithila. He was just a slightly more clever person. Infact Mathils has instinct of cleverness. I consider Maithils as the most clever homosapience after Jews. I am not saying intelligent. Cleverness and intelligence is totally different. Somehow I feel the Maithil culture is drowing now...If you look at the state of the brahmins of Mithila. Pathetic I would say. All are meat eaters. It's very very difficult to find a vegetarian maithil. Infact eating fish is considered as holy in the Mithila. If you are going on a journey then a fish-meal can make your journey better is what is followed in mithila. When the society doesn't want to survive such type of rules are made. At least, Brahmins of mithila should not eat non-veg. Brahmins are supposed to cater the dharma. I have grown up in the villages so I got opportunity to look at the maithil culture with close proximity. My whole village is non-vegetarian. Except few pious people.

If you want to preserve your society even though society doesn't want to survive then protect your kids and woman. Because, both are delicate. If woman of a society starts marrying into another society then former society won't survive longer. This has also started happening in Mithila. Mithila already lost so many values. The paintings we lost, the art of making toys from sand we lost, making Gharonda we lost, hundreds of things we lost. Now you can't expect the girls of mithila to make Gharonda, particularly the city girls. Now they care more for Valentine-day than Gharonda. And there were many more things which I could not see, becuase those were lost. My dad would have seen those. Generations by generations mithila is loosing it's core value. And will loose more. I suspect 2-3 generation is enough to loose all the maithil values except the language - maithili/Angika. Language will survive more. Slightly more. Few months back I met a maithil girl and I thought we would talk in Maithili but she was speaking in American accent english (not even in Hindi). This is how the culture is lost. In nutshell - we have lost more maithil values, we will continue to loose more, if thing doesn't improve.

शब्द और सत्य

2008-09-19T23:34:00.004+05:30

मैंने अबतक सत्य के बारे मे जो कुछ भी लिखा, वो सत्य नही था। वो सत्य के बारे मे जानकारी थी। सत्य को नही लिखा जा सकता है, कभी नही लिखा गया, कभी किसी ने नही लिखा। पर हाँ सत्य के बारे मे लिखा जा सकता है। सत्य को नही लिखा गया है, सत्य के बारे मे थोरा बहोत लिखा गया है। पर हम समझ लेते हैं की सत्य ही लिखा गया है। शब्द सत्य को नही व्यक्त कर सकता है। अगर सत्य शब्द मे व्यक्त हो जाए तो शब्द सत्य हो जाएगा। फिर सत्य, सत्य na रहेगा। शब्द की सीमा होती है, सत्य की कोई सीमा नही। शब्द की उत्पत्ति होती है। सत्य की कभी उत्पत्ति होती नही। शब्द का कारण है। सत्य का कोई करना नही है। बस है। मनुष्य जाती के इतिहास मे सत्य के बारे मे जो कुछ भी लिखा गया है और जो लिखा जाएगा वो पूर्ण सत्य के सापेक्ष कुछ भी नही है। रत्ती भर भी सत्य नही लिख गया है। सत्य शब्द मे उतरता नही। क्योंकि, सत्य की अनुभूति अपूर्व है। बहोत कम लोगों ने वैसी अनुभूति की है और उनलोगों ने उस अनुभूति को व्यक्त करने के लिए नए शब्द का निर्माण नही किया। क्योंकि निर्माण करने के लिए इच्छा टी होनी चाहिए। पूर्ण सत्य के समय साड़ी इच्छाएं विसर्जित हो जाती हैं। इसलिए सत्य को ठीक ठीक व्यक्त करने वाले शब्द के निर्माण न हो सका। क्योनी जिनको सत्य मिला we सत्य मे ही लीं रहे। तो जिनको सत्य मिला वे सत्य के लिए शब्द नही बना सके। और जिन्होंने शब्द को बनाया उनको सत्य तो मिला नही, तो वे भी सत्य के लिए शब्द न बना सके। दोनों ही न बना सके। न सत्यदर्शी न शब्ददर्शी। सत्य मे शब्द के लिए जगह नही है। इतनी जगह नही है की शब्द wahan ठहरे। इसलिए बुद्ध भी सत्य के बारे मे जादा कुछ बोले नही। बुद्ध बोलें तो कैसे। सत्य शब्द मे उतरता नही है। अगर तुम बद्ध से पूछो की सत्य क्या है। तो वो कुछ नही बोलेंगे। मौन रहेंगे वो। क्योंकि शब्द का प्रोयाग करते ही सत्य सत्य न रहेगा। किसी भी शब्द मे, किसी भी वाक्य मे इतना सामर्थ्य नही है की वो सत्य का निरूपण कर सके। हमारे पास जीवन की हर एक अनुभूति के लिए शब्द नही हैं। कुछ अनुभूति ऐसी हैं जो बहोत कम लोगों को हुआ है। किसी बुद्ध किसी महावीर किसी जीसस को हुआ। तो उन्होंने शब्द तो बनाया नही। वो कोई कवि या लेखक तो थे नही की शब्द मे उनकी रूचि हो। थोरा बहोत बताये। पूर्ण तो वो भी नही बता सके। बताने की भी एक सीमा होती है। जितना उनसे बन सका वो बताये। हम माने या न माने, पर वो बताये। घूम घूम के बताये। अस्तांगिक मार्ग बताये। शब्द उतना महत्वपूर्ण नही है. शब्द धूल की तरह है। जब घोर्रे दौरते हैं तो धूल उरने लगती हैं। वैसे ही जब सत्य किसी के ह्रदय मे प्रकट होता है तो शब्द बनने लगते है, फिर वेदा, उपनिषद बनने लगते हैं। फिर धर्म बनने लगते हैं।

Lost in chess

2008-09-19T21:59:00.002+05:30

After long time I played chess with Nagaskaki and lost the gmae:(((( I resigned in 38th move. Started the game in sicilian style. Had nice pawn structure. But black was very strategic. Click here to follow the game.

Gvim vs Emacs

2008-09-17T21:17:00.006+05:30

The holy war of text editor - Gvim vs Emacs. Which one is better? Difficult to say. Depends on your requirement. Vim is small and great. Emacs is large an great. Both are great. One is small in the size, other is large in the size. Gvim is GUI version of vim. If you want to quickly edit a file and mostly want to remain in the command mode - vim is the better choice. It's real fast. Default vim is much easier to use then default Emacs for programmers. If you do elisp programming in Emacs then you can do an anything you want. Because, elisp is kind of programming language. You can write functions in elips and bind to any suitable key you want. That is where Emacs becomes extremely powerful. However, if your job requires mostly to edit existing code vim would be better choice. Emacs is huge. Very huge. It's not only designed just as a text editor. Vim is purely text editor. Emacs can act like operating system. Lol. Emacs has everything. The main idea behind Emacs was to put everything into one editor so that user will never have to exit from it. You can send receive email through Emacs. You can read news inside Emacs. etc. So, Emacs is not just a text editor. It's much more than that. One thing I didn't like about Emacs is ctrl key. To type any command you have to press ctrl key. This is too much. However, you can always map them to functional keys but there exist only 12 functional keys. Hitting control keys always, it bugs(to me). Things I don't like with vim is every time switching between command and insert mode. Indent capability if vim is poor. Emacs is smart in indenting. Only problem I see with Emacs is the control key. In vim if you are in command mode you don't have to hold control key. Then any key can act like a command. That's not the case with Emacs. In Emacs to invoke a command you have to hold control key always. There is no way out except mapping (up to 12 functional keys). That is why Vim is great when you work in command mode. Working in Emacs is too slow as compared with command mode in vim. From undo point of view both are same. Both provide unlimited undoes and redoes. From block editing point of view Vim is slightly better than Emacs. When you select a block in vim it clearly highlights, whereas in Emacs you have to imagine the block. Goshhh! From shell point of view emacs is better. Working with Emacs can be enjoyable provided you write lots of elisp function in your .emacs file (which I don't have). Emacs has a viper mode which can act like vim. It can emulate vim. I used it once. Was fun using vim inside Emacs. Other way round possible? Emacs inside Vim? I think it would be good idea to make an editor which combines the properties of Emacs and vim.

About the creation of the universe, Hadron

2008-09-14T08:07:00.006+05:30

Since, very beginning the humanity is trying to find how the universe was created and how big it is? And if created then why? What is the purpose behind it? Lots of scientist are spending their whole life to understand big bang, black holes etc. Making hardon collider to simulate it. But, unfortunately these scientists don't know the very nature of the existence. I myself am a student of science. I agree that one day science can find everything, every possible cause but except one thing - that's the existence itself. Except existence science can know everything. Science will never know the cause of the existence. No possibility. It's just there. No matter how intelligent scientists are working to find it. If billions of scientists trillion times more intelligent than Einstien are working to find the cause of existence for trillions of years still they will never know even the small trace of the existence. Only thing they can know is that it's causeless. Existence is causeless. Except existence everything has a cause. That science will find out. If earth exists it has cause - the Sun. If the Sun exists it has a cause - the galaxy. If galaxies exist it has a cause - the clusters. If clusters exist it has a cause - the cluster of clusters and so on... The phrase "so on..." is very important. It's approaching to infinite. So, the universe is actually infinite. Scientists say the size of the universe is the length travelled by the light since big bang till today. This is full bullshhhhh-it. A holy bullshhhhh-it. The length of the universe has to be infinite. If it is finite then what is there just after where universe ends? No space there? There is. Our consciousness may not go there but it exists. Yes there is a practical limit of the universe. And that's the distance travelled by the light since big bang happened.

One thing I can certainly state - Something like big bang had definitely hap pend - an explosion. A massive explosion in a random manner. If you look at the formation of the earth it's random. Random, rocks, random stones, random sands random lands. I don't see an symmetry in the mountains. It looks like it was broken, it was exploded. Otherwise you would see the symmetry everywhere. So, definitely the earth is created out of an explosion. Only an explosion can create such a random terrain. But if you look at the atoms and molecules it's very symmetrical. Anything symmetrical was created in a planned manner. Electrons move in a symmetric path. Therefore it's planned. Someone planned it. But the rocks are random. So, it came out of explosion. But the atoms within the rocks are symmetrical. So, someone planned. Planned thing will be symmetrical. Unplanned thing will be explosive. But again solar system looks symmetrical. So, there is a possibility that a random explosion can create symmetrical systems - such as solar system. So, it's certain that some explosion had definitely happened. But, can an explosion create anything useful? Lol. Ususally, explosions are always disastrous. So, big bang explosion was useful? Think on it...

Destiny

2008-09-06T16:09:00.005+05:30

You know what is destiny? It was a beautiful word, almost as beautiful as the word God. But, unfortunately this word has been deprecated by the society. Infact, society deprecated anything which can inadvertently open the doorway to super-consciousness. Since, very beginning, from day 1, the society is against of anything which enables the access to super-consciousness. Jesus was crucified, such a lovely person was crucified. Socrates was poisoned. Society has sent pain to every extraordinary human. The core of the meaning of destiny is - Everything is happening by itself and you just have to observer it. We have not created the sun, the moon, the bird, the tree but, all these exist. So, who created all these? These are all created by the destiny. We should not have much take towards the creation of destiny - except observing it. Practical meaning of destiny is to observe what's happening around. We don't have to do anything and sun rises in the east automatically. These are all fixed by the destiny. We don't have to put an effort to make the sun rising in the east. It rises in the east automatically. It never forgets to rise. Lol. It's a miracle. Since it happens daily we think it's an ordinary activity, we don't acknolwdge it but, actually it's not. It's miracle. Look around you and everything is a miracle. Suppose, a blind man of age 70 years suddenly gets the power to see into his eyes. What will he see? He will see so many colors which he had never seen. The green grass, the blue sky, these birds flying. He won't believe it at first glace. He may become mad to see all these colorful diversification. We don't acknowledge these as a miracle because we see them daily. But, these are actually miracle. Which no magician or scientist can perform. Destiny doesn't mean palmistry or astrology. But, yes there is a correlation to some extent. Palmistry and astrology was invented so that people understand the real meaning of destiny which I described above. But, unfortunately they couldn't understand the real meaning of destiny instead they became heavily dependent on destiny. Destiny frees you, from the bondage of karma. Because, it's happening by itself. Childhood came and went. We never wanted to leave childhood and we left it. Everything has happened which we never wanted to happen. Nobody wants to die and everybody dies. This is fixed by destiny.

Philosophy and Practical

2008-09-01T22:46:00.005+05:30

You do anything and it will become frustrating one day. I tried it. Enlightenment is the only thing which will never become frustrating or boring. Because, at the time of enlightenment "I" doesn't exist. Remember one thing- Either you exist or Truth exists. Both cannot exist together. No possibility. At a time only one will exist. Either you or truth. And mostly you exist. Because, truth is so subtle that even the slightest perturbation can wrap the truth. Can hide the truth. That's why society could alter the truth. You never know whose fault it is - it's a truth's fault or it's society's fault. Sometimes, in spite of so much knowledge and understanding about life you still don't know what's happening. I have become bored of knowing the things. Society taught us that the more you know the better you are. According to me the less you know the better you will be which society won't like. Some of the professors didn't like me for the reason I refused to know more. But when I was knowing more, topped in the school they liked me. But their liking was conditional. Anything conditional is ephemeral. Because, that condition can vanish one day.

Coming to practical...

The one very fundamental thing I wanted to state out here is - see, if you understand then you don't have to do anything. You are done. You don't have to do Pranayaam and meditation provided you understand. This called Gyan Yoga. No need to meditate on the Agya Chakra if you understood. And it's so easy to understand that you can't understand. Because, society has always prepared you to understand difficult subject. So, our ability to understand easy thing is lost. Look at the Ramanna Maharshi. He was not a Yogi but still his knowledge was of very high order. However, it's always recommended to meditate and pranayaam. There is no harm in that.

In Hinduism they talk about 7 chakra energy centers. Muladhar, Swadhisthan, Manipur, Anahaat, Vishuddha, Agya and Sahasrar. Eeach center has it's attributes. Meditation on these centers are very helpful. It's said if your Sahasrar is open then you are almost God. These centers are described in the ancient Yoga scriptures. However, as I said - you may not have to know all these once you understand the core of the existence. Because, these are just expansion of the existence. Existence is root. Rest are just details. So, I don't give much stress on Chakra meditation rather I have stresss on the existence. Know the root of the roots. Rest will all follow...

Education

2008-08-27T21:16:00.004+05:30

What is the purpose of education? Study and just earn? Our current education is not complete. It mostly gives stress on the intellect. The more intellectual you are, the better student you are - is what society has taught us. To me intellect is like an ash. I give 0 value to intellect. According to me, the more intelligence you have the more problem you will face. What does intelligence mean? It simply means you can think deep and fast. It means your brain perform more chemical reaction. You are able to analyze more. But does it matter to totality? Does it bring happiness? It doesn't. Totality is infinite and standstill. Your intelligence can solve some problem can perform some calculation, can think of some innovations. Take example of Einstein. He was very intelligent. He discovered few laws. But the laws were always there. Whether you discover it or not. You found that law and you moved in that direction. But, there was other directions also. We missed that. There is always an another direction. Take any direction. And trust me you would never know which direction is good. Actually, there is nothing called good or bad. Society creates good or bad. All these socialists create good and bad. Existence doesn't create good or bad. Existence creates only pure existence. But, society comes and starts attributing by good and bad. If I were God, I would like to remove adjectives from parts of speech. Lol. You can't imagine how much harm has happened due to adjectives. Because, these socialists themselves don't know the full story. They know, but a little. They have some idea. Some foggy idea. So they keep on contaminating your mind by teaching is that - this is good, that is bad etc. It has not started today. It has been running since ages. According to me society has never thought even for fraction of second with cool and calm head. Society has been always in hurry. As if a train is missing. There never realized that there is always a next train. Pick a random person and just look into his eyes. You can see whole of the society in him. He is a fruit of society. He is a creation of society. That's how society has prepared him. He is searching something, as if something is lost. Only thing society has taught you is to walk, is to move. They always showed you the path. They never showed you the destination. Because, those teacher and those educationist and those socialist themselves don't know the destination. Only thing they know is the journey, a milestone. Perhaps they think journey is the destination. So they keep on educating you, imparting their ideals on you. But, there is a trick here. A propaganda I would say. Society taught you in a tricky manner. At present, you think that all your ideology is your thinking. But, actually it's something like this - society taught you that you think that it's your ideology. Whatever ideology you have - society taught you to think that it's your ideology. That's why you think that it's your ideology. But, actually it's not yours. It's society's ideology. Society played a propaganda here. Which you will never understand. Because, you were not allowed to understand. Many things has not been revealed to you.

Education which doesn't free you is lame. Our formal education is pathetic. I have not met a single teacher who knows what's happening around. In my childhood a junk teacher was used to come my home to teach me. He used to slap suddenly. And that too very hard. A sudden hard slap on the chick. It was very painful. Such teacher should not be allowed to teach. But, society is always worried of bread so some junk teacher are allowed to teach. If you teach in the wrong manner the people like Hitler will be produced. If you teach that Jew's are bad then Hitler will be produced. Hitler's education was very important factor in him becoming the most destructive person of the last century. By education I don't only mean what you study in the schools and colleges. By education, I mean anything which changes your consciousness. Kids should be taught in the proper manner by proper teacher.

Self Introspection

2008-08-23T18:22:00.003+05:30

Few days back I was doing self-introspection. That,who am i ? Why am i like this? It appears these questions are wrong. Any question which starts with "why" is more difficult to answer. "Why" makes the question more difficult. Why does 1 plus 1 makes 2. This is impossible to answer in totality. In fact, you can't answer even a single question with totality. I was trying to analyze Newton's laws. I did analyze to some extent. But, after that you never know what's happening. It goes to quantum level and after that other types of problems starts arising. Unknown factors became so huge that I stopped analyzing. Analyze, anything in totality and it will reach to Brahman level. I concluded that somehow Brahman is not allowing these electrons to disintegrate. What is the cause which makes these electrons stable? Why doesn't it simply disappears? There is definitely some unknown force operating inside electrons, inside quarks which is holding it's existence. That force is causing the whole of the universe to remain existent. From where does that force come. It comes from Brahman. Brahman is attribute less. How does Brahman know that it has to keep the electron stable? Why such a complex system is working flawlessly. How does electron know that it doesn't has to disintegrate? There must be some consciousness operating among these electrons. I am amazed, the way the universe is functioning. How does universe know that it has to survive? Everything seems so stable. There must be some super-consciousness operating in the core of the universe which is not allowing these atoms or electrons to disintegrate. But what is the purpose of that super-consciousness behind it? But Brahman is unexpressed. And the universe is expressed. So how does this transition from unexpressed to expressed happens. Unexpressed cannot express anything because it's unexpressed. Then how can expressed come into picture? Brahman cannot create anything expressed. There is no desire left in Brahman to create anything. Brahman is unperturbed state. To create something we need perturbation. Unperturbed thing cannot create anything. Unperturbed cannot be perturbed. If in the beginning everything was unperturbed then perturbed will never exist. And perturbed cannot come out of unperturbed. So, definitely perturbed existed since very beginning. From day 1 perturbed exists. Otherwise, there is no possibility of any kind of perturbations to come into existence. Then, what is the cause of the very first perturbations? I don't know. The more you think it gets more complicated. The brain has it's own limitation to handle complexity. However, there are ways to tackle it. Do not solve the problem. Accept the problem. The moment you accept the problem, problem dissolves. Then you don't need to worry about the very first perturbation of the universe. Or handle it in taciturn way. Taciturn is the best answer to all the problems. Society, never worried about totality. Never. Society has always worried about partiality. This is where whole of the problem comes. Partiality imparts problems. Partiality means problem. Totality means solution.

Coming back to the main topic. Lol. I was doing self-introspection. That why am I like this? Like writing post on the subjects which more than 99.999% of humanity will not understand. Writing blogs on the love. The one reason I could find that love was the missing factor in my childhood. If you are not being loved, you will write about love. You will express it in some manner. If you are being loved, you will never write about it. In my childhood I was so engrossed into study that I never gave a damn about love. I was a guy with tens and hundreds of books packed in a closed room. Study became so important I forgot love. My mind, my intelligence everything grew but my heart couldn't grow. Apart from that I don't have sisters. So all those teasing part I missed. So, somewhere deep down in my self the teasing part is still indwelling inside. That is one reason I like teasing girls, which they don't want probably. Due to this, I developed bad relationship with couple of girls. I apologies to everyone whosoever felt bad by my teasing.

Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na

2008-08-20T19:55:00.004+05:30

So, happend to watch Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na this sunday paying Rs 200 for the ticket. Lol. In Muzaffarpur it would be Rs 10. Twenty times more costlier. Of course, on the cost of AC and a cozy seat. Humanity would have never thought that shadows moving on a white curtian in a dark room upto the time by which humans do not feel to piss will become one of the most integral part of people's lifestyle. Lol.

I liked the movie.

The movie is for youngesters. A love story. As usual Aditi and Jai are from same college. More than 99% of affairs start from college. Because, college is the place where you can interact with girls. Otherwise it's impossible to make a gf in CCD, in a shopping complex. They studied together for 5 years and didn't even know that they are in love, inspite of their parents and everybody else suspecting so. As if they are too innocent like kids. Both find partners against each other. Finally, they started realizing that they love each other and again became couple. To trivial to guess what's gonna happen next. But, overall movie is good. Songs are also good - Kabhi Kabhi Aditi...Jokes too - when Jai's mom says 5 years went on phone. Lol. Aditi's bro was even more funny when he pours water on Jai. Lol. Genelia D'souza is looking too good in the movie ;) Imran Khan was also nice as a debut.

Death - The most taboo word

2008-08-16T21:37:00.010+05:30

Why am I writing on Death? On such a taboo subject. Lost a cousin brother :( Chahere bhaiya the. Would be 40 + age group. Today, afternoon my dad called me told this sick news. He used to work in a bank in Ara. He was a good person. Fully inculcated with maithil values. My dad had met with him in Feb'08. Don't know what went wrong and it happened. Perhaps, one of the most sorrowful event of my family. No idea how bhabhi and his kids gonna cope this situation. No idea. Don't know. Will have to clean shave my hair on the head. Anyways, these are just part of life.

Above is the reality. Now coming to philosophical part. I remember in my 10Th class sanskrit book we had yudhishtir and yaksha samwaad. Yaksha ask yudhisthir - Kim aascharyam? That is what is wonder of this world? Yudhishtir says - Everyday people die but, everyone thinks that he/she will never die. This is the biggest wonder of the world. He is rightly saying. Death is the biggest sorrow of life. No body wants to die. Attachment of life is so high that to live people are even ready to die. Everyone wants to live. To not to die they are even ready to die. Life is the biggest attachment. That's why death is the most sorrowful event. However, there are ways to make it a celebration.

All the religions you see has been sprout out of death. It's death which created all the religions. Death is the seed, Religion is the tree, Moksha is the fruit. Buddha saw a dead body, and he left everything. Buddhism came into picture. Nothing was happening to him unless he saw a dead body. The dead body was the point of transition. He saw the dead body and he understood. We also see dead body but we don't understand anything. We see it's not our body and we happily return to our home. But, we all know what's gonna happen one day. It's okay if I say, that dead body was a very important cause behind the creation of Buddhism. Hinduism is also like that. In Hinduism there is a concept of Moksha. Which means liberation from the cycle of birth and death. So death is the central point of all the religion. If people were not dying then we would not have religion probably. It's death which propels us to think what's gonna happen after death. Hinduism believes in re-incarnation. Christianity, Judaism, Islam doesn't believe in re-incarnation. For them there is only one life. That's why they live with full intensity. They have to do everything in this life only. Because, there is only one life. They have to make full use of it. That's one reason they could progressed more. In India, things happen in a relaxed manner. We believe in eternity. We do not believe in single life concept. That's why you won't find Indians that intensive as people in the west. People in the west are always in hurry. Because, they have only one life. Say 100 years. In India, people don't hurry much. Coz they have next life. If something they cant achieve in the current life, they aspire to achieve in the next life. Chalo is janam me nahi to agle janam me hi sahi. Even marriage is done for 7 life time. That is you marry same girl till next 7 life time. Indian's plans can span upto 7 life times. Indians can have plan upto eternity also. Lol.

The whole endeavour is to get released from the cycle of birth and death. This what Hinduism is all about. This is called Moksha. But it doesn't happen so easily. This is probably the most rarest phenomena. It is said for Moksha even the kingdom of whole universe can be dropped. Even the kingdom of whole of the universe is not even parts and partial of Moksha. Moksha means you done. You are supremely free. There is no bondage now. No slavery. No desire. What will you desire? Even the desire of desire is gone. Difficult to achieve. Buddha achieved that. It happens very rarely. Hardly among billions and trillions of people anyone achieve moksha. Buddha was out of any desire. He didn't have any desire left in him. He didn't have even desire to take food. Amazing must be HE. Wanted to meet him. Lol.

Death puts a question mark on our every activity. Suppose, someone is earning, enjoying, eating, shitting, working hard. But why? To die one day? No matter how great we do but we anyway gonna die, gonna be mingled into dust. So why panic. More than 99% of humanity has been working for no reason. Has been working to be finished. Perhaps one reason I could think of is working lets you to forget death temporarily. But, we all know it's gonna happen. Not today, but some day later. By keeping our self busy in work we try to forget death. And we do succeed to some extent. And we keep on neglecting death our whole life. And one day comes and everything get finished. All our sand-castle we had made get destroyed. All the dreams are destroyed. Because, dreams were created. Anything created will be destroyed one day. Nothing remains. Only thing which was never created will be never destroyed. And that's the existence. Existence was never created. Never. It's always there. Except existence everytihng is created. So, they will be destroyed. They will have to destroy. That is one reason I said - Existence is the only God. Eating, earning, sleeping, enjoying, mating and shitting is not the only activity of the life. Death destroyes everything. That's is one reason the whole of humanity has been afraid of death. No body wants to die. I myself wants to live 200 years. Lol. I want to see how would be the world 200 years later from now. What kind of gadgets would be used. etc. But at the end I want to be supremely free. In any case I do not want re-birth. No desire left to learn A, B, C, D again just to dig my own grave. This life will be my last life. The last game. The last drama. The last play. The last barrier.

Oneness With Nature

2008-08-14T22:50:00.002+05:30

We are definitely not in oneness with nature. Otherwise, nature should obey us. If you are in oneness with nature then nature would obey you. Suppose, it's raining and you want to go to office. You are wishing if rain would stop. But the rain doesn't stop. And you are late for office. Why doesn't rain stop? Fundamentally, it should stop. Because, you are wishing it to stop. If Jesus wish, it stops. You also wish but it doesn't stop. Why? What is wrong happening? Because, there is a difference between you and Jesus. Jesus was in oneness with whole of the nature. He was nature himself. He respect nature and it's existence. That's why nature obeys him. Winds obeys his words, birds talk to him etc. No body obeys you. Because, you yourself don't obey yourself. What others will obey you. But, when you are in oneness with whole of the existence, then no one can disobey you. Then wind will listen your directions. Then bird will sing for you. Then monkeys will give you bowl of honey just like they gave to Buddha. Then whole nature will dance for you. That is what happened with Jesus. He brought life back to a dead girl. Amazing.

The reason why nature doesn't obey you is because of inertia. For example you cant disobey Newton's law. In general you cannot. But that doesn't mean under no circumstances you can disobey Newton's laws. If that is the case then Newton's laws are truth. Because, truth cannot be disobeyed. Newton's laws are indeed truth but partial truth. These laws can be disobeyed. Because the core of the existence is even more subtler than the cause which governs Newton's laws. Subtler will be powerful. So, if you have access to the core of the existence then you should be able to bend Newton's laws. Not only Newton's laws, but any laws. And in fact Newton's laws doesn't work at very high speed and within atoms. Subtler can always bend grosser.

Chess Opening Ruy Lopez opening

2008-08-09T23:10:00.002+05:30

Started this game in Ruy Lopez style thats - e4, e5, Nf3, Nc6, Bb5. I liked this opening, attacking as well as defensive. It gives slight advantage to white to capture center sqaures.

Click here to watch the game. Not to mention that it was a long game.

Meditation

2008-08-09T00:07:00.006+05:30

One of my friend asked me to write something about meditation. Also got feedback about previous post that it was too heavy to grasp the subject matter. I understand. The topic itself was abstract. No worries if you couldn't grasp my previous post. So, in this post I am writing about meditation.

Meditation is the key. Nothing happens without meditation. All these philosophy are valueless without meditation. Again I would refrain myself from talking philosophy behind meditation. Rather I would concentrate on practical aspect of meditation. Meditation is easy if you are good in Pranayaam. I won't talk about pranayam in this post. The main thing pranayam does is to attain the kumbhak. Kumbhak is state of no breathing. A simple procedure to start meditation could be something like this - Sit in any aasan, comfortably. Close your eyes. Then concentrate on your breaths. Just watch your breaths. After some time breath should calm down. Once breath is calm and you are also relaxed then look at the space between the two eyebrows keeping eyes closed. When you close your eyes we still see something. In yoga it is called "Chidakash". That represents the whole of the creation. So, the meditator should concentrate on the space between two eyebrows. Space between two eyebrows is very important in Yoga. It is usually termed as third eye. Space between two eyebrows is the doorway of Brahman. This is the door from where yogis enter into Brahman. Anything below this is vyakt. Anything above this is ayakt. This is where ayakt and vyakt meet together. This is the point of transition. So, basically meditating at the space between two eyebrows will be very effective. There are many ways to meditate. I just described one which I think is very powerful. In addition to that one can also chant OM while meditating. As and when you progress ahead you may not need to chant even OM. You would automatically hear universal sound OM. In yoga it is called "Naad". You can meditate on that sound also.

Nothing happens much if you meditate for half and hour. But if you meditate for 2 hours continuously many things can happen. Actually, it depends on your current spiritual status. I would suggest to go deep into meditation. But don't go very deep. Very deep meditation can create trouble also. Meditation is like you are diving into ocean of infinite depth. The more you dive in it the more it becomes deep. So, there is chance of drowning in it. The amount of pleasure is so high that you might not want to come out of meditation. Lol. This happens rarely but can happen. So I described two method of mediation- 1. Meditate at the space between two eyebrows, 2. Meditate at OM sound. You can choose any method you like better. :)

A short win

2008-08-06T20:21:00.002+05:30

This was the win in the 38th move. Usually I used to win in 70-80 moves. I consider this as one of the my best game. Click here to follow the game.

Abstraction

2008-08-05T23:58:00.004+05:30

Simple is beautiful. Abstraction is like an ocean. It has no end. It goes on and on...Abstraction is an aspect of totality. However, you can still treat abstraction as the genesis of the whole creation. It's so abstract that it becomes causal. Abstraction can be basis. So abstract that it become useless. Usefulness is not abstraction. There is no direct use of God that's why God is an abstract concept. So abstract that mind cannot comprehend. If mind can comprehend the abstraction then mind is greater than the abstraction. At some point of time mind has to stop. From there onwards the layers of abstraction starts. To me there is no difference between God and Abstractions. God = Abstraction. God is perhaps the most abstract concept ever created which is still working flawlessly. One of the definition of God in the Hinduism is - Not this Not this. What it means is whatever you see through your eyes, whatever you hear through you ear, whatever you smell through your nose, basically whatever you sense is not God. This is negative abstraction. Keep on negating. Negate to the extent that there is nothing left to negate any more. If something is still left to negate then know that that's not the state of God. That is one kind of abstraction. The another definition says - Everything is God. Sarvam Khalvidam. Now this is positive abstraction. Assimilate that everything is God. And if you think that everything is God except just one atom then know that you don't know God. It has to go to extreme. Either nothing is God or Everything is God. In that extremity of abstraction you find God. That is one reason I said love everybody. Everybody. If you hate even a single person in the entire universe that means you hate the whole of creation itself. Because, that person is part of creation. Whole creation is sustaining him. One of the biggest unfortune of the humanity was the disintegration of sense of belongingness. We think we are separate. We think that we exist as a separate independent entity. That was what society has taught us. And society became full of morons and pervs. Remember one thing whatever ideology and understanding you have is not yours. You are taught to think like that. That's why you think like that. It's not your thinking. It's thinking of society. Society is a strange thing. You can treat society like a human. Society takes birth, society grows and become young, and one day it dies. It may so happen that society doesn't want to survive for some reason. This is what happened with Roman civilization. It got fully extinct. If Roman civilization can extinct then anything can extinct. That I believe.You are taught to think that whatever you think is your thinking. So, that's not your thinking. The point I am trying to make is we all are connected to same source. It's like this - tide might think that he is separated from the ocean. But when tide exist as a separate entity it dies down into the ocean. But the moment tide realizes that I am the ocean itself. Then there is no question of dying. We are exactly like those tides waving the lap of consciousness. But of ego we think that we exist as a separate entity. And that everyone thinks. This is where the root problem comes. Do not slot the existence. Slotting has always created problems. It's all one - it has to be integrated. This is what is the true meaning of Abstraction I am talking in this post. Abstraction means integrated. Abstraction means united entity. Together. We grow together. One person growing and rest all going to grave makes no sense to me. Everybody has to grow together towards the perfection. Because we all are same. Jesus said "I and my father are same". What does it mean? He is simply saying that we all are same. Same existence is everywhere. Be it for Jesus, be it for you. Only difference between you and Jesus is that Jesus know that he and his father are same. But you know that you and your father are not same. But it doesn't affect the existence by any means. The abstract pure nature of existence demands that whole humanity has to grow together. This is what is the constraint to be met for happy humanity. Till today we have not met this constraint. There were many theologians many philosopher. Be it Socrates, Plato, Lao Tse, Arvind, Vivekanand or anyone. No body could ever understand this concept of universal equanamity which demands every individual to be happy. This is the innate nature of whole creation. Because creation is not slotted. It's not digital, it's analogue. This demands every individual to be happy. This is one aspect of abstraction. There are other aspects as well. In fact there are many aspect. It can goes on and on....It won't end. The aspect I described is part of the existence. And is stable. That means some another aspect working parallel is trying to nullify the cause of dissolution of the former aspect. That is why so many people differs in their theology. Because there exists many parallel abstractions. Mind you - it's not one abstraction. At a time there exist many parallel abstraction cooperating themselves in sustaining whole of the existence. Now different people has different power to perceive the abstractions. That is why their ideology differs. Their understanding differs. Still at some point of time it has to be brought under umbrella of single abstraction.

This weekend

2008-08-04T00:02:00.005+05:30

Happy Friendship Day

Had a long weekend. 3 days. Fri-Sat-Sun. It was full of coding. Especially for the chat server I am making. Wrote 5 servers in total. Searched on net for any legacy code. Got few codes to play with. It's working now. Multiple users can connect to the chat server. The most important part of socket programming was socket_select and socket_read. I tried both blocking and non-blocking connection. Non-blocking is not recommended as it eats of lots of CPU time. It still however has problems - when transfer is idle for some time say 2-3 minutes. Response after idle time for 2-3 minutes is unpredictable. Server doesn't broadcast the message. Neither it appears to be echoing properly. I am suspecting it's some kind of issue of timeout with client telnet. No fully sure though. May be there is some catch somewhere in the code. Have to look into that.

Secondly, keeping timeout problem apart, I am thoroughly enjoying chatting from telnet. This is the very basic chat and is the fundamental concept being IRC. That's how so many chat protocol have evolved. It worked in windows telnet program, putty, kermit, absolute telnet, wise telnet. I downloaded many telnet programs to make sure that when we press enter it sends LF-CR to the server. This is required by TCP/IP protocol. Hopefully it does. Kermit has option to select CR or LF or LF-CR. I liked kermit.

Thirdly, I also spent a lot time on font for my UNIX. I am looking for Courier New, Font size 12 and bold font applied across Xterm, GVIM and Emacs. Courier New font is available in windows. But, unfortunately it's not available in Linux/Solaris. :(( There are ways to install fonts but that needs superuser account. Wonder why Courier New font is not added in Linux. MS has copyright on it? Meanwhile, I am unhappily managing with Courier-12-bold. Looks good but not as good as if it were Courier New. In case you know how to use courier new font in Linux please care to share.

Again Draw

2008-07-27T21:19:00.001+05:30

Again Draw. I made some bad moves in the initial game. Click here to follow the game.

A short draw

2008-07-26T19:10:00.001+05:30

This was a draw in the 24th move. Click here to follow the game
I sacrificed on bishop that resulted in draw. There was no way out to win.

प्रेम

2008-07-26T08:37:00.004+05:30

५००० साल से इतिहास को अगर तुम देखो, तो वहां तुम्हे बहोत कम लोग ऐसे मिलेंगे जो सच्चे प्रेमी थे। इसलिए हम एक खुशहाल समाज बनने मे नाकामयाब रहे हैं और रहेंगे। प्रेम ही एक ऐसी चीज है जो मनुष्य जाती को सुख और शाति प्रदान कर सकता है। पर प्रेमी होने से पहले तुम्हे आत्मप्रेमी होना होगा। आत्मप्रेमी ही सच्चा प्रेमी होता है। जिसने अपने आप को प्रेम नही किया और दूसरों को भी प्रेम नही कर सकेगा और नही कर पाया है। क्योंकी हमारी सारी अभिव्यक्ति हमारे केन्द्र से उत्त्पन्न होती है। प्रेम भी हमारी ही अभिव्यक्ति है। प्रेम कारन है, अस्तित्व उसका स्त्रोत है। इसलिए पहले अपने अस्तित्व को पहचानो। की हम कौन हैं, कहाँ से आए हैं। और हम क्या कर रहे हैं। हम यहाँ क्यों आए हैं यह उतना बरा प्रश्न नही है जितना बरा की हम अब क्या करें। आ तो गए लेकिन अब करें क्या? प्रेम करें? प्रेम करने के लिए इतनी जल्दीबाजी मत करो। प्रेम बहोत दूर की घटना है। उस से पहले ये जानो, या ऐसा कहें की यह अनुभव करो। जानना और अनुभव मे भेद है। जमीन आसमान का भेद है। जानना यांत्रिक घटना है। अनुभव आत्मा की घटना है। स्कूल, कॉलेज मे हमें सिर्फ़ ज्ञान दिया जाता है। हमारी मस्तिष्क की तंतुओं और कोशिकाओं को ज्ञान भर भर कर दूषित कर दिया जाता है। उस ज्ञान का कोई मोल नही है जो तुम्हे मुक्त न करे। ज्ञान की पराकाष्टा अज्ञान है। अगर जानना ही है तो अकारण को जानो। मूल तत्व को जानो। जिसे जानने के बाद और कुछ जानना शेष नही रहता। अगर कारण को जाना, अगर सीमाओं को जाना तो तुम कुछ भी न जाने। फिर सारा जीवन व्यर्थ हुआ। असीम बनो। तुम बुद्दे लोगों को देखो, उनके पास ज्ञान का अम्बार होता है, फिर भी वे मुक्त नही हो पाते। उनका वही ज्ञान उनके किसी काम नही आता। क्योंकि जीवन भर तो उन्होंने वोही समझा जिसका कारण है। अकारण का तो उन्हें कुछ पता नही। उनकी जीवन की एक शैली होती है। वो जीवन भर उस शैली के साथ चलते हैं। और अगर कहीं उन्हें बाद मे पता चले की उनकी जीवनशैली ग़लत थी और तब तक वो बुजुर्ग हो गए हों तो स्थिति बहुत भयावह है। जीवन के अन्तिम क्षण मे पता चले की हमारी जीवन के प्रति जो अव्धार्नाएं थी वो ग़लत थीं तो इस से बरा दुर्भाग्य और क्या होगा। और अकसर ऐसाही होता हिया। क्योंकि हमारी सारी अव्धार्नाएं कारण पे टिकी होती हैं। और अगर कारण समाप्त हो जायें तो अवधारणाएँ भी समाप्त हो जाएँ। लेकिन अगर तुम उस कारण के साक्षी रहते तो तुम्हे फर्क नही पड़ेगा। क्योंकि तुम सिर्फ़ साक्षी हो। साक्षी को कभी कुछ फर्क नही परता। अगर सूरज पश्चिम मे भी उगे फिर भी साक्षी को कोई फर्क नही परता। साक्षी अन्तिम बात है। साक्षी और सत्य एक ही बात है। बस साक्षी थोरा प्रायोगिक है। असली प्रेम वो है जिसे साक्षी भाव से किया गया हो। जीसस का प्रेम साक्षी का प्रेम था। वो प्रेम के प्रति साक्षी थे। यह समाज की एक चाल थी की हमने साक्षी को भुला दिया। समाज ने जो भी सत्य और ज्ञान तुम्हे सिखाये हैं, तुम ये मत समझ लेना की ज्ञान वैसा ही है। समाज ने सत्य को काफ़ी तोर मरोर के प्रकट किया है। जैसा है वैसा नही बताया। काफ़ी घुमा फिरा कर के बताया है। साक्षी को ही हटा दिया। समाज को डर था की सारे मनुष्य बुद्ध जैसे न हों जाएँ। इसलिए ज्ञान को काफ़ी तोर मरोअर के लिखा गया। राजाओं ने लिखने वाले को ठीक से नही लिखने दिया। आज हमें साक्षी के बारे मे कुछ भी नही पता। पहले का समाज साक्षी का समाज था। अगर तुम साक्षी न हो तो प्रेम भी नही कर पाओगे। फिर वो तुम्हारी ही अभिव्यक्ति होगी। साक्षी होना प्रेम की तरफ़ पहला कदम है। समाज ने साक्षी की भुलादिया। फलतः प्रेम भी गायब हो गया। प्रेमहीन समाज अशांत होता है। हमने कभी भी प्रेममय समाज नही पाया है। इसलिए अगर तुम साक्षी हो तो प्रेम भी कर पाओगे।

A funny morning

2008-07-20T19:41:00.004+05:30

This last friday morning I was making mango shake for my breakfast. I put mango pulp in the mixie. Added some milk in that. I switched on the pwoer button, and lo! there is no power. I was not aware that there is no power. Then, I waited for approx. 25-30 mins for power to come. And I was already being late for the office. Still no power. Then finally became frust and decided to smash it by hand and drink. I did that. Shake was good but not as good as if it were prepared in the mixie. I was just drinking last few sips of the shake and gosh! power came. I laughed.

Good Bad

2008-07-18T22:50:00.003+05:30

Say someone says you that you are a bad boy. Now what does it mean? It simply means one thing. The one who said that is definitely bad. You may or may not be bad but whosoever said that you are bad, is definitely bad. There is no possibility that he/she is not bad. Because, he/she knows what is bad. That's why he/she said that badness about you. To know the bad one has to become bad. You can't know the real badness unless you really become bad. A person with no idea of what is bad cannot say "You are bad". Only a bad person can say "you are bad". Jesus will never say "You are bad". Because, he simply has no idea of badness. Only thing he knows is the love. But some junk guy/gal will say that.

I was thinking about badness. Some of the bad qualities we had been taught in the school college were actually good. And good was actually bad. It's huge propaganda. The whole education system is part of propaganda. Society creates sheeps. Which just go, but where does it go it has no idea. Society has no idea where is it going. Only thing it knows is to go. Just go...For society journey is more important than destination. But, there are some people, rather I should say - some class of people who becomes lion out of those sheeps the society has been creating since day 1. For those lions like men, destination is more important. They simply transcend all the journey and they reach to destination. They don't see miles to go...they simply see the destination with no miles to go now. Fool people sees miles. The whole life they travel on those miles but still they don't reach anywhere. It's not their fault. It's no body's fault. That's how society has taught us. Always walk. Never stop. Actually, it was - Never walk, always stop. But, society swapped always-never.

Good behaviour towards some person and bad behaviour towards other persons makes no sense. It has to be good behaviour towards everybody. Be good even towards your enemy. I know it's difficult. But unfortunately, that's what is the constraint to be met for happier humanity. Otherwise 5000 years was enough time to have a laughing and cheerful humanity. But what do we have? Perverted, lame society. So, which couldn't happen in the last 5000 years, there is a bleak probability that something good will happen in the next 5000 years. However, there is a possibility that it can deteriorate more. We definitely need someone superhuman who come and congregate all the religions and establish the single religion of humanity and love all over the world. Humanity cannot sustain too many religion. No possibility. It can sustain only and only one religion. That's humanity and love. There is a possibility that Christianity and Islam will fight and the whole human civilization will be extinct. Except few pious people. Some pious people will survive. That's my prediction. Excess population, excess advent of these fundamentalists can cause the whole civilization to extinct. Excess population happens with uncontrolled sex. Uncontrolled sex happens with uncontrolled mind. Uncontrolled mind is the gift of society. Society can be also treated like an animal. It also gets old. It has it's own age. And it dies one day. Society has very strange way of survival. At some point of time society might not want to survive. Roman civilization was destroyed. If Roman civilization can be destroyed then any civilization can be destroyed.

Love is the only and only way to for everlasting survival.

A book on the poems I am reading...

2008-07-14T22:22:00.006+05:30

I am reading a book on poems written in Hindi. The author of the book is anonymous. Don't know who is she, but her poems are really heart touching. As usual almost all of the poems are sadistic. By sadistic, I mean which depicts kind of a pain in it. Pain of love. Pain of not getting love etc. All the poems are dedicated to her beloved. Probably some guy. But you never know - it could be a flower also. It could be bird also. No idea. Doesn't really matter whether it's a guy or a flower of a bird. But someone is definitely there.

She says in the poem that she loves him and miss him a lot. She has asked so many questions to her lover. From her poem it appears her lover doesn't stay with her. May be busy in the job lol. Probably she is unconditionally waiting for him. That one day he will come and embrace her. Now you see love and poems are totally mutually exclusive independent phenomena. If I write better poems, that doesn't mean I am a better lover. If I am a better lover that doesn't mean I can write better poems. Poems are matter of literature. Love is transcendental. So, there is a conversion from transcendental to literature. That conversion is done by mind. As I had said, mind is the biggest problem. Mind is the worst part of the body. That I think.

She has demands from her beloved in her poems. Sometimes she wants this, sometimes that. May be that happened because of the conversion factor I described in the previous paragraph. Real love should be demand less. There should not be any trace of demand in the love. Difficult to achieve. Jesus achieved that. Then he became Christ. Love of Jesus is the real love. The love she is talking in her poems are her own manifestation. That's her own creation. In fact, her love is also influenced by society. Society doesn't want to produce lovers. Look at the life of lovers. Their life is not easy. Society sends innumerous pain to them. This happens to real lovers. Since, very beginning society is against of love. That's why we have no schools and colleges and universities for love. Love is not taught anywhere. We are taught maths, physics chemistry all the craps but not love. This simply shows that society is against of love. In fact, this is one of the biggest propaganda these educationist ever made. They didn't add any chapters in our syllabus which which might inadvertently sprout the love among student. That's why perverted students are produced. Low temper student. Don't feel surprised by looking at these highly qualified low temper fellas. It's not their fault. They are just part of propaganda these educationist had started. Yesterday, I met a highly qualified but low temper girl. Again, It's not her fault. Society made her like that. Jesus was a lover, you crucified him. Buddha was a lover, you threw stones at him. Mahavira was a lover, you pierced his ears. Haven't you sent pains to all the lovers who ever walked on the earth? You had. It's not your fault. If you are bad, then it's not your fault. It's fault of society. It's propaganda of society. It's society who makes the person good or bad. There are reason behind this. Love is transcendental. It doesn't understand any boundaries. It simply transcend all the social paradigm. Anything which is transcendental society cannot digest it.

If you contemplate little bit more intensively on these poems then you would find it simply starts disappearing. All the happiness and sorrow expressed in the poems start disappearing. Because, essentially they never existed. They are like waves on the ocean. They tide up and fade. But the ocean remains standstill. As long as the waves thinks that I am separated from the ocean it get destroyed. But the moment the waves acknowledge that - I am the ocean itself, it becomes infinite. She might be a great lover but she needs to understand that all these diversification expressed in her poems needs to be unified at some point in some manner. As long as one thinks I am the doer or I am the lover it contaminate the whole existence itself. Everything is happening by itself. However, the only and only thing can be done is to be the observer. If you become the observer of the love then pain cannot touch you. Sorrow and pain will come and go you would remain as you are as always.

Anyways, big kudos to her for taking initiative to write heart melting poems on love :)

Chess

2008-07-13T09:46:00.002+05:30

One more win...
Click here to follow the game

Win over Nagaskaki

2008-07-12T23:55:00.002+05:30

Got a chance to play chess wit computer. Was a nice win.
Click here to follow the game

निस्वार्थ प्रेम

2008-07-09T22:53:00.004+05:30

प्रेम अगर निस्वार्थ न हो तो वह प्रेम नही। स्वार्थ मे कारण होता है। और स्वार्थ होते ही प्रेम अप्रेम हो जाता है। शुरू मे हो सकता है की प्रेम थोरा स्वार्थी हो। पर जब प्रेम अपनी चरम सीमा पर होता है तो वहां निस्वार्थ ही बचता है। क्योंकि तब सारे कारण समाप्त हो जाते हैं। प्रेम माध्यम है। सत्य लक्ष्य है। तो प्रेम के माध्यम से सत्य को जाना जा सकता है। इसलिए प्रेम के बारे मे इतनी सारी बातें कही गई हैं। जीसस ने प्रेम को इश्वर कहा है। इसके पीछे कारन है। क्योंकि प्रेम मे इतनी शक्ति है की इश्वर का दर्शन करा दे। पर उस तरह के प्रेम का निस्वार्थ होना जरुरी है। तुमने जिस प्रेम को जाना है वो असली प्रेम नही है। वह प्रेम की छाया है। वह प्रेम की प्रतिध्वनि है। हिन्दी सिनेमा मे जो तुम प्रेम देखते हो वह कुछ भी नही है। वह मूलतः शारीरिक और आर्थिक है। अगर तुम प्रेम के काफ़ी गहरे मे उतरोगे तो पाओगे की वहां सिर्फ़ अस्तित्व बचता है। और अस्तित्व akaaran है। इसलिए प्रेम भी निस्वार्थ होगा। क्योंकि स्वार्थ तो तुम्हारी हो abhivyakti है। स्वार्थ मे तो तुम ही व्यक्त हो जाते हो। फिर उस मे प्रेम कहाँ रहा। फिर तो तुम ही तुम हो गए। वहां प्रेम नही रहता, वहाँ vaasana जनम ले लेती है। हमारी सारी vaasnayen हमारी ही aviwyakti हैं। और स्वार्थ ahamkaar से पैदा होता है। Ahamkaari आदमी स्वार्थी होता है। इसलिए अगर तुम्हे सच्चा प्रेमी bananaa है तो सबसे pahle अपने ahamkaar का नाश करो। Ahamkaar नाश होते ही तुम प्रेमी हो जाओगे। इधर ahamkaar नाश हुआ की udhar तुम प्रेमी हो गए। एक का नाश होते ही दूसरा abhivyakt हो जाएगा। जीसस प्रेमी था। वो असली प्रेमी था। क्योंकि उसने सब को प्रेम किया। प्रेम की कोई सीमा नही होती है। प्रेम की अगर सीमा है तो प्रेम प्रेम न होगा। अगर प्रेम की सीमा है तो फिर उसका कारण होगा। कारण होते ही स्वार्थ हो जाएगा। असीम का कोई कारण नही होता। कारण तो सिर्फ़ सीमाओं का होता है। इसलिए सीमाओं के अन्दर रह कर प्रेम कर pana सम्भव नही है। सीमाओं के अन्दर समझौते होते हैं। प्रेम samjhautaa नही है। जब जब प्रेम hotaa है तब तब seemaayen tootati हैं।

Intelligent people - Updated

2008-06-30T22:51:00.005+05:30

To have a happy world we don't need intelligent people. We need contented people. Loving people. Intelligent alone cannot bring happiness. Intelligence alone is like an ash. Unless it is wrapped by love it will rot day by day. Why we have such a perverted civilization? We have been consistently working to attain peace, love and Harmony for last 5000 years. But still we have no trace of love, happiness and Harmony yet. Our endeavour of 5000 years went in vain. Total waste I would say. In the last 5000 years we have hardly created few people who attained peace. What went wrong? So, what is the possibility that in the next 5000 years we will have peace? Only thing we have thought so far is - "It will happen one day". But it never happened. That day never came.

हमने हमेशा से यही गीत गएँ हैं - "हम होंगे कामयाब एक दिन"। और वो दिन कभी नही आया। हमारे गीत होने चाहियें - "हम हैं कामयाब"। समाज ने हमें सिर्फ़ भविष्य की तरफ़ ही धकेला है। सबकुछ मिलेगा लेकिन भविष्य मे। अभी कुछ नही मिलेगा तुम्हे। लेकिन बाद मे सब मिलेगा। कल मिलेगा। और वो कल कभी नही आता है। सदियाँ बीत जाती हैं और वो कल नही आता है। आएगा भी नही। समाज ने कभी भी वर्तमान को नही पहचाना है। समाज की सारी अवधारणायें भविष्य मे होती है। इसलिए तो ऐसे गीत गाये जाते हैं- "हम होंगे कामयाब एक दिन।" गीत लिखने वाले को यह ठीक से पता होना चाहिए की "कब होंगे कामयाब"। एक दिन से कोई अर्थ नही निकलता है। मान लो अरबों खरबों वर्षों के बाद कामयाब हों तो क्या फायदा - हम तो रहंगे नही उस कामयाबी को देखने के लिए। तो फिर उस कामयाबी मे क्या रखा है। कामयाब हों या न हों सब बराबर है। हमें कामयाब अभी होना है। भविष्य मे नही।

Remember one thing - no matter how great device you make, how intelligent device you make, how great service you provide, they can't make you happy. Devices/Services doesn't bring happiness. Intelligence doesn't bring happiness. We made so many devices - computer, laptop, mobile, airplane, car, Internet etc. We still have problems, we still have anarchy, we still have terrorism, we still have poverty. So, that clearly signifies that intelligence doesn't bring happiness. Happiness is inside. Within you. I have never met an intelligent cum happy person. It will be just slight exaggeration if I say - intelligence and happiness are antonyms. Just slight exaggeration.

The bigger problem, even bigger than the intelligence is the ego. Ego is the cause of all problems. The reason why society failed in reducing people's ego is transcendental nature of ego. Ego goes very deep. Ego is not only that what you read into psychology books. It almost touches to the existence level. Truth is the positive existence. Ego is the negative existence. Truth and ego are both at almost same level. But one is positive another is negative. And at a time only one is active. Unless you become supremely free, you are on negative existence. that is - on ego. Ego is the substrate on which our entire consciousness is doped. What these supremely free people do is - they cut that substrate. When that substrate of ego is cut what remains is the positive existence - that is truth. Society has no idea how to cut that substrate of ego. It's not taught in the school or colleges or universities. Infact, society will never teach you anything which might inadvertently enables you to cut that substrate of ego. Whenever that substrate of ego is cut - truth prevails. Until then it's all dark.

The reason why we have such a perverted civilization is that society never taught us "how to love". They never taught us how to accept the situation as it is. We have not created these winds, these sands, these air, these sky these forest, these animals, birds. So, why using all these. You can use, but you have to pay the cost. Nature never gives anything in the free. Although we have so much scientific development but humans are the most perverted animal. That's the cost I was talking. We progressed, but at the cost of perverted civilization. Another animals have equal rights to use natural resources. We have taken away homes of tigers, lions, elephant and put them into zoo. What a shhit activity! We kill them to make our shoes, to have food. Where your home is now should probably would have home of a lion. Lol. All these things gonna come back to us. In any form. It will definitely come. That's my prediction. Infact, it has started coming. Global warming, flood and so many other environmental problems have started.

The biggest unfortune I would say is - incomplete knowledge. Society never analyzed anything completely. Everything has happened in a haphazard manner. Look at your life. Hasn't everything happened in a hurry? As if a train was missing. It doesn't matter if you miss a train, there is always a next train. So, why hurrying? To my knowledge society has never thought with cool and calm mind even for a fraction of second. Incomplete knowledge is dangerous. Your intelligent mind always gives you incomplete knowledge. Ask why? Because, if intelligence impart complete knowledge then, there is no use of intelligence. Because,knowledge is complete. Now you don't need more intelligence to know more knowledge. That's why intelligence always impart incomplete knowledge. The only way to know the complete knowledge is to accept, is to observe, is to achieve egoless state. Try to understand the word achieve. Don't fight with the existence. No body could ever fight. Do not resist. Just accept. All things will be fine.

That was the theory. But there is an additional constraint here. I think in one of my previous post I mentioned this. We have had few happy people. Buddha was happy, Jesus was happy. But , that's not enough. Because, the constraint is - in order to have happy humanity everybody has to be happy. Even a single unhappy person can make whole humanity unhappy. Unhappiness is more viral than happiness. So, basically every body has to become like Buddha. We never met this constraint. That's why so far have unhappy and stumbling humanity.

Lost My Mobile Phone

2008-06-29T07:36:00.007+05:30

Long awaited, finally lost my Nokia 3120 yesterday. Perhaps, when I was in the swimming pool. Someone took it from my bag. That mobile I had purchased on 10th Aug 2004. Yesterday only got a new sim on the same number and a new motorolla set - MOTOSLVR L9. Initially, I didn't want to buy any cell phone. I am not a great lover of cell phones. Any mobile with call and SMS faciity would do for me. So, initially I was thinking I am not going to use a mobile unless someone gift me ;) But since, I took a new sim (On the same old number, in order to deactivate the lost sim) so I anyway had to purchase a new mobile to keep the sim active. BTW, I am still open for gifts, FYI, Apple 3G iPhone is coming in India on 22nd July ;) So, friends I have lost all your contact numbers. So, please care to send them. My contact number is same :)

Finally, thanks to the theif to get me MOTOSLVR L9 Lol.

Sicilian defence win over Nagaskaki

2008-06-27T22:11:00.004+05:30

I started this game in Sicilian style. In the initial game, made opponent's king to leave it's default position. So, king and rook couldn't do castling. That was one slight initial advantage. Most of the time I spend too much energy to take away opponent's horse on C5.
Click here to follow the game

The good news is now you can watch the game in Firefox 3.0 also.

Understanding a person

2008-06-27T06:52:00.003+05:30

It takes time to understand a person. How much time? It depends on many factors. It's very difficult to understand a person from day 1. For that you have to spend some time with that person. The biggest problem in this is you don't know what's running into his brain. That's invisible. What you have is just a cognitive perception of him/her. You have no idea of what he/she is thinking. It's not easy to think what other's think.

A person, a living person is a complex creature. Especially his brain, his mind. If you unfold his mind you would get lots of dreams (both fulfilled and unfulfilled) there. When a person is not sleeping a constant amount of thinking is always going on. And it goes deep inside into consciousness. Which can be seen when unfolded. There are layers of dreams upon dreams. Everything is possible in the dream world. Dream plays very significant role in our life. We all dreams. What we cannot achieve in the real life, we can achieve in the dream world. And it happens. At least it happens to me. If we don't dream there is a possibility that we may become mad. Dream allows you to achieve what you can't in the real life. Say I want to have a hot date with Katrina Kaif. Now in the real world it's not possible. But in the dream world, in the fantasy world it's possible. And trust me - you would never know which one is real. May be dream world is real and this world is unreal. Lol. The point I am trying to make is dreams are very important which simply complements our failures, inability of real world. So keep dreaming!!! ;)

Understanding a person can be more difficult than understanding any scientific laws. Because person changes. He changes second by second. A living human being mind is extremely complex and always remains in the constant pensive/thinking mood. As if he is resisting something from inside. He tries to resist the natural evolutions from within. The more person is educated and grown up the more resistive he comes. And whenever you'd resist you would become tired. Resistance brings tiredness. Acceptance brings happiness. The choice is yours. Look at the children. Have you seen a tired dull child. I haven't. They are always playful and energetic. Because they don't resist. They accept the existence as it is. For example - after a journey young people are tired but a child is not tired. Because he was not trying to resist in the journey. He was not trying to disobey newton's third law. We young people always tries to disobey. That's why we become tired. We disobey nature. Out of your ego. Drop this ego, it will ruin you one day.

I have seen a person changes even on his very fundamental idealogy. The person is same, but now he talks different of what he was talking in the past. He has no idea of what he has said in the past. Very few consistent people I have met. The reason why this happens is the person is not aware of his consciousness, of his existence. He just goes on with the situation. Situation drives him. But when you are aware you would drive the situation. And when you are the driver then you know what you are driving - you would be consistent. So, I can say - Awareness brings consistency.

अमर प्रेम

2008-06-21T20:27:00.004+05:30

सत्य को जानने के लिए प्रेम सबसे सरल माध्यम है। ज्ञान से भी सत्य पाया जा सकता है। पर थोरा मुश्किल है। क्योंकि ज्ञान होते ही अहंकार हो जाता है। ज्ञान होने का अहंकार। अहंकार सत्य के प्रतिकूल की दिशा है। हमने जो औपचारिक शिक्षा प्राप्त की उसने हमारे अहंकार को ही तो बढाया है। ठीक है उस से एक नौकरी भी मिली है। पर मूलतः हमारे अहंकार मे वृद्धि हुई है। जिस चीज के बारे मे तुम जानते हो उसकी महत्ता घट जाती है। क्योंकि वो तुम अब जान गए। वो अब तुम्हारी परिधि के अन्दर आ गई। अब उसमे उतना सार न रहा जो पहले था। वो अब नीरस हो गया। बच्चों को देखो। उनकी शिक्षा कम होती है। पर उनके जीवन मे एक क्रांति होती है, एक प्रवाह होता है। एक अखंड प्रवाह होता है। एक सार होता है। वही सार ज्ञान होते ही, किताब पढ़ते ही निसार हो जाता है। इसलिए तो बच्चे लोग खुश रहते हैं। मैंने आजतक एक भी बच्चे को दुखी नही देगा। वो रोते हैं , पर वो स्वभाभिक है। हम नही रोते हैं, अस्वाभाविक है। हम बच्चों के ठीक विपरीत काम करते हैं। जादा ज्ञान हो जाना, जादा पुस्तक पोथी पढ़ लेना समस्या पैदा कर सकता है। और किया है। थोरा सा ज्ञान काफ़ी है। और अरबों खरबों पुस्तक पढ़ के भी वोही थोरा सा ज्ञान मिलता है। उस ज्ञान का कोई मोल नही है जो ज्ञान कारन पे टिका है। जिसका कारण है उसे तुम अज्ञान जानना है। उस तरह के ज्ञान मे कुछ भी नही रखा है। बस प्रतीति होती है, की काफ़ी कुछ है, है कुछ भी नही। वह ज्ञान जो अकारण हो वही असली ज्ञान है। करनिक ज्ञान तो अकरानिक ज्ञान का ही विस्तार है। अगर किताब पुस्तक पोथी पढ़ के ही ज्ञान मिलता तो जीसस, कबीर और रामकृष्ण को कभी ज्ञान नही मिलता। जीसस बकरी चराता था, और सबसे बरा धर्म प्रवर्तक बना। इसलिये शुद्ध प्रेम मे सत्य के प्रकट होने की थोरी बहुत सम्भावना है। क्योंकि उसमे कारण नही होता है। बस होता है। क्यों, कैसे के लिए उतनी जगह नही है वहां। विश्लेषण करते ही शुद्ध प्रेम अशुद्ध हो जाता है। फिर वो प्रेम रहा ही नही, वो वासना हो जाती है।

प्रेम कई प्रकार हो हो सकते हैं। पिता पुत्र का प्रेम, माँ बेटे का प्रेम, भाई बहन का प्रेम, पति पत्नी का प्रेम। और इन सबसे ऊपर आत्म-प्रेम। आत्म प्रेम सबसे ऊपर है। वास्तव मे मैं आत्म प्रेम की ही बात कर रहा था। पहले अपने आप को प्रेम करना सीखो, तब तुम दूसरे को भी प्रेम कर पाओगे। दुनिया मे अब तक जितने भी प्रेमी हुए हैं उन्होंने पहले अपने आप को प्रेम किया है। पहले अपने को जाना है। तभी वे दूसरे को भी प्रेम कर पाये। बुद्ध ने पहले अपने आप को प्रेम किया। फिर उन्होंने दूसरों को, आनंद को प्रेम किया। इसलिये पहले अपने बारे मे जानो तभी तुम दूसरे का कुछ कर सकते हो। तुम्हे अपने बारे मे तो ख़ुद कुछ पता नही। और प्रेम की गंगा बहने चले हो। जीसस ने प्रेम के गंगा बहाई थी। तो सारा रोमन साम्राज्य हिल गया था। प्रेम मे इतनी शक्ति है की रोम जैसे साम्राज्य को तहस नहस कर दे। और ऐसा ही हुआ। जीसस की शूली के बाद रोमन साम्राज्य जादा दिन न टिक सका। टिकेगा भी नही। सीजरों को दयनीय स्थिति हुई होगी। ऐसा अकसर होता है। अगर समाज मे कोई बहोत बरा प्रेमी पैदा ले ले तो समाज उसे झेल नही पाती. उसकी अपर्मर्थिकता समाज के लिए कांटे जैसे हो जाती है। समाज ने कभी भी शुद्ध प्रेम का पक्ष नही लिया है। एक हद तक लिया है पर उस से जादा नही। समाज की एक सीमा है। प्रेम की कोई सीमा नही। प्रेम असीम है। इसलिये समाज उसे झेल नही पाती।

Funnny monkey video

2008-06-20T21:41:00.002+05:30

Was just searching for videos on tigers. Got this funny video. I laughed too much on this video. Watch this video and I bet you can't stop laughing. Lol

Win over Nagaskaki

2008-06-19T09:00:00.003+05:30

Click here to watch the game

As usual use IE to view the game.

To many IITs...

2008-06-16T21:34:00.008+05:30

I don't know why Govt. is starting so many IITs. 7 IITs are enough. Earlier IITs used to have only 2000 seats. Now it has increased to almost 7000 (although JEE takers also has increased). That means getting into IITs are are easier now. Unlucky were those guys who got 2000+ but < 7000 rank in older JEEs. IITs are center of excellence. If govt. starts more and more IITs, IIT brand name will be diluted. Of course, we need engineers, but that can be done by resurrecting existing engineering colleges. You can produce IITs but you can't produce brains. IITians are finest brains in the world. I am totally against of opening new IITs and increasing seats. I want to see companies going for placement into MIT(Muzaffarpur Institute of Technology) too. I would not like to go to IITs if MIT gives placement.

Lately, I was looking at JEE'08 question. Now, it's damn objective test. No subjective. I didn't know it deteriorated this much. No wonder many students are failing in the first year of their study. Lol.